This week has been wonderful so far!
The morning after my last entry started with me kissing my goddess, then touching her everywhere, then licking her to several glorious orgasms!
Then she gave me some great head and then turned around and sat on my face. I licked her some more and she continued the amazing oral and hand pleasure she was giving me. She mixed in a little ball-squeezing and -busting, too! She's become very good at CBT!
After a couple of minutes 69ing with her on top, she sat up on my face (while still stroking my cock with her hands), bounced on my face just a couple of times - and released a short, pungent fart right into my nose! Then she sat down on my face with most of her weight, shifted slightly - and released a HUGE pungent fart!!
After some laughter, she leaned forward to take my hard cock back into her talented and hungry mouth. In a few seconds, of course, I came with full power! She held me tight in her hands and mouth until I stopped cumming (which was somewhere between 30 and 60 seconds). I could smell her fart the entire time and it kept making me want to cum even more. Not to mention the sight of her gorgeous ass, right there in my face, OWNING me completely. WOW!
I came kissing her ass twice this week and once I fucked her pretty well for first thing in the morning...but I've been thinking about the events of the weekend more than anything else this week. It's like I already got what I want for Christmas!
I hope everyone reading this gets what they want, too!
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Saturday, December 17, 2011
The joy and thrill of KISSING ASS !
If I've learned one thing about human sexuality, it's this: everybody loves to get their ass kissed!
Some love it more than others, but I have yet to meet anyone who hates getting their ass kissed. I've kissed ass probably thousands of times, but only seven or eight different asses, all but one of them women. The typical reaction is amusement followed by sexual arousal. A couple of the women were kind of embarrassed and stiff about it at first, but in the end they loved it, too. For two of the women, kissing their ass seemed to flip their dominance switch to "on"!
My first girlfriend liked to tell me to kiss her ass. When she didn't feel like having sex, she'd roll away, pull down her panties if she wasn't already naked and tell me to kiss her ass! And I did it, every time! She would move her hips to rub her ass in my face and to jam my face farther up her crack. Kissing her ass always made me cum - quickly and hard. I think it started with me kissing her entire body. Every square inch from head to toe. Some spots got more attention than others and of course her ASS got more attention than anywhere else. She was VERY amused, aroused - and soon dominant. I wish I'd know how to ask her to fart in my face because I know she would have LOVED that!
My second girlfriend was more shy about it. Which is kind of surprising, because my first girlfriend was a virgin when we started dating and my second girlfriend told me she'd been with about a dozen guys. I guess none of them ever kissed her absolutely amazing ASS! She was 5'9" and very nicely curved. Athletic. Tight, round, muscular ass. She was so sexually awesome that for the first couple of months after we started having sex, if she didn't feel like fucking, she'd give me a blowjob! I got a blowjob ever other day or so for something like 8 weeks!! She gave good head and got better the longer we were together. She couldn't quite deepthroat me but she used her hands and mouth together really well and even swallowed without being asked! But as our relationship went on, she downgraded me to mostly handjobs with occasional blowjobs - and instead of fucking every other day, it became twice a week, then once...and then she'd just say she wasn't in the mood and she wanted to sleep. I asked if I could kiss her ass and pleasure myself while I kissed it. I could tell she thought it was weird but she let me do it. "That didn't take long!", I remember her saying the first time. She laughed a little and that made her ass, which was still touching my face, shake in a very sexy, humiliating way! I remember always hoping she'd fart in my face but I didn't dare ask and she never did.
My third girlfriend was also tall, and less surprisingly shy. She'd only been with two other guys before me and apparently I was MUCH better at sex than those guys had been. She treated me like a sex god! Whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted was the way it went, almost from beginning to end. When I kissed her ass, she didn't say anything, but I knew she loved it. She had a big round ass that was softer than my previous girlfriend, but I loved it at least as much. After kissing her ass one night, she pulled me up and guided my cock to where my tongue had been. I asked if she was sure and she moved her hand to my ass and urged my hips forward. That was my first anal sex experience and only the first of many I had with her. Ass kissing was the default when she didn't feel like sex and I always enjoyed it - but I always wished she could be dominant like my first girlfriend. I asked her once to tell me to kiss her butt, but she got angry and asked "Is this a 'kiss my ass' thing?" I answered 'no' because I could tell how she felt. I think she farted a tiny fart in my face once, by accident. But I couldn't ask her about things like that.
Finally, there's my goddess! I started kissing her ass while doing 69 with her on top. I reached up to massage her breasts and she took that to mean I wanted her to sit up onto my face! I've never been too shy with her - or she with me. I told her early on that I like kissing her ass, and she let me know she likes for me to kiss it! And lick it...and SUCK it...and breath it in...and TAKE IT when she wants to facefuck me or facesit me or faceBOUNCE me or faceFART me!! Again during 69 with her on top, she farted in my face by accident. And I came about three seconds later. I was comfortable enough with her to let her know WHY I'd cum so quick and so hard. I asked her if she could do it on purpose. She agreed to try! The first time was awkward. She was really nervous. But she did it and soon learned to LOVE farting in my face. She also loves having her ass licked. Somehow we figured out that she could hold my dick between her feet while I'm kissing her ass (maybe we're just built right for each other that way!) and that's our default when she doesn't feel like fucking. Sometimes, though, I'll cum on her feet with her fart gas deep in my lungs and then she'll roll over and have me lick her to several orgasms (after first cleaning my cum off her feet with my tongue!)
My goddess is asleep upstairs right now - what am I doing down here!? I'm going up there and with a little luck, I'll kiss ass yet again in the morning! Good Night, all!!!
Some love it more than others, but I have yet to meet anyone who hates getting their ass kissed. I've kissed ass probably thousands of times, but only seven or eight different asses, all but one of them women. The typical reaction is amusement followed by sexual arousal. A couple of the women were kind of embarrassed and stiff about it at first, but in the end they loved it, too. For two of the women, kissing their ass seemed to flip their dominance switch to "on"!
My first girlfriend liked to tell me to kiss her ass. When she didn't feel like having sex, she'd roll away, pull down her panties if she wasn't already naked and tell me to kiss her ass! And I did it, every time! She would move her hips to rub her ass in my face and to jam my face farther up her crack. Kissing her ass always made me cum - quickly and hard. I think it started with me kissing her entire body. Every square inch from head to toe. Some spots got more attention than others and of course her ASS got more attention than anywhere else. She was VERY amused, aroused - and soon dominant. I wish I'd know how to ask her to fart in my face because I know she would have LOVED that!
My second girlfriend was more shy about it. Which is kind of surprising, because my first girlfriend was a virgin when we started dating and my second girlfriend told me she'd been with about a dozen guys. I guess none of them ever kissed her absolutely amazing ASS! She was 5'9" and very nicely curved. Athletic. Tight, round, muscular ass. She was so sexually awesome that for the first couple of months after we started having sex, if she didn't feel like fucking, she'd give me a blowjob! I got a blowjob ever other day or so for something like 8 weeks!! She gave good head and got better the longer we were together. She couldn't quite deepthroat me but she used her hands and mouth together really well and even swallowed without being asked! But as our relationship went on, she downgraded me to mostly handjobs with occasional blowjobs - and instead of fucking every other day, it became twice a week, then once...and then she'd just say she wasn't in the mood and she wanted to sleep. I asked if I could kiss her ass and pleasure myself while I kissed it. I could tell she thought it was weird but she let me do it. "That didn't take long!", I remember her saying the first time. She laughed a little and that made her ass, which was still touching my face, shake in a very sexy, humiliating way! I remember always hoping she'd fart in my face but I didn't dare ask and she never did.
My third girlfriend was also tall, and less surprisingly shy. She'd only been with two other guys before me and apparently I was MUCH better at sex than those guys had been. She treated me like a sex god! Whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted was the way it went, almost from beginning to end. When I kissed her ass, she didn't say anything, but I knew she loved it. She had a big round ass that was softer than my previous girlfriend, but I loved it at least as much. After kissing her ass one night, she pulled me up and guided my cock to where my tongue had been. I asked if she was sure and she moved her hand to my ass and urged my hips forward. That was my first anal sex experience and only the first of many I had with her. Ass kissing was the default when she didn't feel like sex and I always enjoyed it - but I always wished she could be dominant like my first girlfriend. I asked her once to tell me to kiss her butt, but she got angry and asked "Is this a 'kiss my ass' thing?" I answered 'no' because I could tell how she felt. I think she farted a tiny fart in my face once, by accident. But I couldn't ask her about things like that.
Finally, there's my goddess! I started kissing her ass while doing 69 with her on top. I reached up to massage her breasts and she took that to mean I wanted her to sit up onto my face! I've never been too shy with her - or she with me. I told her early on that I like kissing her ass, and she let me know she likes for me to kiss it! And lick it...and SUCK it...and breath it in...and TAKE IT when she wants to facefuck me or facesit me or faceBOUNCE me or faceFART me!! Again during 69 with her on top, she farted in my face by accident. And I came about three seconds later. I was comfortable enough with her to let her know WHY I'd cum so quick and so hard. I asked her if she could do it on purpose. She agreed to try! The first time was awkward. She was really nervous. But she did it and soon learned to LOVE farting in my face. She also loves having her ass licked. Somehow we figured out that she could hold my dick between her feet while I'm kissing her ass (maybe we're just built right for each other that way!) and that's our default when she doesn't feel like fucking. Sometimes, though, I'll cum on her feet with her fart gas deep in my lungs and then she'll roll over and have me lick her to several orgasms (after first cleaning my cum off her feet with my tongue!)
My goddess is asleep upstairs right now - what am I doing down here!? I'm going up there and with a little luck, I'll kiss ass yet again in the morning! Good Night, all!!!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Learning to kiss ASS
I started becoming an ass kisser around age 6.
A 7 year old boy who'd just moved into the neighborhood "taught" me some sex games. He taught me to suck his dick (although we both thought that literally meant to suck on it like a lollipop!) and he also taught me to "study" his "butt", which meant kneeling behind him with my face right behind his ass. I was surprised to find I liked the way it smelled (although I would never have admitted it). He never asked me to kiss his ass but even at that age I knew there was something submissive about having my face there. Again, I wouldn't have admitted it or even have had the words to say anything like that - but I felt it.
Something else I "felt" was a hot, smelly "breeze" when he farted in my face about a year later! We were still playing our games and he kept adding new ones. Now he liked to stick his dick up against my asshole with both of us standing and to push me around like that. He still liked for me to suck his dick (he also sucked mine, but only about half as often as he had me suck his). By this time, he had learned how dick sucking really worked and he moved my head up and down on his dick (bigger than mine, thick and straight) and thrust his dick deeper into my mouth. He didn't like it when I used my hands to stop him going too deep. He taught me to reach around and hold his ass cheeks tightly, which is still my favorite when I'm giving head. He made me gag a lot!
The fart was a complete, humiliating surprise. He had moved, and his new neighborhood had lots of kids, a couple of whom joined our games. One of them was watching that day. We were in the big playhouse in his new yard. The playhouse was roughly the size of a small room in a house. It had a window, but he'd covered it so we had privacy. He said he wanted me to show the new guy how to study a butt. He stood up on a chair and spread his ass cheeks. I stood right behind him with my nose about an inch from his asshole. I could feel the warmth of his ass on the cheeks of my face and smell the familiar aroma strongly. I was really enjoying it when without warning, I felt a hot wind in my face and saw his asshole flex open. When I heard the sound and smelled the methane I knew he'd farted in my face! He and his friend (who was also a year older) both burst out laughing! I was so humiliated I wanted to cry!
Within a year, my friend had moved again and had discovered girls. He invited me to play some games with him and a couple of girls. More accurately, HE played with the girls. Mostly, I watched or did something submissive to him in front of a girl. He especially liked to make me suck his dick and for me to spread my ass so he could stick his dick up against my asshole. I remember the first time, he told the girl that he wanted her to do these things and he would use me to show them what to do.
The only thing he let me do directly with the girls was "study their butts". One of the girls was my age, the other was a year older. I didn't like the younger one much. She was freckled and giggly and wasn't very good at the games. Mostly she just wanted to look at our bodies. The older girl was more serious, dark-haired, already somewhat curved (especially her ass) and taller than me. When she looked (down) at me, her brown eyes seemed to be saying "I'm in charge of you". She sucked his dick after watching me do it but she wouldn't let him stick his dick between her ass cheeks. She said he could put his face there if he wanted. She'd watched me study his butt. I had been afraid he would fart and relieved that he had spared me THAT humiliation!
When they whispered to each other, I knew something was going on...I remember seeing her eyes get a little wide and then she looked at me with a wicked little grin. She asked me if I wanted to study her butt. Of course I said yes! I kneeled behind her and put my nose up in her ass crack. I liked the way her ass smelled even better than my friend's! We were in the basement and she was leaning on a table. She stepped back, pushing my back against the wall and pressing my face further up her ass! She rubbed her ass in my face a little while making "na na na na na!" taunting sounds! She and my friend both laughed. I was a little shocked by this and was trying to push her ass off my face when she suddenly eased forward just a little, paused, and then blasted a three-second fart right into my nose and open mouth! I immediately realized what was happening and tried to get away, but she moved back and pinned my face to the wall with her ass! They were laughing so hard! I was red in the face with embarrassment!
That same year in school, I hung around mostly with two friends, one of whom farted A LOT. His favorite game was to have one of us hold the third boy down so he could fart on his head! I was the strongest of the three of us and could have avoided getting farted on - but I pretended to be overpowered because I secretly liked it! The other guy seemed to genuinely hate being farted on, but because I was stronger, he never got away! Years later, my gassy friend and I played some more adult games...
Over the next couple of years, I constantly found excuses to put my face behind nice asses! I'd choose my seat in class based on who was sitting in front of me. I dropped my pencil A LOT! On the bus, I'd try to get an aisle seat near the front so everybody's ass would be in face as they got on and off! When we walked up the stairs in groups, I would time it so I was right behind a nice ass! I was much more into girls than boys by this time, but I still liked my aggressive friend. Sometimes we'd wrestle and I'd find a way to get my face right in his ass.
Right around puberty, two things happened that I think made me an ass kisser for life. One day, a guy in our class told a story about watching his cousin come home late from a date. Apparently, they didn't realize he was watching them. The girl told the boy: "kiss my butt". The boy said he would kiss it if she would "bare it". She pulled down her pants and "he kissed her butt"! I found myself thinking about that over and over and over as I started touching myself. I'd look at the girl's butts on the swimsuit and underwear pages of catalogs and imagine kissing them!
A few months after hearing the story, I was playing with three girls on the playground, when out of the blue, one of them told me: "kiss my butt"! Just like in the story, I told her I would if she would "bare it" - to my amazement, she said she would! The four of us sneaked back into the school and went to the large storage closet behind our classroom. It would be deserted for the next 20 minutes or so... The "kiss my butt" girl, a blue-eyed dirty blonde, asked me if I was really going to kiss it. I said sure if she'd show me her bare ass. One of her friends said "what about me?" I said I'd kiss hers, too. So the blonde lifted her skirt, lowered her panties and said "well?" I was embarrassed to do it in front of her friends, but I kneeled down behind her and planted a kiss on her left ass cheek! I wanted to keep kissing it and to stick my face in her crack, but she laughed (they all did) and she quickly pulled up her panties and lowered her skirt. Her friend said "it's my turn!" and pulled her skirt up and panties down. I was still on my knees. I kissed her ass, too! She let me kiss it all over. When I started nuzzling her crack, she pulled away, laughing. The third girl didn't let me kiss her butt; she thought it was "gross" - but she did laugh at me along with the others!
And that is how, but the tender age of 11, I became a full-fledged ass kisser. I'm pretty sure my first orgasm found me fantasizing about kissing ass and/or getting farted on - not to mention a huge percentage of my orgasms since then!
A 7 year old boy who'd just moved into the neighborhood "taught" me some sex games. He taught me to suck his dick (although we both thought that literally meant to suck on it like a lollipop!) and he also taught me to "study" his "butt", which meant kneeling behind him with my face right behind his ass. I was surprised to find I liked the way it smelled (although I would never have admitted it). He never asked me to kiss his ass but even at that age I knew there was something submissive about having my face there. Again, I wouldn't have admitted it or even have had the words to say anything like that - but I felt it.
Something else I "felt" was a hot, smelly "breeze" when he farted in my face about a year later! We were still playing our games and he kept adding new ones. Now he liked to stick his dick up against my asshole with both of us standing and to push me around like that. He still liked for me to suck his dick (he also sucked mine, but only about half as often as he had me suck his). By this time, he had learned how dick sucking really worked and he moved my head up and down on his dick (bigger than mine, thick and straight) and thrust his dick deeper into my mouth. He didn't like it when I used my hands to stop him going too deep. He taught me to reach around and hold his ass cheeks tightly, which is still my favorite when I'm giving head. He made me gag a lot!
The fart was a complete, humiliating surprise. He had moved, and his new neighborhood had lots of kids, a couple of whom joined our games. One of them was watching that day. We were in the big playhouse in his new yard. The playhouse was roughly the size of a small room in a house. It had a window, but he'd covered it so we had privacy. He said he wanted me to show the new guy how to study a butt. He stood up on a chair and spread his ass cheeks. I stood right behind him with my nose about an inch from his asshole. I could feel the warmth of his ass on the cheeks of my face and smell the familiar aroma strongly. I was really enjoying it when without warning, I felt a hot wind in my face and saw his asshole flex open. When I heard the sound and smelled the methane I knew he'd farted in my face! He and his friend (who was also a year older) both burst out laughing! I was so humiliated I wanted to cry!
Within a year, my friend had moved again and had discovered girls. He invited me to play some games with him and a couple of girls. More accurately, HE played with the girls. Mostly, I watched or did something submissive to him in front of a girl. He especially liked to make me suck his dick and for me to spread my ass so he could stick his dick up against my asshole. I remember the first time, he told the girl that he wanted her to do these things and he would use me to show them what to do.
The only thing he let me do directly with the girls was "study their butts". One of the girls was my age, the other was a year older. I didn't like the younger one much. She was freckled and giggly and wasn't very good at the games. Mostly she just wanted to look at our bodies. The older girl was more serious, dark-haired, already somewhat curved (especially her ass) and taller than me. When she looked (down) at me, her brown eyes seemed to be saying "I'm in charge of you". She sucked his dick after watching me do it but she wouldn't let him stick his dick between her ass cheeks. She said he could put his face there if he wanted. She'd watched me study his butt. I had been afraid he would fart and relieved that he had spared me THAT humiliation!
When they whispered to each other, I knew something was going on...I remember seeing her eyes get a little wide and then she looked at me with a wicked little grin. She asked me if I wanted to study her butt. Of course I said yes! I kneeled behind her and put my nose up in her ass crack. I liked the way her ass smelled even better than my friend's! We were in the basement and she was leaning on a table. She stepped back, pushing my back against the wall and pressing my face further up her ass! She rubbed her ass in my face a little while making "na na na na na!" taunting sounds! She and my friend both laughed. I was a little shocked by this and was trying to push her ass off my face when she suddenly eased forward just a little, paused, and then blasted a three-second fart right into my nose and open mouth! I immediately realized what was happening and tried to get away, but she moved back and pinned my face to the wall with her ass! They were laughing so hard! I was red in the face with embarrassment!
That same year in school, I hung around mostly with two friends, one of whom farted A LOT. His favorite game was to have one of us hold the third boy down so he could fart on his head! I was the strongest of the three of us and could have avoided getting farted on - but I pretended to be overpowered because I secretly liked it! The other guy seemed to genuinely hate being farted on, but because I was stronger, he never got away! Years later, my gassy friend and I played some more adult games...
Over the next couple of years, I constantly found excuses to put my face behind nice asses! I'd choose my seat in class based on who was sitting in front of me. I dropped my pencil A LOT! On the bus, I'd try to get an aisle seat near the front so everybody's ass would be in face as they got on and off! When we walked up the stairs in groups, I would time it so I was right behind a nice ass! I was much more into girls than boys by this time, but I still liked my aggressive friend. Sometimes we'd wrestle and I'd find a way to get my face right in his ass.
Right around puberty, two things happened that I think made me an ass kisser for life. One day, a guy in our class told a story about watching his cousin come home late from a date. Apparently, they didn't realize he was watching them. The girl told the boy: "kiss my butt". The boy said he would kiss it if she would "bare it". She pulled down her pants and "he kissed her butt"! I found myself thinking about that over and over and over as I started touching myself. I'd look at the girl's butts on the swimsuit and underwear pages of catalogs and imagine kissing them!
A few months after hearing the story, I was playing with three girls on the playground, when out of the blue, one of them told me: "kiss my butt"! Just like in the story, I told her I would if she would "bare it" - to my amazement, she said she would! The four of us sneaked back into the school and went to the large storage closet behind our classroom. It would be deserted for the next 20 minutes or so... The "kiss my butt" girl, a blue-eyed dirty blonde, asked me if I was really going to kiss it. I said sure if she'd show me her bare ass. One of her friends said "what about me?" I said I'd kiss hers, too. So the blonde lifted her skirt, lowered her panties and said "well?" I was embarrassed to do it in front of her friends, but I kneeled down behind her and planted a kiss on her left ass cheek! I wanted to keep kissing it and to stick my face in her crack, but she laughed (they all did) and she quickly pulled up her panties and lowered her skirt. Her friend said "it's my turn!" and pulled her skirt up and panties down. I was still on my knees. I kissed her ass, too! She let me kiss it all over. When I started nuzzling her crack, she pulled away, laughing. The third girl didn't let me kiss her butt; she thought it was "gross" - but she did laugh at me along with the others!
And that is how, but the tender age of 11, I became a full-fledged ass kisser. I'm pretty sure my first orgasm found me fantasizing about kissing ass and/or getting farted on - not to mention a huge percentage of my orgasms since then!
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Happy Submission and other thoughts
I started today in the best way - with my face where it belongs, stuffed as far into my goddess's ass as possible. I kissed, licked and sucked her gorgeous ass while she held my cock and balls tightly between her feet. It didn't take long until I had a magnificent orgasm! I offered to give her as many orgasms as she wanted but she said she'd rather wait for that until tomorrow.
I realized today, not for the first time, that I'm different from most other guys. Maybe I'm just more honest in my desires or maybe my desires are different. But in the supermarket today, I saw many women with beautiful asses (!) and each time, I imagined what it would be like to have my face there, how it would feel for her to bounce up and down on my face, how it would feel and smell for her to fart on me! After seeing one such lovely ass and having a brief submissive fantasy, I overheard two other guys talking about the same woman. One of them commented on her breasts, the other agreed and said she had a nice ass, too. The breast man wondered what kind of noises she'd make during sex. The other guy wondered if she'd give good head. So different from my own thoughts! I checked out the guys, both athletic and confident, and imagined myself at their feet, being forced by the hot babe to pleasure them both! I doubt any of the three of them had any thoughts like that. Well, fortunately my goddess has the same kind of twisted mind I do!
In other news, I heard a rumor that Queen AdyBa may release new clips soon! I hope it's true. She is the best amateur facesitting and farting dominatrix - in the world! And come to think of it - she's better than all the "professional" dominatrices, too....
Not as good, but still a serious turn-on for me, is Strapon-Hell. Their videos are hot Russian girls dominating guys, mainly with strap-ons. I like that they also dominate in other ways, including "forced" pussy- and ass-licking. But one thing I find annoying is that usually, they use ridiculously large dildos. The slave can't suck much of it and when the mistress fucks him, she can't thrust it in very far and she often has to keep her hand on the dildo. Kind of ruins the illusion that it's part of her, you know? And of course most of their videos are lacking in passion, which is the main reason I prefer Clubdom or Men are Slaves. But none of them are in the same league as Queen AdyBa.
I have other thoughts, but they'll have to wait. I have to get a good night's sleep because my tongue will be very busy in the morning!
I realized today, not for the first time, that I'm different from most other guys. Maybe I'm just more honest in my desires or maybe my desires are different. But in the supermarket today, I saw many women with beautiful asses (!) and each time, I imagined what it would be like to have my face there, how it would feel for her to bounce up and down on my face, how it would feel and smell for her to fart on me! After seeing one such lovely ass and having a brief submissive fantasy, I overheard two other guys talking about the same woman. One of them commented on her breasts, the other agreed and said she had a nice ass, too. The breast man wondered what kind of noises she'd make during sex. The other guy wondered if she'd give good head. So different from my own thoughts! I checked out the guys, both athletic and confident, and imagined myself at their feet, being forced by the hot babe to pleasure them both! I doubt any of the three of them had any thoughts like that. Well, fortunately my goddess has the same kind of twisted mind I do!
In other news, I heard a rumor that Queen AdyBa may release new clips soon! I hope it's true. She is the best amateur facesitting and farting dominatrix - in the world! And come to think of it - she's better than all the "professional" dominatrices, too....
Not as good, but still a serious turn-on for me, is Strapon-Hell. Their videos are hot Russian girls dominating guys, mainly with strap-ons. I like that they also dominate in other ways, including "forced" pussy- and ass-licking. But one thing I find annoying is that usually, they use ridiculously large dildos. The slave can't suck much of it and when the mistress fucks him, she can't thrust it in very far and she often has to keep her hand on the dildo. Kind of ruins the illusion that it's part of her, you know? And of course most of their videos are lacking in passion, which is the main reason I prefer Clubdom or Men are Slaves. But none of them are in the same league as Queen AdyBa.
I have other thoughts, but they'll have to wait. I have to get a good night's sleep because my tongue will be very busy in the morning!
Sunday, December 4, 2011
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Thursday, December 1, 2011
Things I've learned about my sexuality
In the past couple of months, I've learned a lot about my sexual desires.
1) I'm not as gay as I thought I was. Maybe this is just because I haven't met the right guy(s), but women turn me on A LOT more than men do. I'm attracted to something like 1 in 10 women I meet. With guys, it's more like 1 in 100. I guess I've always known this, but with so much of my sex life lately involving dildos in my mouth and/or up my ass, I guess I almost wish I liked guys more.
The Kinsey Scale says I'm a 2 (Predominantly heterosexual, but more than incidentally homosexual). There have been times in my life when I was exclusively homosexual - but that was only because I wasn't having any success with women. Most of the time I've been exclusively hetero, and at those times, I'm usually not interested in men much, or at all. Even at my most interested, I'm usually turned on almost entirely by a guy's dick. Hands are kind of a turn-on too. If he's really hot, I might be into his ass, legs or torso. I've never wanted to kiss a guy and I'm VERY glad my Goddess hasn't mentioned this!
2) For me, when it comes to phalluses, bigger is better - but only up to a point. And for me that point is about 7 inches long and 6 inches around. I learned this by trial and error. I've only been with one guy (not counting naked play with other boys when I was 7-9) and that guy's dick was about 6.5 X 5. And it was AMAZING to me. I could gag on it and if he stuck it up my ass too fast, it hurt like hell. It always satisfied me and making it cum was a demanding job! I'm not sure I would have liked a bigger dick any more. My experience with dildos suggests I would have, but only up to 7"X6".
This WAS a surprise to me. I'd always assumed when I started playing with dildos, that I'd keep wanting bigger and that I'd "never look back" at smaller dildos the same way. But instead, I still love and deeply enjoy (pun not intended!) my smaller dildos. And I don't really enjoy the giant ones at all. The Dream Dick, Johnny and Buck are the perfect size for me. On the smaller side, Elvis and the Cybercock are still outstanding. I have somewhat more powerful anal orgasms with Buck or Johnny than with Elvis, but it's not night and day. I cum just as hard sucking the Cybercock as anything bigger (nice size and the balls are AMAZING).
The Outlaw is too fucking big. The Captain is pretty good, but requires too much warmup and doesn't give any more pleasure for it. The Extreme Cock is fun once in a while, the Tommy Gunn is fun sometimes, too. But I enjoy the smaller ones any time and could enjoy them every day with mucho pleasure and no pain.
On the other hand...there is also such a thing as too small. I think the design of the Vixskin Goodfella is brilliant - full 360° balls - but at 5'5'' by 1.5'' he's too small. I can't gag on him and I barely feel him in my ass.
3) The female ass is my #1 turn-on. This is also no surprise. It's been true since I hit puberty. I guess recently I thought I was more into kinky sex - whipping, ballbusting, pegging (etc). But my Goddess can work me over for a very long time in any number of kinky ways and while I always enjoy it, I can usually keep from cumming. But if she sits on my face, no matter how hard I might try to resist, I'm done in a very short while. Wow!
1) I'm not as gay as I thought I was. Maybe this is just because I haven't met the right guy(s), but women turn me on A LOT more than men do. I'm attracted to something like 1 in 10 women I meet. With guys, it's more like 1 in 100. I guess I've always known this, but with so much of my sex life lately involving dildos in my mouth and/or up my ass, I guess I almost wish I liked guys more.
The Kinsey Scale says I'm a 2 (Predominantly heterosexual, but more than incidentally homosexual). There have been times in my life when I was exclusively homosexual - but that was only because I wasn't having any success with women. Most of the time I've been exclusively hetero, and at those times, I'm usually not interested in men much, or at all. Even at my most interested, I'm usually turned on almost entirely by a guy's dick. Hands are kind of a turn-on too. If he's really hot, I might be into his ass, legs or torso. I've never wanted to kiss a guy and I'm VERY glad my Goddess hasn't mentioned this!
2) For me, when it comes to phalluses, bigger is better - but only up to a point. And for me that point is about 7 inches long and 6 inches around. I learned this by trial and error. I've only been with one guy (not counting naked play with other boys when I was 7-9) and that guy's dick was about 6.5 X 5. And it was AMAZING to me. I could gag on it and if he stuck it up my ass too fast, it hurt like hell. It always satisfied me and making it cum was a demanding job! I'm not sure I would have liked a bigger dick any more. My experience with dildos suggests I would have, but only up to 7"X6".
This WAS a surprise to me. I'd always assumed when I started playing with dildos, that I'd keep wanting bigger and that I'd "never look back" at smaller dildos the same way. But instead, I still love and deeply enjoy (pun not intended!) my smaller dildos. And I don't really enjoy the giant ones at all. The Dream Dick, Johnny and Buck are the perfect size for me. On the smaller side, Elvis and the Cybercock are still outstanding. I have somewhat more powerful anal orgasms with Buck or Johnny than with Elvis, but it's not night and day. I cum just as hard sucking the Cybercock as anything bigger (nice size and the balls are AMAZING).
The Outlaw is too fucking big. The Captain is pretty good, but requires too much warmup and doesn't give any more pleasure for it. The Extreme Cock is fun once in a while, the Tommy Gunn is fun sometimes, too. But I enjoy the smaller ones any time and could enjoy them every day with mucho pleasure and no pain.
On the other hand...there is also such a thing as too small. I think the design of the Vixskin Goodfella is brilliant - full 360° balls - but at 5'5'' by 1.5'' he's too small. I can't gag on him and I barely feel him in my ass.
3) The female ass is my #1 turn-on. This is also no surprise. It's been true since I hit puberty. I guess recently I thought I was more into kinky sex - whipping, ballbusting, pegging (etc). But my Goddess can work me over for a very long time in any number of kinky ways and while I always enjoy it, I can usually keep from cumming. But if she sits on my face, no matter how hard I might try to resist, I'm done in a very short while. Wow!
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
The lost weekend
Well... I just had the most intense week of my sexual life.
Sex every day at least once and usually twice. Mostly submissive. Thoroughly satisfying!
Most of the time, I "drive from the bottom" or just take charge completely. Not this week. This week, my Goddess told me what and when and how - and I didn't dare ask why!
I'm glad no one else was involved, although she had threatened to find a guy or two to stick their cocks in me! So she stuck HER cocks in me instead!! 5 different dildos - Elvis, Johnny, Buck, the Captain and the Outlaw. And I have great respect for all of them now.
For three days my Goddess kept me naked except for the locked collar on my neck. She woke me up twice by sitting on my face, slapping me and then farting as soon as I opened my eyes! I lost count of how many times I came with her ass in my face, or how many times she farted in my face!
She whipped me, paddled me, kicked me (especially in my nuts!), slapped me... and did I mention? She FUCKED me. Like some kind of sex god. A couple of times I was tied down and once she encouraged me to try to stop her. I couldn't! By that point, my ass was loose and being "forced" to take Johnny "against my will" wasn't really a big deal. But it was strange, the feeling of being pseudo raped. I had already cum just about an hour before. She told me this wasn't about my pleasure. I wanted her to touch my dick, but she didn't. She just tied me up, fucked me for 20 minutes or so, came a couple of times by touching herself - and then left the room! With me still tied up! She came back a half hour later and let me kiss her ass and fuck her feet. Again she farted and I came seconds later. And ate my cum off her feet.
Several times she fucked me and made me suck a dildo at the same time, usually the Dream Dick. She said it turned her on to watch me deepthroat a big dick! She usually made me suck her strapon dildo before fucking me, spicing it up with a bit of face slapping and eye contact management: "LOOK at me!" (slap) Then, a few seconds later, "Don't look at me!" (Slap!) She got into slapping my face with her cock, and beating my balls with it before fucking me in missionary. The first time she did that, my hands were cuffed and my cuffs were locked to my collar. I tried to stop her but couldn't! Ow! She laughed to see my pain!
And I guess it's a good sign that she wanted me to fuck her more as the week went on. I even enjoyed her ass once! But I guess she had mine 10 times or more.
And now we have a code. I have a necklace which can be used to tie my balls. If she wants to "play", she gets it out of the drawer and puts it on the dresser with my wallet and keys.
We just had Thanksgiving, my favorite holiday. We enjoyed it with her lively family and when we were all saying what we were thankful for, of course I included her. But I didn't say what I really wanted to say: that I was thankful to have found my soul-mate, someone who enjoys kinky sex as much as I do!
Sex every day at least once and usually twice. Mostly submissive. Thoroughly satisfying!
Most of the time, I "drive from the bottom" or just take charge completely. Not this week. This week, my Goddess told me what and when and how - and I didn't dare ask why!
I'm glad no one else was involved, although she had threatened to find a guy or two to stick their cocks in me! So she stuck HER cocks in me instead!! 5 different dildos - Elvis, Johnny, Buck, the Captain and the Outlaw. And I have great respect for all of them now.
For three days my Goddess kept me naked except for the locked collar on my neck. She woke me up twice by sitting on my face, slapping me and then farting as soon as I opened my eyes! I lost count of how many times I came with her ass in my face, or how many times she farted in my face!
She whipped me, paddled me, kicked me (especially in my nuts!), slapped me... and did I mention? She FUCKED me. Like some kind of sex god. A couple of times I was tied down and once she encouraged me to try to stop her. I couldn't! By that point, my ass was loose and being "forced" to take Johnny "against my will" wasn't really a big deal. But it was strange, the feeling of being pseudo raped. I had already cum just about an hour before. She told me this wasn't about my pleasure. I wanted her to touch my dick, but she didn't. She just tied me up, fucked me for 20 minutes or so, came a couple of times by touching herself - and then left the room! With me still tied up! She came back a half hour later and let me kiss her ass and fuck her feet. Again she farted and I came seconds later. And ate my cum off her feet.
Several times she fucked me and made me suck a dildo at the same time, usually the Dream Dick. She said it turned her on to watch me deepthroat a big dick! She usually made me suck her strapon dildo before fucking me, spicing it up with a bit of face slapping and eye contact management: "LOOK at me!" (slap) Then, a few seconds later, "Don't look at me!" (Slap!) She got into slapping my face with her cock, and beating my balls with it before fucking me in missionary. The first time she did that, my hands were cuffed and my cuffs were locked to my collar. I tried to stop her but couldn't! Ow! She laughed to see my pain!
And I guess it's a good sign that she wanted me to fuck her more as the week went on. I even enjoyed her ass once! But I guess she had mine 10 times or more.
And now we have a code. I have a necklace which can be used to tie my balls. If she wants to "play", she gets it out of the drawer and puts it on the dresser with my wallet and keys.
We just had Thanksgiving, my favorite holiday. We enjoyed it with her lively family and when we were all saying what we were thankful for, of course I included her. But I didn't say what I really wanted to say: that I was thankful to have found my soul-mate, someone who enjoys kinky sex as much as I do!
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
The submissive life
The last few weeks have been sexually unusual for me. More submission, more exploring my gay side, more thinking about what it means to be a Man...
I've learned I'm not as gay as I might have thought. I do find guys sexually exciting - in theory. But interacting with actual guys, I find, isn't that exciting. I'm sure that if I were actually having sex with men, it would be a lot more exciting. But despite my post to the contrary a few days ago, I would feel weird - wrong - if I had sex with anyone but my Goddess. Unless of course she makes me do it!
Which seems much more likely than it did a month ago! My Goddess has been encouraging me to explore my gay side. She told me the idea of my being dominated/abused/humiliated by superior men is a huge turn on for her! Other than kissing her ass a couple of days this week and some amazing, unexpected oral from her last weekend, I'm only allowed to cum this week if I have a dildo in my mouth (this one) and one in my ass (usually this one, yesterday for the first time, this one).
Dominant men turn me on, submissive men not at all. That's always been the case. Lately, I'm not turned on much by submissive females, either. But HUGELY turned on by dominant females. I think a lot of women can go either way on D/s. If the guy is a real stud - she submits. Beta male - she dominates him. Not all women. Some are submissive and could never convincingly dominate and some are just dominant. I think usually, I tend to arouse the submissive side in women when I first meet them. I usually come off as masculine, confident, strong. But lately, I feel like I'm so submissive others sense it right away and women who can go either way switch into domme mode. I'm not sure if that's a permanent change.
I'm also definitely more submissive in my desires lately. The beauty is, that's in line with my Goddess's desires. I like to think it's BECAUSE of my Goddess's desires, that she is shaping me into who she wants me to be and I am submitting to her will so much that her desires become my own!
And I'm seeing everything through a submissive lens. I watch a basketball game and it seems the players are competing to see who has the biggest cock, and that the winning team is going to have its way with the losing team (and/or its cheerleaders, girlfriends, etc). Of course I visualize myself as inferior to every player on the court. I wonder what it would be like to be orally and anally gangbanged by the whole team! I see a hot looking woman in the grocery store and I imagine myself on my knees in front of her (or behind her!), she with a whip in her hand and strapping a huge femdom cock! I'm involuntarily checking out guy's bulges. If I see a big bulge and the guy is attractive, I imagine being on my knees in front of him, him holding my head while he fucks my throat! Or bending me over and assfucking me! Or tying me up, having sex with my Goddess (her idea, of course) and both of them abusing me.
I do subscribe, at least somewhat, to the "substitution theory" of D/s (don't know if that's what other people call it), where people with too little control over their lives become dominant and those with too much become submissive. If the world pushes you around, you will want someone else to push around to even things out. That's the theory. It's true that as I become more successful in life, the more I want to be someone's bitch! Only now it seems like I'm ONLY turned on by people who want to dominate me and that's a change from even a few weeks ago, when I also got turned on by submissive women. But now I'm behaving more submissively in ALL my interactions and that that is creating a vicious cycle: people pick up on my submissive vibe and play the superior role. I love being a bitch in the bedroom but I don't want to be a bitch with, say, my boss, or at the car repair shop!!
We'll see what happens over the next few weeks...maybe it depends on what my Goddess wants!
I've learned I'm not as gay as I might have thought. I do find guys sexually exciting - in theory. But interacting with actual guys, I find, isn't that exciting. I'm sure that if I were actually having sex with men, it would be a lot more exciting. But despite my post to the contrary a few days ago, I would feel weird - wrong - if I had sex with anyone but my Goddess. Unless of course she makes me do it!
Which seems much more likely than it did a month ago! My Goddess has been encouraging me to explore my gay side. She told me the idea of my being dominated/abused/humiliated by superior men is a huge turn on for her! Other than kissing her ass a couple of days this week and some amazing, unexpected oral from her last weekend, I'm only allowed to cum this week if I have a dildo in my mouth (this one) and one in my ass (usually this one, yesterday for the first time, this one).
Dominant men turn me on, submissive men not at all. That's always been the case. Lately, I'm not turned on much by submissive females, either. But HUGELY turned on by dominant females. I think a lot of women can go either way on D/s. If the guy is a real stud - she submits. Beta male - she dominates him. Not all women. Some are submissive and could never convincingly dominate and some are just dominant. I think usually, I tend to arouse the submissive side in women when I first meet them. I usually come off as masculine, confident, strong. But lately, I feel like I'm so submissive others sense it right away and women who can go either way switch into domme mode. I'm not sure if that's a permanent change.
I'm also definitely more submissive in my desires lately. The beauty is, that's in line with my Goddess's desires. I like to think it's BECAUSE of my Goddess's desires, that she is shaping me into who she wants me to be and I am submitting to her will so much that her desires become my own!
And I'm seeing everything through a submissive lens. I watch a basketball game and it seems the players are competing to see who has the biggest cock, and that the winning team is going to have its way with the losing team (and/or its cheerleaders, girlfriends, etc). Of course I visualize myself as inferior to every player on the court. I wonder what it would be like to be orally and anally gangbanged by the whole team! I see a hot looking woman in the grocery store and I imagine myself on my knees in front of her (or behind her!), she with a whip in her hand and strapping a huge femdom cock! I'm involuntarily checking out guy's bulges. If I see a big bulge and the guy is attractive, I imagine being on my knees in front of him, him holding my head while he fucks my throat! Or bending me over and assfucking me! Or tying me up, having sex with my Goddess (her idea, of course) and both of them abusing me.
I do subscribe, at least somewhat, to the "substitution theory" of D/s (don't know if that's what other people call it), where people with too little control over their lives become dominant and those with too much become submissive. If the world pushes you around, you will want someone else to push around to even things out. That's the theory. It's true that as I become more successful in life, the more I want to be someone's bitch! Only now it seems like I'm ONLY turned on by people who want to dominate me and that's a change from even a few weeks ago, when I also got turned on by submissive women. But now I'm behaving more submissively in ALL my interactions and that that is creating a vicious cycle: people pick up on my submissive vibe and play the superior role. I love being a bitch in the bedroom but I don't want to be a bitch with, say, my boss, or at the car repair shop!!
We'll see what happens over the next few weeks...maybe it depends on what my Goddess wants!
Monday, November 14, 2011
Buck fucked
Finally gave up my tender ass today to Buck, my latest Vixskin "lover".
Warmed up first with 1 finger then 2, then scissored them, then used the Cobalt Blue buttplug, then managed to take Buck almost immediately. Unlike most of my dildos, getting the head in doesn't guarantee full penetration. With Buck about halfway up my ass, the widening shaft reach the "too big" point of pain. But after backing out a little and waiting, I was able to take the full length, huge fat girth and all. With all the realistic veins and other details, it felt really good. Only complaint is that if I don't hold it in place, it soon slides right back out of my ass. Always such a letdown, when the guy can't keep it in you! But I held it and fucked myself while deepthroating the Dream Dick.
My dick was inside my "slave tube". I laid facedown on the bed and fucked while sucking one big dick and being fucked by another. What an amazing way to masturbate!
Fantastic orgasm! Anal orgasm, too. Can't wait to try this with my Goddess wearing Buck in her SpareParts Joque Harness!!
Warmed up first with 1 finger then 2, then scissored them, then used the Cobalt Blue buttplug, then managed to take Buck almost immediately. Unlike most of my dildos, getting the head in doesn't guarantee full penetration. With Buck about halfway up my ass, the widening shaft reach the "too big" point of pain. But after backing out a little and waiting, I was able to take the full length, huge fat girth and all. With all the realistic veins and other details, it felt really good. Only complaint is that if I don't hold it in place, it soon slides right back out of my ass. Always such a letdown, when the guy can't keep it in you! But I held it and fucked myself while deepthroating the Dream Dick.
My dick was inside my "slave tube". I laid facedown on the bed and fucked while sucking one big dick and being fucked by another. What an amazing way to masturbate!
Fantastic orgasm! Anal orgasm, too. Can't wait to try this with my Goddess wearing Buck in her SpareParts Joque Harness!!
Thursday, November 3, 2011
The penis mightier than the sword?
Since joining Cock Size Contest (CSC) a week ago, I've learned a lot.
First - a revelation: guys on the internet lie about the size of their penises!
Obviously, that's not a revelation at all! But I do have to wonder if the guys on CSC exaggerate their size more than most guys do, or whether guys with small dicks simply avoid the site? According to Ansell, the makers of LifeStyles condoms, who to date have done the only comprehensive study of dick size I'm aware of, the average penis length is 5.9 inches, the average girth 4.9 inches.
On CSC, and this is just based on the 68 guys I've compared with so far, the average length is 7.06 inches, the average girth 5.91 inches. That's a lot more than the 1/4 inch that the Ansell volunteers exaggerated! Or maybe everybody on CSC just has a big dick. That's what I want to believe! My winning percentage so far? About 35%.
I got taunted and bossed around some today, which was awesome. One guy sent me a private message after we compared (and he won, of course). He said I was a 'weakling' and that he'd like to humiliate me 'in front of our girlfriends'! I replied, agreeing that he made me feel week and small and that 'our girlfriends' would sure agree. I asked how he wanted to humiliate me, but he didn't respond. Still, it made me seriously horny to imagine!
Another guy, who has bossed me around before, told me to send him some pics of big dicks and hot chicks. So I did. I realized he was a lot more into the big dicks than the hot chicks, so finally I sent him some screenshots from a scene from one of Annette Schwarz's movies, where she deepthroats a HUGE guy, balls and all. I think he came looking at those. He disappeared after I sent them. That was fun, too, but I'm pretty bored with him now. He did say "you can suck my dick if you make me horny" which was pretty much the dynamic with my friend years ago, but I'm starting to believe he's just a lazy, lying kid.
I want to go on cam chat on CSC, but I don't want to show my face. I'm not famous, but I am well-known in some circles. These are not circles where being seen jacking off online would go over well. So I ordered a mask, like some guys wear in dominatrix videos. I should have it early next week. And then, I hope to demonstrate my cocksucking prowess with dildos on cam chat while I fantasize about sucking off the well-hung dudes who are on there with me.
Back to the Ansell study, another thing that impressed me was that 25% of guys couldn't get hard to get their dicks measured. So they weren't counted. Having tried to take pics of my dick this week, I understand.
But I don't like it! I want to have a huge, persistent erection that I can show off on cam, in pics, in bed with my wife...so I started doing my male kegel exercises again. Peter North swears by these, claims they are the secret to his incredible cumshots. They definitely make sex more fun by making my cock stay harder. I can even move it inside my wife by just "flexing" the muscle. Apparently, the exercises also help with bladder control.
And for now I have religion again about working out. Nothing like being in a group of well-hung guys to make me want to be as fit as I can be. I hope I stick with it! Right now, I'm still sore from lifting on Tuesday. Hurts so good!
First - a revelation: guys on the internet lie about the size of their penises!
Obviously, that's not a revelation at all! But I do have to wonder if the guys on CSC exaggerate their size more than most guys do, or whether guys with small dicks simply avoid the site? According to Ansell, the makers of LifeStyles condoms, who to date have done the only comprehensive study of dick size I'm aware of, the average penis length is 5.9 inches, the average girth 4.9 inches.
On CSC, and this is just based on the 68 guys I've compared with so far, the average length is 7.06 inches, the average girth 5.91 inches. That's a lot more than the 1/4 inch that the Ansell volunteers exaggerated! Or maybe everybody on CSC just has a big dick. That's what I want to believe! My winning percentage so far? About 35%.
I got taunted and bossed around some today, which was awesome. One guy sent me a private message after we compared (and he won, of course). He said I was a 'weakling' and that he'd like to humiliate me 'in front of our girlfriends'! I replied, agreeing that he made me feel week and small and that 'our girlfriends' would sure agree. I asked how he wanted to humiliate me, but he didn't respond. Still, it made me seriously horny to imagine!
Another guy, who has bossed me around before, told me to send him some pics of big dicks and hot chicks. So I did. I realized he was a lot more into the big dicks than the hot chicks, so finally I sent him some screenshots from a scene from one of Annette Schwarz's movies, where she deepthroats a HUGE guy, balls and all. I think he came looking at those. He disappeared after I sent them. That was fun, too, but I'm pretty bored with him now. He did say "you can suck my dick if you make me horny" which was pretty much the dynamic with my friend years ago, but I'm starting to believe he's just a lazy, lying kid.
I want to go on cam chat on CSC, but I don't want to show my face. I'm not famous, but I am well-known in some circles. These are not circles where being seen jacking off online would go over well. So I ordered a mask, like some guys wear in dominatrix videos. I should have it early next week. And then, I hope to demonstrate my cocksucking prowess with dildos on cam chat while I fantasize about sucking off the well-hung dudes who are on there with me.
Back to the Ansell study, another thing that impressed me was that 25% of guys couldn't get hard to get their dicks measured. So they weren't counted. Having tried to take pics of my dick this week, I understand.
But I don't like it! I want to have a huge, persistent erection that I can show off on cam, in pics, in bed with my wife...so I started doing my male kegel exercises again. Peter North swears by these, claims they are the secret to his incredible cumshots. They definitely make sex more fun by making my cock stay harder. I can even move it inside my wife by just "flexing" the muscle. Apparently, the exercises also help with bladder control.
And for now I have religion again about working out. Nothing like being in a group of well-hung guys to make me want to be as fit as I can be. I hope I stick with it! Right now, I'm still sore from lifting on Tuesday. Hurts so good!
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
My alternative lifestyle explored
Well, like I wrote a couple of days ago, I'm not technically gay. Never mind that I'm married and have had sex with a fairly large number of women. When I comes to getting turned on, I'm much more turned on by female ass, tits, feet, faces (etc) than I am about anything male.
But I do also like COCK! And I've been lucky enough to have swallowed cum about a hundred times and to have been fucked in the ass about half a dozen times. I fantasize about gay sex, 99% of the time with me on the receiving end of the cock. Which is about the percentage I've had it in real life.
It started in high school with giving my friend a BJ, then another, then another...and then for several years, nothing happened (homosexually, that is to say). I went off to college, went to work, fell in love with an amazing woman, got burned, fell in love with another amazing woman, got burned again...and finally moved back to my hometown.
(There were a couple of missed opportunities to have gay sex with other guys in between, but I'll talk about them later).
A few weeks after moving back home, I ran into my old friend. He was living with his mom and her new husband. He invited me to spend the night. I accepted and took a couple of hardcore porno mags with me. After locking the doors to his room, we looked at the magazines and I saw his erection grow to full force under his cutoff jeans. After a while, I said quietly, "You remember what we used to do in high school?"
He seemed to be expecting this. "You mean those blowjobs?"
I nodded. "You want to do it again?"
He stood up, dropped his shorts and walked over in front of me, erection in hand. I slid down to my knees and kissed, licked, then passionately sucked his cock. I had fantasized about this a hundred times or more in the years apart. His dick was still the same, only now he was more aggressive and rough with me. He took my head in his hands and started fucking my mouth and throat. When I realized I could take his full length like this without gagging (I'd been practicing on a dildo), I put my hands on his ass and guided his thrusts. I loved to feel his dominant, greedy power as he throat-fucked me! And his ass was still very sexy, hairier and more muscular. I paused to suck his balls and then he turned around and I licked his ass. Then he fucked my face until he came. I swallowed. I was disappointed by the amount of cum, but I loved that I had made him cum and my sore lips would remind me of his power and dominance for a couple of days. Just as I had done years before, I jacked off to powerful orgasms three times in the space of about 20 minutes after going off to the room where I was sleeping.
He had been married, divorced and had spent time in jail in between. It hadn't changed him much, but he was more direct and tough. I liked it. We hooked up a few more times that year, but he wasn't in the greatest shape and the encounters weren't that memorable. He was drinking too much and smoking too much pot, jacking off several times a day because he was bored and didn't have anything else to do. Turned out he was on parole and ended up violating it by not checking in with his parole officer.
So he went back to jail and I went back to having sex only by myself. I managed to get back together with the most recent amazing woman for about a year, but since I still didn't want to have kids and she desperately did, she dumped me again. The sex was great while it lasted. She liked anal sex and I enjoyed fucking her big ass.
A couple months after the final breakup, I got a call from my old friend. He was still in jail about an hour from me. He was in minimum security and they let him go to work every day and come back in the evening. Unsupervised. Usually his boss picked him up and dropped him off, but he believed that I could pick him up after work one day a week, spend some time and then take him back and they would believe I was another manager at the restaurant. Sounded pretty cool to me! So, a few days later, I picked him up from the restaurant at the mall. He looked really good, said he'd been working out. We got some beer and he looked at porno mags while I drove to a nearby park with some woods (I'd done research). I asked him if he wanted a blowjob. He took my hand and put it on his rock-hard dick and said, "What do you think?"
We walked into the woods. I kneeled in the leaves in front of him. He unzipped his shorts and put his dick out for me to suck. It didn't take him long to cum and he came BIG! I managed to swallow it all. My knees had made deep impressions in the leaves. As he zipped up his pants, he pointed to the impressions and laughed. I enjoyed the humiliation!
We did the same thing twice more, and it was just as good both times. Then he got released. He was staying with some people (I guess he met them in jail) in an improbably nice apartment. He was already semi-drunk when I got there. I just wanted to go have sex, but he wanted to go to the "titty bar". So we went there and he had fun with the girls and they with him (I liked the way he put the dollar bills in his waistband for the dancer to remove with her mouth).
We didn't have enough privacy at the apartment, so I drove to a quiet corner of a deserted parking lot and blew him right there in the car. I liked sucking his dick from this angle - it was very different and in a way, it made his dick seem bigger. I found it harder to deepthroat him without gagging. When he seemed to be getting close to cumming, he stopped me and said "I think I want to fuck you now."
Whoa. I'd never had anything bigger than a woman's finger up my ass, and I'd never thought I'd want to be fucked by a man. But as soon as he said it, I got that funny feeling in my stomach again. I was scared - I hesitated - but there could be only one answer. Of course, I wanted him to fuck me if he wanted to, but I knew that for me to enjoy it, breaking in my virgin ass would have to be a slow process, not something that we could do spur of the moment in the back of a car. I managed to say, "I think I want you to fuck me, too."
He pointed to the back seat and said, "Bend over for me".
Whoa again. I really wanted to just pull down my shorts and bend over for him on the spot but my my brain won this round. "Come to my house and you can tie me up and fuck me!" I thought anal sex and bdsm were part of the same thing. His Dominance. my submission. I figured everybody thought like that. I figured by offering him something more than what he asked for - my complete submission - he'd be glad to wait. But that's how I'd have felt about it - I've always been good at delaying gratification - but he and I were and are very different that way.
He gave me a disappointed, "you're letting me down" look but he said "OK" and shoved my head back on his cock and he fondled my ass while I sucked him to a decent-sized mouthful of sperm. Which of course, I swallowed.
He got his life sort of going again, with the restaurant job and the apartment. Unfortunately, he got his drinking going again, too, and some cocaine as well. I went to see him one night, at a party, but he spent it getting fucked up and failing miserably to get laid with several of the skanky girls there. Finally, he said he wanted for me to suck him off but passed out before we got to his room. I didn't visit him there again.
A few months later he popped up in the old hometown. He started coming over to see me. A lot. I gave him head dozens of times that summer. He stayed with me for awhile, which was pretty awesome. He worked his way through my porn tapes and "ordered" me to suck his dick almost as often as I would have liked. I told him I liked it when he bossed me around and he got into it sometimes.
The next time he brought up the idea of fucking me, I said I wanted to fuck him first. He didn't like that idea. But I started fingering his ass more when I blew him. One finger, then two, then scissoring them...I knew from my experience with my awesome ex that he was ready for my dick. But he wouldn't give in.
I bought a vibrator and learned to take it up my ass with no problems. I had three dildos at the time and I learned to take the small and medium sized ones up my ass with no problems. But I wanted to win this battle of wills and I held out for months.
He moved out (I drew the line at crack cocaine), but we kept seeing each other. I let him finger my ass while I blew him, and one day I let him tie me up. I had set up some straps for my wrists and ankles. All he had to do was snap them locked. The first thing he did after securing me was to sit on my face! He started rubbing his ass in my face just like when we were kids. It occurred to me that he might fart! I hoped he wouldn't but I also kind of hoped he would! (He didn't). I stuck my tongue out as I could and he soon planted his asshole right on it. He moved up and down on my tongue and when he stopped moving, I kept working it in and out by moving my neck. He said "Ha ha - you're fucking my ass - with your tongue!" After he'd had enough ass licking, he turned around and stuck his dick in my mouth and started fucking. Just as deep and as hard as he could fuck. Right from the get go. It was too much! But I couldn't stop him! It made me so horny I could hardly stand it. I managed to get some air by turning my head until I finally managed to get his dick out of my mouth. He held my head and shoved his dick back in my mouth, but didn't throatfuck me quite as hard. I managed to take it. I had left the medium dildo and some lube by the bed. He saw them and put some lube on his finger. He fingered me. One finger, two fingers...he picked up the dildo and started shoving it into my ass way too fast! I stopped him, he untied me and following his command, I worked the dildo into my ass and fucked myself with it. He took hold of the dildo, and for the first time, I got some idea of what it would be like to be assfucked by a man. I liked it! He took the dildo out, got behind me and started trying to jam his cock into my ass! I wanted to let him but I stopped him. Instead, he fucked my mouth until he came and yes, I swallowed.
The next day, his evil ex showed up with their kid and he went off with them. I went on vacation.
When I got back, he had left me several messages that day on my answering machine. His evil ex had taken off and stolen his money. He needed a place to stay. At least his timing was good. I expected to find him in a bad mood, but he was cool about everything. In fact, he wanted sex almost as soon as we got to my house. Following his commands, I stripped, then gave him head in a 69 with me on top. He fingered my ass, asked for the dildo and lube and came in my mouth while fucking my ass with the dildo. I really liked sucking him and getting fucked like that. The reverse angle of his dick was really different. It was easier to throat him, but it also seemed like his dick went deeper into my throat, maybe because it wasn't hitting my tonsils.
He wanted to hit the bars that night, so we went out, got mildly drunk and came back late and in a really good mood. He'd almost picked up two girls in the bar for us. But it was just the two of us. He took off his clothes and I did the same. He took complete control, telling me exactly what to to: "Suck my dick...just the head...now take all of it...faster...now suck my balls...now suck my ass (that went on for a long time)...suck my dick...slower, slower - OK, roll over, I'm going to fuck you now."
Gulp. Really? I wanted to say no, but I couldn't resist him when he gave me "orders". It was time to lose my virginity. It was time for him to FUCK me. Because he said so. There was no avoiding it. I rolled over.
"Stick your ass up!", he said and slapped my ass pretty hard. I stuck my ass up with my face down, my hands spread out helpless in front of me. He came up behind me and rubbed some lube on my ass and rubbed his dick up and down my crack. I felt like a girl, about to be fucked by a MAN. I'm about to become his bitch, for real, I thought. I had mixed feelings about that! I started to stop him but then I felt the head of his dick penetrate my ass and I had no willpower after that. Except to please him. I guess I was still loose from the afternoon session, or maybe I just really wanted it, but he was able to ease himself into my ass on the first gentle thrust with only minimal pain. When he started thrusting strongly, I knew I was his bitch - forever! He did all the stuff I do to girls: spanked me, choked me, pulled my hair, stuck his tongue in my ear...I loved the way he felt on my back, the way his dick felt in my ass.
After he fucked me slow for awhile, I cried out, "Oh, FUCK me! Fuck me like a BITCH!" And he did. He fucked me really hard and fast and deep. His balls slapped against the bottom of my ass cheeks as he rammed it in me again and again and again and again...after some time, he put his dick all the way in me, held it there for a while and then withdrew. I'd thought I'd have felt his cum spurting inside me, but I hadn't. I asked him if he'd cum.
He said "Oh, yeah." In my submissive daze, I had forgotten to make him wear a condom. He had just fucked me, and cum up my ass, bareback. And it felt SO GOOD! Every time after that I made him wear a condom.
He fucked me several times after that. Almost every time he wanted. We would have fucked me again the next morning if my ass hadn't been too sore. We hooked up dozens of times over the next few years. I started Nair-ing the hair off my ass, which he liked. Mostly he wanted blowjobs. Whatever he wanted from me, he got it. As I'd known the instant I realized his dick was all the way in my ass and not causing any pain, he was in charge and I would do what he said. Really, it had been that way from the beginning.
Finally, I met the woman who is now my wife. I didn't want to hook up with him after that. Around the same time, he started a relationship that lasted for several years. Now we're both married. I offered to give him head once, but he said he didn't want to cheat on his wife. Somehow, I'm not sure the story's over.
Otherwise, there were some missed opportunities. In college, a guest of my roomate's, a tall, skinny black guy on liberty from the Navy, tried to fuck me. I was taking a nap one afternoon and he came in the room, drunk, and laid down behind me in the bed. I could feel his huge hard dick pressing against my ass. He started to pull down my pants but I stopped him and left the room. In hindsight, I wish I'd given him a blowjob. I would have loved to have seen that cock! But in those days, I was hooking up with women regularly and didn't think about gay sex much at all.
A few years after college, I was playing tennis with an acquaintance. He started talking about the ancient custom that if you beat someone in war, they became your slave. He said he thought that was only fair. He also mentioned that tennis was a lot like war. And he lost, badly. I only later realized what he was hinting at, that he had wanted me to dominate him, when things he said made me suspect that he was gay. But he hadn't turned me on at all, so I don't regret this one at all.
Not long after that, I spent a summer with my cousin and her boyfriend. She kept saying he had a huge dick. One day, when they were both at work, I found some polaroids, including one of him holding his truly huge dick. They had a rocky relationship and I thought the boyfriend might be open to a stray blowjob. One night, they'd had a fight and she'd gone to stay with a friend. I waited until long after lights out, then crawled into bed with her boyfriend, my head at his crotch level, until my face touched his dick inside his shorts. I put my hand on it - and he grabbed my hand and said "What the fuck are you DOING?" Turns out, he was NOT open to blowjobs from guys. Fortunately, he wasn't angry. He said he was flattered and never mentioned it again. Cool dude.
Once I got a blowjob from a drag queen. Decent head. Not as good as I give. I warned her/him before I came and she/he took my dick out and caught my cum in her/his hands. He/she wouldn't let me reciprocate!
Finally, one night I got a call from some guy I didn't know. He said he'd been with my friend and that my friend had suggested he call me. He was horny, he said. This sounded promising, so I met him in a fast food parking lot and led him back to my house (I wanted to see him and to make sure he was alone). When we got back to the house, he explained that he'd gone to my friend's house to suck his dick and/or be fucked by him, but my friend had turned him away. My friend had told him about my dildos and he wanted to see them. He wanted to suck my dick (I let him suck it for a short while, but I stopped him when I realized I wasn't turned on by it) and then he asked me to fuck him. I didn't want to. He then begged me to fuck him. I let him put a condom on the medium dildo and fuck himself with that. I put my mouth on his dick, but I found I didn't like the taste. Bottom line was, I didn't like find him attractive. I asked my friend not to send me any more effeminate gay guys!
And that's my whole gay story. Now the closest I get to sex with men is fantasy, getting pegged by my wife or flirting with guys on the internet. I almost hooked up with a guy I met online a couple of years ago, but when he sent me a picture, I saw his dick was tiny and he was fat!
I haven't ruled out more sex with men. I fantasize about gay sex all the time. I would never hook up with another woman, because I'd consider that cheating, but hooking up with a guy would be all about sex and now I wouldn't consider it cheating.
I won't be surprised to find myself getting throatfucked again!
But I do also like COCK! And I've been lucky enough to have swallowed cum about a hundred times and to have been fucked in the ass about half a dozen times. I fantasize about gay sex, 99% of the time with me on the receiving end of the cock. Which is about the percentage I've had it in real life.
It started in high school with giving my friend a BJ, then another, then another...and then for several years, nothing happened (homosexually, that is to say). I went off to college, went to work, fell in love with an amazing woman, got burned, fell in love with another amazing woman, got burned again...and finally moved back to my hometown.
(There were a couple of missed opportunities to have gay sex with other guys in between, but I'll talk about them later).
A few weeks after moving back home, I ran into my old friend. He was living with his mom and her new husband. He invited me to spend the night. I accepted and took a couple of hardcore porno mags with me. After locking the doors to his room, we looked at the magazines and I saw his erection grow to full force under his cutoff jeans. After a while, I said quietly, "You remember what we used to do in high school?"
He seemed to be expecting this. "You mean those blowjobs?"
I nodded. "You want to do it again?"
He stood up, dropped his shorts and walked over in front of me, erection in hand. I slid down to my knees and kissed, licked, then passionately sucked his cock. I had fantasized about this a hundred times or more in the years apart. His dick was still the same, only now he was more aggressive and rough with me. He took my head in his hands and started fucking my mouth and throat. When I realized I could take his full length like this without gagging (I'd been practicing on a dildo), I put my hands on his ass and guided his thrusts. I loved to feel his dominant, greedy power as he throat-fucked me! And his ass was still very sexy, hairier and more muscular. I paused to suck his balls and then he turned around and I licked his ass. Then he fucked my face until he came. I swallowed. I was disappointed by the amount of cum, but I loved that I had made him cum and my sore lips would remind me of his power and dominance for a couple of days. Just as I had done years before, I jacked off to powerful orgasms three times in the space of about 20 minutes after going off to the room where I was sleeping.
He had been married, divorced and had spent time in jail in between. It hadn't changed him much, but he was more direct and tough. I liked it. We hooked up a few more times that year, but he wasn't in the greatest shape and the encounters weren't that memorable. He was drinking too much and smoking too much pot, jacking off several times a day because he was bored and didn't have anything else to do. Turned out he was on parole and ended up violating it by not checking in with his parole officer.
So he went back to jail and I went back to having sex only by myself. I managed to get back together with the most recent amazing woman for about a year, but since I still didn't want to have kids and she desperately did, she dumped me again. The sex was great while it lasted. She liked anal sex and I enjoyed fucking her big ass.
A couple months after the final breakup, I got a call from my old friend. He was still in jail about an hour from me. He was in minimum security and they let him go to work every day and come back in the evening. Unsupervised. Usually his boss picked him up and dropped him off, but he believed that I could pick him up after work one day a week, spend some time and then take him back and they would believe I was another manager at the restaurant. Sounded pretty cool to me! So, a few days later, I picked him up from the restaurant at the mall. He looked really good, said he'd been working out. We got some beer and he looked at porno mags while I drove to a nearby park with some woods (I'd done research). I asked him if he wanted a blowjob. He took my hand and put it on his rock-hard dick and said, "What do you think?"
We walked into the woods. I kneeled in the leaves in front of him. He unzipped his shorts and put his dick out for me to suck. It didn't take him long to cum and he came BIG! I managed to swallow it all. My knees had made deep impressions in the leaves. As he zipped up his pants, he pointed to the impressions and laughed. I enjoyed the humiliation!
We did the same thing twice more, and it was just as good both times. Then he got released. He was staying with some people (I guess he met them in jail) in an improbably nice apartment. He was already semi-drunk when I got there. I just wanted to go have sex, but he wanted to go to the "titty bar". So we went there and he had fun with the girls and they with him (I liked the way he put the dollar bills in his waistband for the dancer to remove with her mouth).
We didn't have enough privacy at the apartment, so I drove to a quiet corner of a deserted parking lot and blew him right there in the car. I liked sucking his dick from this angle - it was very different and in a way, it made his dick seem bigger. I found it harder to deepthroat him without gagging. When he seemed to be getting close to cumming, he stopped me and said "I think I want to fuck you now."
Whoa. I'd never had anything bigger than a woman's finger up my ass, and I'd never thought I'd want to be fucked by a man. But as soon as he said it, I got that funny feeling in my stomach again. I was scared - I hesitated - but there could be only one answer. Of course, I wanted him to fuck me if he wanted to, but I knew that for me to enjoy it, breaking in my virgin ass would have to be a slow process, not something that we could do spur of the moment in the back of a car. I managed to say, "I think I want you to fuck me, too."
He pointed to the back seat and said, "Bend over for me".
Whoa again. I really wanted to just pull down my shorts and bend over for him on the spot but my my brain won this round. "Come to my house and you can tie me up and fuck me!" I thought anal sex and bdsm were part of the same thing. His Dominance. my submission. I figured everybody thought like that. I figured by offering him something more than what he asked for - my complete submission - he'd be glad to wait. But that's how I'd have felt about it - I've always been good at delaying gratification - but he and I were and are very different that way.
He gave me a disappointed, "you're letting me down" look but he said "OK" and shoved my head back on his cock and he fondled my ass while I sucked him to a decent-sized mouthful of sperm. Which of course, I swallowed.
He got his life sort of going again, with the restaurant job and the apartment. Unfortunately, he got his drinking going again, too, and some cocaine as well. I went to see him one night, at a party, but he spent it getting fucked up and failing miserably to get laid with several of the skanky girls there. Finally, he said he wanted for me to suck him off but passed out before we got to his room. I didn't visit him there again.
A few months later he popped up in the old hometown. He started coming over to see me. A lot. I gave him head dozens of times that summer. He stayed with me for awhile, which was pretty awesome. He worked his way through my porn tapes and "ordered" me to suck his dick almost as often as I would have liked. I told him I liked it when he bossed me around and he got into it sometimes.
The next time he brought up the idea of fucking me, I said I wanted to fuck him first. He didn't like that idea. But I started fingering his ass more when I blew him. One finger, then two, then scissoring them...I knew from my experience with my awesome ex that he was ready for my dick. But he wouldn't give in.
I bought a vibrator and learned to take it up my ass with no problems. I had three dildos at the time and I learned to take the small and medium sized ones up my ass with no problems. But I wanted to win this battle of wills and I held out for months.
He moved out (I drew the line at crack cocaine), but we kept seeing each other. I let him finger my ass while I blew him, and one day I let him tie me up. I had set up some straps for my wrists and ankles. All he had to do was snap them locked. The first thing he did after securing me was to sit on my face! He started rubbing his ass in my face just like when we were kids. It occurred to me that he might fart! I hoped he wouldn't but I also kind of hoped he would! (He didn't). I stuck my tongue out as I could and he soon planted his asshole right on it. He moved up and down on my tongue and when he stopped moving, I kept working it in and out by moving my neck. He said "Ha ha - you're fucking my ass - with your tongue!" After he'd had enough ass licking, he turned around and stuck his dick in my mouth and started fucking. Just as deep and as hard as he could fuck. Right from the get go. It was too much! But I couldn't stop him! It made me so horny I could hardly stand it. I managed to get some air by turning my head until I finally managed to get his dick out of my mouth. He held my head and shoved his dick back in my mouth, but didn't throatfuck me quite as hard. I managed to take it. I had left the medium dildo and some lube by the bed. He saw them and put some lube on his finger. He fingered me. One finger, two fingers...he picked up the dildo and started shoving it into my ass way too fast! I stopped him, he untied me and following his command, I worked the dildo into my ass and fucked myself with it. He took hold of the dildo, and for the first time, I got some idea of what it would be like to be assfucked by a man. I liked it! He took the dildo out, got behind me and started trying to jam his cock into my ass! I wanted to let him but I stopped him. Instead, he fucked my mouth until he came and yes, I swallowed.
The next day, his evil ex showed up with their kid and he went off with them. I went on vacation.
When I got back, he had left me several messages that day on my answering machine. His evil ex had taken off and stolen his money. He needed a place to stay. At least his timing was good. I expected to find him in a bad mood, but he was cool about everything. In fact, he wanted sex almost as soon as we got to my house. Following his commands, I stripped, then gave him head in a 69 with me on top. He fingered my ass, asked for the dildo and lube and came in my mouth while fucking my ass with the dildo. I really liked sucking him and getting fucked like that. The reverse angle of his dick was really different. It was easier to throat him, but it also seemed like his dick went deeper into my throat, maybe because it wasn't hitting my tonsils.
He wanted to hit the bars that night, so we went out, got mildly drunk and came back late and in a really good mood. He'd almost picked up two girls in the bar for us. But it was just the two of us. He took off his clothes and I did the same. He took complete control, telling me exactly what to to: "Suck my dick...just the head...now take all of it...faster...now suck my balls...now suck my ass (that went on for a long time)...suck my dick...slower, slower - OK, roll over, I'm going to fuck you now."
Gulp. Really? I wanted to say no, but I couldn't resist him when he gave me "orders". It was time to lose my virginity. It was time for him to FUCK me. Because he said so. There was no avoiding it. I rolled over.
"Stick your ass up!", he said and slapped my ass pretty hard. I stuck my ass up with my face down, my hands spread out helpless in front of me. He came up behind me and rubbed some lube on my ass and rubbed his dick up and down my crack. I felt like a girl, about to be fucked by a MAN. I'm about to become his bitch, for real, I thought. I had mixed feelings about that! I started to stop him but then I felt the head of his dick penetrate my ass and I had no willpower after that. Except to please him. I guess I was still loose from the afternoon session, or maybe I just really wanted it, but he was able to ease himself into my ass on the first gentle thrust with only minimal pain. When he started thrusting strongly, I knew I was his bitch - forever! He did all the stuff I do to girls: spanked me, choked me, pulled my hair, stuck his tongue in my ear...I loved the way he felt on my back, the way his dick felt in my ass.
After he fucked me slow for awhile, I cried out, "Oh, FUCK me! Fuck me like a BITCH!" And he did. He fucked me really hard and fast and deep. His balls slapped against the bottom of my ass cheeks as he rammed it in me again and again and again and again...after some time, he put his dick all the way in me, held it there for a while and then withdrew. I'd thought I'd have felt his cum spurting inside me, but I hadn't. I asked him if he'd cum.
He said "Oh, yeah." In my submissive daze, I had forgotten to make him wear a condom. He had just fucked me, and cum up my ass, bareback. And it felt SO GOOD! Every time after that I made him wear a condom.
He fucked me several times after that. Almost every time he wanted. We would have fucked me again the next morning if my ass hadn't been too sore. We hooked up dozens of times over the next few years. I started Nair-ing the hair off my ass, which he liked. Mostly he wanted blowjobs. Whatever he wanted from me, he got it. As I'd known the instant I realized his dick was all the way in my ass and not causing any pain, he was in charge and I would do what he said. Really, it had been that way from the beginning.
Finally, I met the woman who is now my wife. I didn't want to hook up with him after that. Around the same time, he started a relationship that lasted for several years. Now we're both married. I offered to give him head once, but he said he didn't want to cheat on his wife. Somehow, I'm not sure the story's over.
Otherwise, there were some missed opportunities. In college, a guest of my roomate's, a tall, skinny black guy on liberty from the Navy, tried to fuck me. I was taking a nap one afternoon and he came in the room, drunk, and laid down behind me in the bed. I could feel his huge hard dick pressing against my ass. He started to pull down my pants but I stopped him and left the room. In hindsight, I wish I'd given him a blowjob. I would have loved to have seen that cock! But in those days, I was hooking up with women regularly and didn't think about gay sex much at all.
A few years after college, I was playing tennis with an acquaintance. He started talking about the ancient custom that if you beat someone in war, they became your slave. He said he thought that was only fair. He also mentioned that tennis was a lot like war. And he lost, badly. I only later realized what he was hinting at, that he had wanted me to dominate him, when things he said made me suspect that he was gay. But he hadn't turned me on at all, so I don't regret this one at all.
Not long after that, I spent a summer with my cousin and her boyfriend. She kept saying he had a huge dick. One day, when they were both at work, I found some polaroids, including one of him holding his truly huge dick. They had a rocky relationship and I thought the boyfriend might be open to a stray blowjob. One night, they'd had a fight and she'd gone to stay with a friend. I waited until long after lights out, then crawled into bed with her boyfriend, my head at his crotch level, until my face touched his dick inside his shorts. I put my hand on it - and he grabbed my hand and said "What the fuck are you DOING?" Turns out, he was NOT open to blowjobs from guys. Fortunately, he wasn't angry. He said he was flattered and never mentioned it again. Cool dude.
Once I got a blowjob from a drag queen. Decent head. Not as good as I give. I warned her/him before I came and she/he took my dick out and caught my cum in her/his hands. He/she wouldn't let me reciprocate!
Finally, one night I got a call from some guy I didn't know. He said he'd been with my friend and that my friend had suggested he call me. He was horny, he said. This sounded promising, so I met him in a fast food parking lot and led him back to my house (I wanted to see him and to make sure he was alone). When we got back to the house, he explained that he'd gone to my friend's house to suck his dick and/or be fucked by him, but my friend had turned him away. My friend had told him about my dildos and he wanted to see them. He wanted to suck my dick (I let him suck it for a short while, but I stopped him when I realized I wasn't turned on by it) and then he asked me to fuck him. I didn't want to. He then begged me to fuck him. I let him put a condom on the medium dildo and fuck himself with that. I put my mouth on his dick, but I found I didn't like the taste. Bottom line was, I didn't like find him attractive. I asked my friend not to send me any more effeminate gay guys!
And that's my whole gay story. Now the closest I get to sex with men is fantasy, getting pegged by my wife or flirting with guys on the internet. I almost hooked up with a guy I met online a couple of years ago, but when he sent me a picture, I saw his dick was tiny and he was fat!
I haven't ruled out more sex with men. I fantasize about gay sex all the time. I would never hook up with another woman, because I'd consider that cheating, but hooking up with a guy would be all about sex and now I wouldn't consider it cheating.
I won't be surprised to find myself getting throatfucked again!
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Random dirty thoughts
Watched some porn today but didn't cum. I easily could have cum at least twice, but I'm holding off for a couple of days. Today was the second day of that couple of days.
The porn I watched was good. I watched scene 4 of Ass Masters 2. 3 hot girls, 2 well-hung guys and some nice dirty minds. Lots of ass licking, good head, good fucking...I won't spoil the ending for you!
I looked up the girls' profiles on IAFD and saw that one of the girls has done work for Strapon-Hell. So I watched her in that. She was amazing, beating the guy, clamping his nipples, abusing his balls a little, making him suck her dick, fucking him and beating him at the same time, making him do ATM. And she just looks so fucking good, tall and built and cruel. Nelly, aka Lucie at Strapon-Hell. She just turned 19 and just entered the business this year. But she has serious skills. And screen presence.
So with my sturdier-than-usual hard-on, I tried to take a few pics to post to my album at CSC. But it's harder than I thought! It's not hard getting a shot looking down. That you can do without taking your attention or your hand off your cock. But if you want to shoot from some other angle, you'll have to set up the shot, set the timer, keep your erection until the shutter clicks...and it's not easy to do. Respect to porn stars who do it for a living! It's not as easy as it looks.
Accepted a challenge and responded to a message, but otherwise kept myself silent at CSC today. It was a very quiet day. I kept taking my attention off of work to see what was happening. No shit talking. No cam chatting. Just a few guys checking in and checking out. I want to be "manhandled" by big dicked guys on there some more!!
Here's a fantasy: a dick size contest in real life, 5 guys or so, smallest guy has to suck off and/or be fucked by all the other guys. Maybe in bondage.
I've been thinking about various femdom scenarios. One idea is a femdom video star keeping a male slave in her house, in a jail cell when he's not working making videos. He has to bind himself to the bars (restraints and locks in place) before she'll open the cell door. Then she comes in and abuses/milks him to two or three orgasms. And THEN she puts him to work, filming clips where she's whipping him, facesitting/farting, ballbusting, pegging, forced-bi...of course she has other boyfriends and goes out with them.
I'm increasing turned on by forced bi. Another idea would be a contest between two slaves (could be anything, even a cock size contest). The winner would get abused by Mistress while the loser sucks him off (or gets fucked by him). Mistress would of course abuse the loser, too.
A similar idea would be the competition between two guys for a girl. Winner gets the girl. Loser has to watch and to clean up and swallow the winner's sperm from the girl's mouth/pussy/ass/feet/whatever. Another idea: instead of competing for a girl, they're competing for a shot at the other guy's wife. Or for both the wives together (one or both of them could dominate the loser).
Something most people don't realize about cum eating: when a woman eats a man's cum, her body adapts to be more accepting of his sperm from then on (for how long I have no idea). It makes it more likely for her to get pregnant by him. That's pretty powerful.
I love to have my cum eaten. And to eat a guy's cum. Even eating my own is OK, but it's so unbelievably hot to give another guy an orgasm and to feel the power of it so intimately. And there's nothing like the persistent taste of sperm to make me feel like a complete bitch! Which I love! I think I could swallow sperm with the dick in my throat now. My cocksucking and deepthroating skills have improved dramatically over the last few years. Having the variety of dildos to practice on is key. And of course, actually practicing. but probably half the time lately when I cum I've got a dick my mouth, often my throat, sometimes my ass. Life is good.
More tomorrow (probably). Maybe I'll talk about my gay life after high school. All with the same guy. Not sure if anyone actually reads this, but feedback is always welcome...
The porn I watched was good. I watched scene 4 of Ass Masters 2. 3 hot girls, 2 well-hung guys and some nice dirty minds. Lots of ass licking, good head, good fucking...I won't spoil the ending for you!
I looked up the girls' profiles on IAFD and saw that one of the girls has done work for Strapon-Hell. So I watched her in that. She was amazing, beating the guy, clamping his nipples, abusing his balls a little, making him suck her dick, fucking him and beating him at the same time, making him do ATM. And she just looks so fucking good, tall and built and cruel. Nelly, aka Lucie at Strapon-Hell. She just turned 19 and just entered the business this year. But she has serious skills. And screen presence.
So with my sturdier-than-usual hard-on, I tried to take a few pics to post to my album at CSC. But it's harder than I thought! It's not hard getting a shot looking down. That you can do without taking your attention or your hand off your cock. But if you want to shoot from some other angle, you'll have to set up the shot, set the timer, keep your erection until the shutter clicks...and it's not easy to do. Respect to porn stars who do it for a living! It's not as easy as it looks.
Accepted a challenge and responded to a message, but otherwise kept myself silent at CSC today. It was a very quiet day. I kept taking my attention off of work to see what was happening. No shit talking. No cam chatting. Just a few guys checking in and checking out. I want to be "manhandled" by big dicked guys on there some more!!
Here's a fantasy: a dick size contest in real life, 5 guys or so, smallest guy has to suck off and/or be fucked by all the other guys. Maybe in bondage.
I've been thinking about various femdom scenarios. One idea is a femdom video star keeping a male slave in her house, in a jail cell when he's not working making videos. He has to bind himself to the bars (restraints and locks in place) before she'll open the cell door. Then she comes in and abuses/milks him to two or three orgasms. And THEN she puts him to work, filming clips where she's whipping him, facesitting/farting, ballbusting, pegging, forced-bi...of course she has other boyfriends and goes out with them.
I'm increasing turned on by forced bi. Another idea would be a contest between two slaves (could be anything, even a cock size contest). The winner would get abused by Mistress while the loser sucks him off (or gets fucked by him). Mistress would of course abuse the loser, too.
A similar idea would be the competition between two guys for a girl. Winner gets the girl. Loser has to watch and to clean up and swallow the winner's sperm from the girl's mouth/pussy/ass/feet/whatever. Another idea: instead of competing for a girl, they're competing for a shot at the other guy's wife. Or for both the wives together (one or both of them could dominate the loser).
Something most people don't realize about cum eating: when a woman eats a man's cum, her body adapts to be more accepting of his sperm from then on (for how long I have no idea). It makes it more likely for her to get pregnant by him. That's pretty powerful.
I love to have my cum eaten. And to eat a guy's cum. Even eating my own is OK, but it's so unbelievably hot to give another guy an orgasm and to feel the power of it so intimately. And there's nothing like the persistent taste of sperm to make me feel like a complete bitch! Which I love! I think I could swallow sperm with the dick in my throat now. My cocksucking and deepthroating skills have improved dramatically over the last few years. Having the variety of dildos to practice on is key. And of course, actually practicing. but probably half the time lately when I cum I've got a dick my mouth, often my throat, sometimes my ass. Life is good.
More tomorrow (probably). Maybe I'll talk about my gay life after high school. All with the same guy. Not sure if anyone actually reads this, but feedback is always welcome...
Monday, October 31, 2011
Buck, and other things
So Buck came in the mail today! He was beautiful right out of the box. Maybe my favorite part of my first impression was that he looks a lot like my own cock. He doesn't even look bigger at first glance. But I realized quickly that he was very thick at the base - 6.375! - and overall I measured an average girth of 5.813 and a delicious head of 5.75", bigger than Johnny or the Dream Dick. 6.5 inches long, as advertised.
I put my mouth on it about 30 seconds after opening the package! It's the most lifelike Vixskin I've seen yet. Darker skin tone than the Caramel Johnny. Great veins, a shape that it seems like MUST have been from a man's real cock. I had to open wide to get the head in, but going down the shaft, it didn't seem that big (although I could feel the head the whole time - what a great blowjob I could give this guy!!). And then I got close to the bottom, and that big head went into my throat and I started to gag and had to pull up! But I was able to throat fuck myself with it pretty successfully after that. I want to get pegged with him!
I sucked Johnny and the Dream Dick in turn after "satisfying" Buck. Johnny seemed unrealistic and smaller (but still good), the Dream Dick seemed bigger and a little more challenging (but I felt the head less). And then back to Buck, because if I'd just sucked him off, I now wanted to gently suck out every last drop!
My stats at Cock Size Contest (CSC) are now 19 wins, 36 losses and 2 ties. One of the guys I tied with calls himself dinky (bulgeless). Dude, wtf! You may think of yourself as dinky and bulgeless, but my dick is plenty big, thank you very much.
I'm making too many comments and being too much of a submissive bitch there, I think. I think I'll just respond and not make too many comments the next couple of days and see what happens.
I realized today that not only do some guys overstate their size, but some guys seem to deliberately understate their size, I guess so they'll lose more. But almost all the guys with dicks smaller than mine are complete bitches, more submissive even than me. I find them a turn off. I hope I'm not so much of a turn off, but I'm afraid I may be. Like I say, I'm going to STFU for a couple days and see what happens.
I noticed I was less aroused today at CSC. Just to make sure my equipment was still working right, I watched some straight porn (Aletta Angel giving good head to two guys with nice dicks (one I'd guess about 6 inches long by 5 inches around and nicely curved upwards, the other guy's dick was straight and maybe 6.75 inches by 5.75 or so). She could deepthroat the smaller guy and actually seemed to like sucking his dick more than the bigger guy. And the smaller guy got to fuck her gorgeous ass and finally come up inside there. The big guy came in her mouth and she drooled it back out. She kept sucking them both. She didn't seem to want it to end. My dick was hard as a rocket.
So I guess I'm not that gay, or maybe I just didn't get bitched around enough today. I'm a 2 (mainly into girls, but more than incidentally into guys) on the Kinsey Scale and when I'm horny enough for cock, I'm a 3 (bisexual). I'm sure if I really were surrounded by gay or bi guys with big dicks, I'd fall on my knees in half a second and try to suck all of them off, deepthroating, face-fucking, even some ass-licking for truly hot guys. I'd want to swallow all the cum. I would hope to be facefucked, dickslapped, bossed around, taunted - all of the above and whatever else the dominant big dick guys want.
The horniest thing that happened today was making a "bet" with a guy who I knew I'd lose to, that the loser had to give the winner a blowjob (imaginary of course) in front of a well-hung (allegedly) dude who liked the idea. I started to go on cam chat but chickened out. I think I need some kind of mask and then I'll do it. One thing for sure: I'm going to the gym faithfully from now on!
My appetite has decreased and I have a "funny feeling" in my stomach. It's kind of like being in love - but I know it's actually LUST!
I remember feeling this way when I first sucked a dick to completion at age 16. (I'll have to write a full entry about my gay experiences). But the only guy I ever made cum was a good friend of mine, maybe my best friend. He was spending the night at my house, had helped me with my paper route (85 mile rural night car route), and after we got home in the predawn, I got him horny by showing him Playboy's Girls of Summer. He took off his undies under the covers. "For luck", he joked, putting his undies under his pillow. A few minutes after the lights went out, I peeked over the edge of the bed and saw his naked ass (he was only 15 and his ass was hairless and irresistibly shapely. I kissed his rounded and muscular ass cheeks, smelled his crack (smelled like clean sweat), kissed his crack - and then he rolled over towards me and I retreated. I waited, then peeked again. This time, I saw his dick. Surprisingly maybe, I hadn't expected that. I had just wanted to kiss his ass, but there was his dick and I got that funny feeling in my stomach even more than I'd had it already. His cock was similar in overall size to mine, probably about the same length, a little thinner and definitely smaller at the head. Nicely curved! It was pulsing and dripping with precum. After kissing it, licking it, tasting the precum, taking hie shaft in my hand, then sucking the first couple of inches a little, he rolled away and I figured he didn't want me to make him cum (which by now I'd decided I REALLY wanted to do). In a whisper (my parents were three rooms away), I literally begged him to let me suck his dick. I asked 3 times - "roll over and I'll suck it" - "roll over and I'll suck your dick" - "PLEASE let me suck your goddamm big dick!" He finally rolled over and looked at me and said "Whaaaat?" with a very amused look on his face. I again chickened out, whispered something like never mind and slid back into my sleeping bag on the floor, naked and with the hardest hard-on I've ever had (before or since).
I was just about to start jacking off when I realized he was standing over me, naked. He said "I'll suck yours if you'll suck mine". I paused, immediately decided and said "OK". Maybe what I did next was a blunder. I said "who goes first?" If I had it to do over, I would say "YOU go first", sit down on the edge of the bed and present my dick to be sucked. But instead I asked him to decide and he gave me that amused look again, said "you go first", sat down on the bed and then laid back. So, as if watching someone else do it (I couldn't quite believe it, it was just too good to be true), I lifted his gorgeous dick to my lips and soon was deepthroating for the first time. I did everything. Fondled his balls, fingered his ass, licked his ass, sucked his balls, sucked his dick with great passion and rhythm while stroking/fondling/fingering him...he said, "Oh, god" - and then spewed a HUGE load of warm, salty sperm into my mouth! Which again, somehow, I hadn't been expecting. I found the trash and spit most of the load into the cup he'd been using for spitting his tobacco juice into (yep, he's a redneck). He said "what do I do with the rest of it?" I found it hard to believe there could be more cum. I told him to wipe it on the sheet. The taste of his cum stayed in my mouth all day. And it made me horny, all day.
Well, he wouldn't suck my dick and in fact never sucked me off in all the years we hooked up. I think if I'd made him go first, he'd have enjoyed it and maybe we'd have traded bjs instead of just me sucking him off. But maybe it would have been such a huge turnoff for him he'd never have hooked up with me again. Anyway, I came three times in the next 30 minutes or so by my own hand. I had that funny feeling in my stomach for several days. And I ate less. The same thing happened when he stayed over later that fall. Seduction. Suckoff (this time, and every time after, I swallowed). The funny feeling. The reduced appetite.
Over the years I sucked him off about 100 times and he fucked my ass about half a dozen times. Years later he said "you definitely get the best blowjob award." I'm still proud of that!
I'd like to see how I do with one or more really well-hung guys. I wonder if I could deepthroat them as well as I do Buck, Johnny and the Dream Dick. You know what's weird: it actually makes my nipples hard to think about it!
I put my mouth on it about 30 seconds after opening the package! It's the most lifelike Vixskin I've seen yet. Darker skin tone than the Caramel Johnny. Great veins, a shape that it seems like MUST have been from a man's real cock. I had to open wide to get the head in, but going down the shaft, it didn't seem that big (although I could feel the head the whole time - what a great blowjob I could give this guy!!). And then I got close to the bottom, and that big head went into my throat and I started to gag and had to pull up! But I was able to throat fuck myself with it pretty successfully after that. I want to get pegged with him!
I sucked Johnny and the Dream Dick in turn after "satisfying" Buck. Johnny seemed unrealistic and smaller (but still good), the Dream Dick seemed bigger and a little more challenging (but I felt the head less). And then back to Buck, because if I'd just sucked him off, I now wanted to gently suck out every last drop!
My stats at Cock Size Contest (CSC) are now 19 wins, 36 losses and 2 ties. One of the guys I tied with calls himself dinky (bulgeless). Dude, wtf! You may think of yourself as dinky and bulgeless, but my dick is plenty big, thank you very much.
I'm making too many comments and being too much of a submissive bitch there, I think. I think I'll just respond and not make too many comments the next couple of days and see what happens.
I realized today that not only do some guys overstate their size, but some guys seem to deliberately understate their size, I guess so they'll lose more. But almost all the guys with dicks smaller than mine are complete bitches, more submissive even than me. I find them a turn off. I hope I'm not so much of a turn off, but I'm afraid I may be. Like I say, I'm going to STFU for a couple days and see what happens.
I noticed I was less aroused today at CSC. Just to make sure my equipment was still working right, I watched some straight porn (Aletta Angel giving good head to two guys with nice dicks (one I'd guess about 6 inches long by 5 inches around and nicely curved upwards, the other guy's dick was straight and maybe 6.75 inches by 5.75 or so). She could deepthroat the smaller guy and actually seemed to like sucking his dick more than the bigger guy. And the smaller guy got to fuck her gorgeous ass and finally come up inside there. The big guy came in her mouth and she drooled it back out. She kept sucking them both. She didn't seem to want it to end. My dick was hard as a rocket.
So I guess I'm not that gay, or maybe I just didn't get bitched around enough today. I'm a 2 (mainly into girls, but more than incidentally into guys) on the Kinsey Scale and when I'm horny enough for cock, I'm a 3 (bisexual). I'm sure if I really were surrounded by gay or bi guys with big dicks, I'd fall on my knees in half a second and try to suck all of them off, deepthroating, face-fucking, even some ass-licking for truly hot guys. I'd want to swallow all the cum. I would hope to be facefucked, dickslapped, bossed around, taunted - all of the above and whatever else the dominant big dick guys want.
The horniest thing that happened today was making a "bet" with a guy who I knew I'd lose to, that the loser had to give the winner a blowjob (imaginary of course) in front of a well-hung (allegedly) dude who liked the idea. I started to go on cam chat but chickened out. I think I need some kind of mask and then I'll do it. One thing for sure: I'm going to the gym faithfully from now on!
My appetite has decreased and I have a "funny feeling" in my stomach. It's kind of like being in love - but I know it's actually LUST!
I remember feeling this way when I first sucked a dick to completion at age 16. (I'll have to write a full entry about my gay experiences). But the only guy I ever made cum was a good friend of mine, maybe my best friend. He was spending the night at my house, had helped me with my paper route (85 mile rural night car route), and after we got home in the predawn, I got him horny by showing him Playboy's Girls of Summer. He took off his undies under the covers. "For luck", he joked, putting his undies under his pillow. A few minutes after the lights went out, I peeked over the edge of the bed and saw his naked ass (he was only 15 and his ass was hairless and irresistibly shapely. I kissed his rounded and muscular ass cheeks, smelled his crack (smelled like clean sweat), kissed his crack - and then he rolled over towards me and I retreated. I waited, then peeked again. This time, I saw his dick. Surprisingly maybe, I hadn't expected that. I had just wanted to kiss his ass, but there was his dick and I got that funny feeling in my stomach even more than I'd had it already. His cock was similar in overall size to mine, probably about the same length, a little thinner and definitely smaller at the head. Nicely curved! It was pulsing and dripping with precum. After kissing it, licking it, tasting the precum, taking hie shaft in my hand, then sucking the first couple of inches a little, he rolled away and I figured he didn't want me to make him cum (which by now I'd decided I REALLY wanted to do). In a whisper (my parents were three rooms away), I literally begged him to let me suck his dick. I asked 3 times - "roll over and I'll suck it" - "roll over and I'll suck your dick" - "PLEASE let me suck your goddamm big dick!" He finally rolled over and looked at me and said "Whaaaat?" with a very amused look on his face. I again chickened out, whispered something like never mind and slid back into my sleeping bag on the floor, naked and with the hardest hard-on I've ever had (before or since).
I was just about to start jacking off when I realized he was standing over me, naked. He said "I'll suck yours if you'll suck mine". I paused, immediately decided and said "OK". Maybe what I did next was a blunder. I said "who goes first?" If I had it to do over, I would say "YOU go first", sit down on the edge of the bed and present my dick to be sucked. But instead I asked him to decide and he gave me that amused look again, said "you go first", sat down on the bed and then laid back. So, as if watching someone else do it (I couldn't quite believe it, it was just too good to be true), I lifted his gorgeous dick to my lips and soon was deepthroating for the first time. I did everything. Fondled his balls, fingered his ass, licked his ass, sucked his balls, sucked his dick with great passion and rhythm while stroking/fondling/fingering him...he said, "Oh, god" - and then spewed a HUGE load of warm, salty sperm into my mouth! Which again, somehow, I hadn't been expecting. I found the trash and spit most of the load into the cup he'd been using for spitting his tobacco juice into (yep, he's a redneck). He said "what do I do with the rest of it?" I found it hard to believe there could be more cum. I told him to wipe it on the sheet. The taste of his cum stayed in my mouth all day. And it made me horny, all day.
Well, he wouldn't suck my dick and in fact never sucked me off in all the years we hooked up. I think if I'd made him go first, he'd have enjoyed it and maybe we'd have traded bjs instead of just me sucking him off. But maybe it would have been such a huge turnoff for him he'd never have hooked up with me again. Anyway, I came three times in the next 30 minutes or so by my own hand. I had that funny feeling in my stomach for several days. And I ate less. The same thing happened when he stayed over later that fall. Seduction. Suckoff (this time, and every time after, I swallowed). The funny feeling. The reduced appetite.
Over the years I sucked him off about 100 times and he fucked my ass about half a dozen times. Years later he said "you definitely get the best blowjob award." I'm still proud of that!
I'd like to see how I do with one or more really well-hung guys. I wonder if I could deepthroat them as well as I do Buck, Johnny and the Dream Dick. You know what's weird: it actually makes my nipples hard to think about it!
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Biggus Dickus
So I've continued my porn exploration, even though the free "pornucopia" is over for now. Apparently, I've reviewed my full quota of films for this year, but it was fun while it lasted and it won't be long before another year starts!
My wife and I are having good sex regularly again, mostly of the vanilla variety, but with a little kink here and there. And I'm still masturbating (of course!). I try to cum at least once, usually twice a day. The last week or so, it's been more like 3-4 times a day. I will explain before the end of this post.
I'm still looking at too much porn (my collection is embarrassingly large and constantly growing) and discovering unknown stars, etc.
My new obsession started last week when I decided to take a measuring tape and measure all my dildos. I'm still not 100% sure why I decided to do this. I guess I still haven't found the perfect size dildo in silicone. The Dream Dick, which I now know to be 6 7/8 inches long by 1 7/8 inches wide (5.8 inches in girth), is the perfect dick for me to suck. It's not overwhelming, but deepthroating it repeatedly turns me into a watery-eyed drool monster. And I feel like I'm being dominated by a guy with a really big dick! That usually makes me cum right away. My favorite masturbation lately is to suck on the dream dick while fucking my ass with either Vixskin Johnny or the Cobalt butt plug. Usually with my balls tied and my dick in the "slave tube". Doesn't take me long to cum that way!
But - the Dream Dick is Cyberskin and Cyberskin is not forever. It's about 2 years old now and probably won't last another 2 years. Which is a shame. If I don't find a replacement, I'll probably just buy another one when the time comes. But I'd rather find a replacement in Vixskin or some other lifelike silicone. Anyway, so I did the measurements, which took me a couple of days (I do have to work, y'know) and in the end I made a spreadsheet with all the dildos I own and all the ones on my wishlist. One thing I learned in my measuring, is that almost all of them are a different size than what was advertised. The general trend is that they are a little longer and a little less girthy than advertised.
Anyway, through this process, I realized the Vixskin Buck is my next logical purchase. It's a little shorter (1/4 inch) but also a little girthier (1/8 inch) than the Dream Dick. And it's in the mail and should get here tomorrow! When I bought the Vixskin Maverick, I spent some time trying to decide between it and Buck and chose Maverick because he's longer. But he's not that realistic. Nice big head, but a smooth, veinless shaft and a strange bump just below the head which I guess is supposed to be like a folded foreskin but is just hard and kinda weird instead. And I got it in Vanilla, which is way lighter than my wife's gorgeous olive skin, so she doesn't like it, which means that even if it was otherwise perfect, I still wouldn't get pegged by it. So I got Buck in Caramel. I'll post a review once I've test driven it (or maybe that should be 'after I've been test driven by Buck'!).
Now I'm about to get to the good part. :)
So in the middle of all this measuring, I decided to measure my own equipment. And I used the same careful, scientific, accurate method: I measured the length as the shortest distance from the root to the tip (which is on top) without pushing in my skin at all; then I measured the girth by measuring carefully at four points (base, mid, top, head) and averaging them together. Then I measured again to make sure, and entered my data into the spreadsheet. I discovered I was a little bigger than the Vamp Softskin Elvis, but way smaller than the Vixskin Johnny (which my wife had told me earlier this year before ramming it down my throat and up my ass for the first time!).
So...I started to wonder how I compared with other guys. Based on the best sources I could find online, I figured I was average, or a little above average. And then I think I was actually searching for fiction about a cock size contest, idly thinking about writing some myself if I didn't find any, when I stumbled into cocksizecontest.com. And that has made for a VERY interesting week!
After inputting my carefully-measured figures as instructed, and uploading a photo of the head of my semi-hard dick, I soon received a "challenge" from one of the site's members - and I LOST, big time! And I got challenged again. And lost again! Ouch! After a few more of these, most of which I lost just as badly, I began to believe I had a little dick and that most of the members of the site were much better hung than me. Many of them had pictures uploaded to verify the size they claimed. At first, I just kind of got red in the face with embarrassment, but then one of the guys that beat me taunted me, telling me to suck hie superior cock, and I got VERY, VERY, horny.
I've been taunted like that several more times and I even updated my profile to encourage it. I told one guy I'd do whatever he asked me to do and he had me email a pic of his huge hard cock to one of my ex-girlfriends (the kinkiest, sluttiest one naturally). As "ordered" by my big-dicked "master", I gave her his email address and asked her to tell him what she thought of it. She cc'd me and said that his dick was much bigger than mine, "obviously"! Haven't heard much from either of them since then! For all I know, they might be hooking up. I came about 5 times in a row from that.
Mostly guys just want me to publicly post that they are more of a man than me, and to make worshipful comments on the pics of their huge cocks. Which is A LOT of fun for them and me!
I've come to realize that hardly anyone was honest about their dick size and that even the verification pics can be faked. Easily. I probably am at least average or above. But I'm happy to be the "little dick" in a sea of Huge Manhood. I love being bossed around, dominated, humiliated by these guys! I've only been dominated by one guy before and his dick was a little smaller than mine. Even though this is essentially fantasy, in a way it's better than the real thing was. These are real guys, it's easy to believe their cocks are huge and I don't know what they are going to do to me. Which is a HUGE turn-on.
I've gotten so hard thinking about it that I'm going back there now. More later!
My wife and I are having good sex regularly again, mostly of the vanilla variety, but with a little kink here and there. And I'm still masturbating (of course!). I try to cum at least once, usually twice a day. The last week or so, it's been more like 3-4 times a day. I will explain before the end of this post.
I'm still looking at too much porn (my collection is embarrassingly large and constantly growing) and discovering unknown stars, etc.
My new obsession started last week when I decided to take a measuring tape and measure all my dildos. I'm still not 100% sure why I decided to do this. I guess I still haven't found the perfect size dildo in silicone. The Dream Dick, which I now know to be 6 7/8 inches long by 1 7/8 inches wide (5.8 inches in girth), is the perfect dick for me to suck. It's not overwhelming, but deepthroating it repeatedly turns me into a watery-eyed drool monster. And I feel like I'm being dominated by a guy with a really big dick! That usually makes me cum right away. My favorite masturbation lately is to suck on the dream dick while fucking my ass with either Vixskin Johnny or the Cobalt butt plug. Usually with my balls tied and my dick in the "slave tube". Doesn't take me long to cum that way!
But - the Dream Dick is Cyberskin and Cyberskin is not forever. It's about 2 years old now and probably won't last another 2 years. Which is a shame. If I don't find a replacement, I'll probably just buy another one when the time comes. But I'd rather find a replacement in Vixskin or some other lifelike silicone. Anyway, so I did the measurements, which took me a couple of days (I do have to work, y'know) and in the end I made a spreadsheet with all the dildos I own and all the ones on my wishlist. One thing I learned in my measuring, is that almost all of them are a different size than what was advertised. The general trend is that they are a little longer and a little less girthy than advertised.
Anyway, through this process, I realized the Vixskin Buck is my next logical purchase. It's a little shorter (1/4 inch) but also a little girthier (1/8 inch) than the Dream Dick. And it's in the mail and should get here tomorrow! When I bought the Vixskin Maverick, I spent some time trying to decide between it and Buck and chose Maverick because he's longer. But he's not that realistic. Nice big head, but a smooth, veinless shaft and a strange bump just below the head which I guess is supposed to be like a folded foreskin but is just hard and kinda weird instead. And I got it in Vanilla, which is way lighter than my wife's gorgeous olive skin, so she doesn't like it, which means that even if it was otherwise perfect, I still wouldn't get pegged by it. So I got Buck in Caramel. I'll post a review once I've test driven it (or maybe that should be 'after I've been test driven by Buck'!).
Now I'm about to get to the good part. :)
So in the middle of all this measuring, I decided to measure my own equipment. And I used the same careful, scientific, accurate method: I measured the length as the shortest distance from the root to the tip (which is on top) without pushing in my skin at all; then I measured the girth by measuring carefully at four points (base, mid, top, head) and averaging them together. Then I measured again to make sure, and entered my data into the spreadsheet. I discovered I was a little bigger than the Vamp Softskin Elvis, but way smaller than the Vixskin Johnny (which my wife had told me earlier this year before ramming it down my throat and up my ass for the first time!).
So...I started to wonder how I compared with other guys. Based on the best sources I could find online, I figured I was average, or a little above average. And then I think I was actually searching for fiction about a cock size contest, idly thinking about writing some myself if I didn't find any, when I stumbled into cocksizecontest.com. And that has made for a VERY interesting week!
After inputting my carefully-measured figures as instructed, and uploading a photo of the head of my semi-hard dick, I soon received a "challenge" from one of the site's members - and I LOST, big time! And I got challenged again. And lost again! Ouch! After a few more of these, most of which I lost just as badly, I began to believe I had a little dick and that most of the members of the site were much better hung than me. Many of them had pictures uploaded to verify the size they claimed. At first, I just kind of got red in the face with embarrassment, but then one of the guys that beat me taunted me, telling me to suck hie superior cock, and I got VERY, VERY, horny.
I've been taunted like that several more times and I even updated my profile to encourage it. I told one guy I'd do whatever he asked me to do and he had me email a pic of his huge hard cock to one of my ex-girlfriends (the kinkiest, sluttiest one naturally). As "ordered" by my big-dicked "master", I gave her his email address and asked her to tell him what she thought of it. She cc'd me and said that his dick was much bigger than mine, "obviously"! Haven't heard much from either of them since then! For all I know, they might be hooking up. I came about 5 times in a row from that.
Mostly guys just want me to publicly post that they are more of a man than me, and to make worshipful comments on the pics of their huge cocks. Which is A LOT of fun for them and me!
I've come to realize that hardly anyone was honest about their dick size and that even the verification pics can be faked. Easily. I probably am at least average or above. But I'm happy to be the "little dick" in a sea of Huge Manhood. I love being bossed around, dominated, humiliated by these guys! I've only been dominated by one guy before and his dick was a little smaller than mine. Even though this is essentially fantasy, in a way it's better than the real thing was. These are real guys, it's easy to believe their cocks are huge and I don't know what they are going to do to me. Which is a HUGE turn-on.
I've gotten so hard thinking about it that I'm going back there now. More later!
Sunday, August 14, 2011
I Heart Porn Sluts!
I've been watching A LOT of porn lately, more than usual even.
If you knew me, you might guess it's because my wife has to work earlier lately and I've been having to work later, but that's not the reason. (And actually, we're still having sex about every other day, just not as many of the long kinky sessions we both love). The much cooler real reason is that I've started doing some reviews as part of my job! And that's meant access to beaucoup free porn, pretty much whatever I want as much as I want!
I was afraid at first that I'd lose perspective or become jaded. Hasn't happened yet! Maybe it won't happen at all. But I have...expanded on some of my beliefs and modified them...with the help of the most useful porn resource on the whole damm web - The Adult Internet Film Database - IAFD.
Thanks to them, I can look up lots of things about any given movie or porn star. It's not 100% complete and it's surely not 100% perfect - but then again, who or what is?
A few months ago, I started looking up my favorite actresses, seeing who swallowed more often in films. Then I realized IAFD also tells me their measurements, height/weight, age (and more). So I started making notes about my favorites, and observing what turns me on. I realized that I like 1) women with good waist to hip ratios; 2) tall women; 3) SLUTS!
I should explain a little about waist to hip ratio...someone figured out that the most attractive ratio of a woman's waist circumference to her hip circumference is about .70 - slightly larger than 34 inch hips if she's got a 24 inch waist. Most men like women with something close to this ratio. Some men prefer women slightly leaner than this (higher ratio); a lot of us prefer women with a lower ratio - small waist, BIG ASS! I've found that for me, anything less than a ratio of .70 (again, smaller ratio = bigger ass) is a turn on.
Tall is self explanatory, but I have found I like tall women only if they also have a good waist/hip ratio. But a tall woman with a good ratio is more attractive to me than a shorter one with the same ratio.
As for sluttiness! months ago I formulated one measure, an "ISP", or IAFD Swallow Percentage, where I take the number of films a porn actress has swallowed in and divide it by the total number of films she's done. I have found that the higher the number, USUALLY the more energetic and just...slutty...an actress tends to be.
But lately I have found a better measure of complete sluttiness - I call it the SuperSlut Quotient (SQ). This is the number of films an actress both does anal AND swallows in (yes, anal and swallows in the same film!), again divided by her total number of films. And this, I find, is a VERY good predictor of energy and sluttiness! And the women with the highest SQs are also the ones I find most attractive (at least to jack off to while watching them perform in porn films).
And although I usually like brunettes better than blondes, my perfect porn actress remains - the one and only Annette Schwarz. She is tall (5'11''), built (26 inch waist / 40 inch hips = waist/hip ratio of .65), and VERY slutty - 57 films with anal AND swallow in the same film, out of 248 fllms, for an SQ of 23.0!
AND she has real C cup boobs, AND she deepthroats really well, AND she has big feet (size 10 US, European size 42, another weird turn-on for me) AND she does kinky porn (BDSM, femdom, lezdom, pegging, facesitting, etc) AND she's still only 26 years old...
I guess it's time to review another of her films! Pleasant dreams!
If you knew me, you might guess it's because my wife has to work earlier lately and I've been having to work later, but that's not the reason. (And actually, we're still having sex about every other day, just not as many of the long kinky sessions we both love). The much cooler real reason is that I've started doing some reviews as part of my job! And that's meant access to beaucoup free porn, pretty much whatever I want as much as I want!
I was afraid at first that I'd lose perspective or become jaded. Hasn't happened yet! Maybe it won't happen at all. But I have...expanded on some of my beliefs and modified them...with the help of the most useful porn resource on the whole damm web - The Adult Internet Film Database - IAFD.
Thanks to them, I can look up lots of things about any given movie or porn star. It's not 100% complete and it's surely not 100% perfect - but then again, who or what is?
A few months ago, I started looking up my favorite actresses, seeing who swallowed more often in films. Then I realized IAFD also tells me their measurements, height/weight, age (and more). So I started making notes about my favorites, and observing what turns me on. I realized that I like 1) women with good waist to hip ratios; 2) tall women; 3) SLUTS!
I should explain a little about waist to hip ratio...someone figured out that the most attractive ratio of a woman's waist circumference to her hip circumference is about .70 - slightly larger than 34 inch hips if she's got a 24 inch waist. Most men like women with something close to this ratio. Some men prefer women slightly leaner than this (higher ratio); a lot of us prefer women with a lower ratio - small waist, BIG ASS! I've found that for me, anything less than a ratio of .70 (again, smaller ratio = bigger ass) is a turn on.
Tall is self explanatory, but I have found I like tall women only if they also have a good waist/hip ratio. But a tall woman with a good ratio is more attractive to me than a shorter one with the same ratio.
As for sluttiness! months ago I formulated one measure, an "ISP", or IAFD Swallow Percentage, where I take the number of films a porn actress has swallowed in and divide it by the total number of films she's done. I have found that the higher the number, USUALLY the more energetic and just...slutty...an actress tends to be.
But lately I have found a better measure of complete sluttiness - I call it the SuperSlut Quotient (SQ). This is the number of films an actress both does anal AND swallows in (yes, anal and swallows in the same film!), again divided by her total number of films. And this, I find, is a VERY good predictor of energy and sluttiness! And the women with the highest SQs are also the ones I find most attractive (at least to jack off to while watching them perform in porn films).
And although I usually like brunettes better than blondes, my perfect porn actress remains - the one and only Annette Schwarz. She is tall (5'11''), built (26 inch waist / 40 inch hips = waist/hip ratio of .65), and VERY slutty - 57 films with anal AND swallow in the same film, out of 248 fllms, for an SQ of 23.0!
AND she has real C cup boobs, AND she deepthroats really well, AND she has big feet (size 10 US, European size 42, another weird turn-on for me) AND she does kinky porn (BDSM, femdom, lezdom, pegging, facesitting, etc) AND she's still only 26 years old...
I guess it's time to review another of her films! Pleasant dreams!
Monday, April 4, 2011
New Toys (Oh Ay Oh)
(First, a shout out to Lene Lovich, whose birthday was just a couple of days ago. Often, when I get a new toy, I think of her song "New Toy", which was actually written by Thomas Dolby and actually seems to point out the futility of trying to "complete yourself" with possessions. But anyway.)
I've gotten three new toys in the last month or so, two of which were pretty much exactly what I expected. The other one is also very cool.
I described my new Don Wands Cobalt Bubble butt plug a couple of posts ago. I still love it!
In the same post I mentioned my curiosity about the Captain Silicone Dildo, made by Good Vibrations. Well, one of my favorite adult online retailers, SheVibe, just started stocking it for $44, which is $14 less than Good Vibrations. And to make it even cooler, I had a $10 coupon for my next SheVibe purchase. So what did I do? Of course, I spent all of the savings and then some on another dildo!
I noticed that the Cyber Cock comes in two colors. I already had the lighter color. Through trial and error over the past few years, I've discovered that my wife prefers dildos that more or less match her gorgeous olive skin. I saw the cinnamon Cyber Cock on SheVibe (their descriptions and pictures are really good) and figured, what the hell. It also looked a little different from the light-skinned one, about the same size but with a different head shape, different veins, different balls. So, I ordered it along with the Captain.
First impression: I'd forgotten the smell of new CyberSkin and I realized I like it a lot! It makes me horny! Also I'd forgotten how much my original Cyber Cock reminded me of the one real cock I've had in my hand, mouth and ass. They really got it right. The Cyber Cock I've had for over two years is still very lifelike. But the brand new one, even more so. Within 10 minutes of opening the box, I'd had a massive orgasm with the cinnamon Cyber Cock deep in my mouth! As I've been doing lately, I put the cum in my mouth and sucked on the head of the dildo, pretending it was a real man who I'd just sucked to completion, I squeezed "his" shaft to make him pulse in my mouth, as if squirting out the last few drops. The illusion was very believable and enjoyable, even after just cumming. I pulled my mouth off of "him" and stared at his hard shaft, his magnificent cock head, the wetness from my mouth covering his manhood from tip to root. I gently squeezed his lifelike balls, opened my mouth to "show him" the mouthful of his cum before I swallowed. Wow!
The only thing that wasn't as expected is the color. In the pictures I've seen of the cinnamon Cyber Cock, it looks similar to what some manufacturers call caramel, kind of a "Latino" skin color. The actual cinnamon Cyber Cock is much darker, more "African". My wife is tured off by darker skin tones, but to me it doesn't matter. I use the Cyber Cock almost entirely for solo play. And I'm turned on by beautiful people (men or women) regardless of their skin tone. Sexy transcends all that!
Anyway, I'm thrilled about the dildo. It's more realistic than I expected and it is different from the "caucasian" version, exactly like in the pictures. I've already had another orgasm sucking both of them, fantasizing about getting double-teamed by these two hot guys with gorgeous dicks!
It wasn't until the next day that I finally tried the Captain. Well, I like it, but I guess I'd been hoping it would be something like Vixskin and in that I was disappointed. It's hard, what I call "plain old silicone." It is realistically detailed and it's a great size - but not the size I expected. I mean, it measures up to the specs (7.25" insertable length, 1.9" diameter), but because it's so hard with so little give, it's effectively larger than the Dream Dick, the dildo I'd hoped to replace with it. It's too hard to be much good for oral, although I have managed to deep throat it (it's not easy!). By opening up my ass with the Cobalt Bubble plug and then opening it a little farther with the Vixskin Johnny, I was able to take it all the way up my ass. And I really enjoyed it! I like it better than the Vixskin Maverick. I guess that's because of the shape (straight, as opposed to Maverick's curve), but whatever the reason, I had a powerful anal orgasm (when I came, my anus, as well as my penis, pulsated in powerful orgasmic throbs) with the Captain up my ass, something I had experienced previously only with Johnny.
I'm really looking forward to my wife's pegging me with the Captain. The beauty is that "he" doesn't look as big or weigh as much as Maverick. Actually (I just checked) he doesn't weigh as much as Johnny. I'm in for a wild ride! I just hope she's gentle with me. Never mind - she never is!
I've gotten three new toys in the last month or so, two of which were pretty much exactly what I expected. The other one is also very cool.
I described my new Don Wands Cobalt Bubble butt plug a couple of posts ago. I still love it!
In the same post I mentioned my curiosity about the Captain Silicone Dildo, made by Good Vibrations. Well, one of my favorite adult online retailers, SheVibe, just started stocking it for $44, which is $14 less than Good Vibrations. And to make it even cooler, I had a $10 coupon for my next SheVibe purchase. So what did I do? Of course, I spent all of the savings and then some on another dildo!
I noticed that the Cyber Cock comes in two colors. I already had the lighter color. Through trial and error over the past few years, I've discovered that my wife prefers dildos that more or less match her gorgeous olive skin. I saw the cinnamon Cyber Cock on SheVibe (their descriptions and pictures are really good) and figured, what the hell. It also looked a little different from the light-skinned one, about the same size but with a different head shape, different veins, different balls. So, I ordered it along with the Captain.
First impression: I'd forgotten the smell of new CyberSkin and I realized I like it a lot! It makes me horny! Also I'd forgotten how much my original Cyber Cock reminded me of the one real cock I've had in my hand, mouth and ass. They really got it right. The Cyber Cock I've had for over two years is still very lifelike. But the brand new one, even more so. Within 10 minutes of opening the box, I'd had a massive orgasm with the cinnamon Cyber Cock deep in my mouth! As I've been doing lately, I put the cum in my mouth and sucked on the head of the dildo, pretending it was a real man who I'd just sucked to completion, I squeezed "his" shaft to make him pulse in my mouth, as if squirting out the last few drops. The illusion was very believable and enjoyable, even after just cumming. I pulled my mouth off of "him" and stared at his hard shaft, his magnificent cock head, the wetness from my mouth covering his manhood from tip to root. I gently squeezed his lifelike balls, opened my mouth to "show him" the mouthful of his cum before I swallowed. Wow!
The only thing that wasn't as expected is the color. In the pictures I've seen of the cinnamon Cyber Cock, it looks similar to what some manufacturers call caramel, kind of a "Latino" skin color. The actual cinnamon Cyber Cock is much darker, more "African". My wife is tured off by darker skin tones, but to me it doesn't matter. I use the Cyber Cock almost entirely for solo play. And I'm turned on by beautiful people (men or women) regardless of their skin tone. Sexy transcends all that!
Anyway, I'm thrilled about the dildo. It's more realistic than I expected and it is different from the "caucasian" version, exactly like in the pictures. I've already had another orgasm sucking both of them, fantasizing about getting double-teamed by these two hot guys with gorgeous dicks!
It wasn't until the next day that I finally tried the Captain. Well, I like it, but I guess I'd been hoping it would be something like Vixskin and in that I was disappointed. It's hard, what I call "plain old silicone." It is realistically detailed and it's a great size - but not the size I expected. I mean, it measures up to the specs (7.25" insertable length, 1.9" diameter), but because it's so hard with so little give, it's effectively larger than the Dream Dick, the dildo I'd hoped to replace with it. It's too hard to be much good for oral, although I have managed to deep throat it (it's not easy!). By opening up my ass with the Cobalt Bubble plug and then opening it a little farther with the Vixskin Johnny, I was able to take it all the way up my ass. And I really enjoyed it! I like it better than the Vixskin Maverick. I guess that's because of the shape (straight, as opposed to Maverick's curve), but whatever the reason, I had a powerful anal orgasm (when I came, my anus, as well as my penis, pulsated in powerful orgasmic throbs) with the Captain up my ass, something I had experienced previously only with Johnny.
I'm really looking forward to my wife's pegging me with the Captain. The beauty is that "he" doesn't look as big or weigh as much as Maverick. Actually (I just checked) he doesn't weigh as much as Johnny. I'm in for a wild ride! I just hope she's gentle with me. Never mind - she never is!
Biting The Hand That Gives Me A Free Blog
I wrote this post in notepad. For some reason, it takes forever to log into blogger lately. Yes, I've scanned for spyware. Anyway, after spending half my lunch hour trying to post something, I decided to see if it was just me. So I googled "google slow" (yes, I get the irony). It took almost 3 minutes for the results to appear! Anyway, as I suspected, it's not just me. Other pages (like Facebook) load instantly. Google used to be super fast, which is why I've become so dependent on them for everything. Now I've gone back to MapQuest and I'm trying out things like Bing (Microsoft, shudder).
I'd rather use Google, because, y'know, they're not EVIL. But they're currently eating my life.
Dude, WTF?!?
I'd rather use Google, because, y'know, they're not EVIL. But they're currently eating my life.
Dude, WTF?!?
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
On the other hand...
So, my last entry about porn?
Maybe I just wasn't horny enough when I wrote it. Now I'm horny and I see the positive side of porn. I should clarify: I'm horny in a submissive way.
Now, watching Kyra Black in Tamed Teens 3, I'm...moved. The difference is that the last time I watched it. I visualized myself in the guys' position. I didn't like the way that felt. Tonight, I'm visualizing what HER experience was like, having big dicks shoved down my throat and up my ass. I LOVE it! And in this state of mind, it really doesn't matter that the sex is mechanical and everybody's jaded about everything. If it was me getting buttfucked by one guy with the other guy's foot on my head, I would NOT be jaded about it.
It's been too long since my wife dominated me!
We had been "kinking" every two weeks or so. But I've been sick, she's been sick...
Now we're both well (how great that is!) and at least we're having sex again. Last night I fucked her ass in a spoon position. The previous 4 nights, I ate her ass and fucked her feet! That included some face bouncing, some ball-kicking and -crushing -- and about a dozen farts right in my nose and mouth! Also some dirty talk about cleaning and sucking her ass, about breathing and eating her farts and about her tying me up, whipping me, beating my balls "blue", and fucking me (she also reminded me that her dick (Vixskin Johnny) is bigger than mine!).
She's been having to start work early, so no morning sex. The late night stuff is fun, if a little dreamy and lazy.
Last weekend, I gave her head until she stopped me three times, fucked her in the spoon, missionary, doggie, cowgirl and reverse cowgirl positions and twice she made me cum in her mouth with her amazing mouth and hands. That was three amazing orgasms for me and maybe seven for her in about four hours on a wonderful leisurely Sunday morning into early afternoon.
But no kinky stuff so far this year. With her.
Solo is a different story.
By myself, I've cuffed my hands behind my back, worn a collar and cuffed my hands to that, bound my balls with parachute cord and also with a shackle; I've beaten my balls with a rubber night stick, with my hands and with various dildos and also crushed my balls beneath my body; I've sucked several different dildos and their balls; I've buttfucked myself with 4 different dildos (Vamp Elvis, Vixskin Johnny, Vixskin Maverick and Vixskin Outlaw) and I've eaten my own cum at least a dozen times.
Today, I locked my balls in a shackle, slapped them around a little, then sucked Johnny until I had enough saliva to lubricate my masturbation sleeve (Slipinside #1, my wife calls it my "slave tube"). Then I assfucked myself with Johnny while I sucked the Outlaw. I also sniffed her panties and her socks while I fucked the masturbation tube (and my ass and my mouth). It was good!
Not as good as having kinky sex with my beautiful, sexy wife... but orgasmic nonetheless!
Now I watch Kyra Black being treated the way I treated myself and I like it! This doesn't invalidate my criticisms of porn. I still like it better with the sound off because that way I can pretend whatever I want to about the actors. If I have to listen to their inane profanities and insincere moans and etc. it's harder to pretend that I'm Kyra and that these two well-hung, well-built guys OWN me, that they KNOW they own me and they get off on owning me; that I get off on being owned by them and they know this and are amused by it.
OK, now I'm going to suck my wife's gorgeous ass and fuck her goddess feet again! With a little luck, maybe we can have a serious kinky sex session soon!
Maybe I just wasn't horny enough when I wrote it. Now I'm horny and I see the positive side of porn. I should clarify: I'm horny in a submissive way.
Now, watching Kyra Black in Tamed Teens 3, I'm...moved. The difference is that the last time I watched it. I visualized myself in the guys' position. I didn't like the way that felt. Tonight, I'm visualizing what HER experience was like, having big dicks shoved down my throat and up my ass. I LOVE it! And in this state of mind, it really doesn't matter that the sex is mechanical and everybody's jaded about everything. If it was me getting buttfucked by one guy with the other guy's foot on my head, I would NOT be jaded about it.
It's been too long since my wife dominated me!
We had been "kinking" every two weeks or so. But I've been sick, she's been sick...
Now we're both well (how great that is!) and at least we're having sex again. Last night I fucked her ass in a spoon position. The previous 4 nights, I ate her ass and fucked her feet! That included some face bouncing, some ball-kicking and -crushing -- and about a dozen farts right in my nose and mouth! Also some dirty talk about cleaning and sucking her ass, about breathing and eating her farts and about her tying me up, whipping me, beating my balls "blue", and fucking me (she also reminded me that her dick (Vixskin Johnny) is bigger than mine!).
She's been having to start work early, so no morning sex. The late night stuff is fun, if a little dreamy and lazy.
Last weekend, I gave her head until she stopped me three times, fucked her in the spoon, missionary, doggie, cowgirl and reverse cowgirl positions and twice she made me cum in her mouth with her amazing mouth and hands. That was three amazing orgasms for me and maybe seven for her in about four hours on a wonderful leisurely Sunday morning into early afternoon.
But no kinky stuff so far this year. With her.
Solo is a different story.
By myself, I've cuffed my hands behind my back, worn a collar and cuffed my hands to that, bound my balls with parachute cord and also with a shackle; I've beaten my balls with a rubber night stick, with my hands and with various dildos and also crushed my balls beneath my body; I've sucked several different dildos and their balls; I've buttfucked myself with 4 different dildos (Vamp Elvis, Vixskin Johnny, Vixskin Maverick and Vixskin Outlaw) and I've eaten my own cum at least a dozen times.
Today, I locked my balls in a shackle, slapped them around a little, then sucked Johnny until I had enough saliva to lubricate my masturbation sleeve (Slipinside #1, my wife calls it my "slave tube"). Then I assfucked myself with Johnny while I sucked the Outlaw. I also sniffed her panties and her socks while I fucked the masturbation tube (and my ass and my mouth). It was good!
Not as good as having kinky sex with my beautiful, sexy wife... but orgasmic nonetheless!
Now I watch Kyra Black being treated the way I treated myself and I like it! This doesn't invalidate my criticisms of porn. I still like it better with the sound off because that way I can pretend whatever I want to about the actors. If I have to listen to their inane profanities and insincere moans and etc. it's harder to pretend that I'm Kyra and that these two well-hung, well-built guys OWN me, that they KNOW they own me and they get off on owning me; that I get off on being owned by them and they know this and are amused by it.
OK, now I'm going to suck my wife's gorgeous ass and fuck her goddess feet again! With a little luck, maybe we can have a serious kinky sex session soon!
Thursday, February 10, 2011
The Shortcummings of Porn
My reaction to porn films is as follows: After the first ten minutes, I want to go home and screw. After the first 20 minutes, I never want to screw again as long as I live.
~Erica Jong, Playboy Magazine, September 1975
Maybe I've watched too much porn lately, but I've really gotten kind of sick of it.
Don't get me wrong - I'm a HUGE fan of porn - but lately I've finally seen the truth of some arguments against it.
First, it separates sex from love. Not always, but mostly. I'm thinking mainly of stuff like double anal, gangbang - sex as spectacle, sex as sport. Again, don't get me wrong - I enjoy watching extremely attractive and sexually skilled performers have sex with each other. But after awhile, with most porn stars, you realize they're doing it for the money and they don't really enjoy it or feel any connection to the people they're doing it with. And that realization just makes me sad. Some porn stars do manage to make (almost) every scene passionate and memorable - Annette Schwarz, Rebeca Linares, Monica Mattos, Sandra Romain to name a few - but they manage to be sexy despite mainstream porn's efforts to reduce sex to a formula: attractive persons a + b (and maybe + c, d, e, etc) performing x+y+z (etc) sex acts = profit.
Second, it contributes to "Sex Attention Deficit Disorder" (SADD). This is when someone who is used to masturbating while watching porn finds it difficult to stay adequately focused when having sex with a real person. Either they cum too quick, or they can't stay hard, or maybe they just aren't "there". I haven't been too affected, but I have found that my mind wanders sometimes. Sometimes I think about stuff I've seen in porn while having sex with my wife. But I've heard this is a big problem for a lot of people today.
Third, it creates unrealistic expectations. Again, this is not a big deal for us. My wife and I are both pretty hot, if I may say so. We get off on looking at ourselves in the mirror when we fuck. She gives me deep throat head on a regular basis, she loves when I cum in her mouth and lets me fuck her ass almost as much as I want. I give her head for 45 minutes or more whenever I get the chance and I fuck her silly when she wants it. But if I was turned on by shaved pubes, bleach blonde hair or big fake boobs, she would not pass the test. I think a lot of guys today who've learned about sex and women mainly from porn, expect all women to be shaved, stacked and up for anything. And that creates a lot of disappointment. On the other hand, I've also read that women today are giving in to those expectations, that more women do anal, deep throat and swallow then ever before. So maybe it's not all bad!
Anyway - all of the above are NOT really arguments against porn. Instead, they suggest ways for porn to improve.
A handful of my specific wishes for porn:
~Erica Jong, Playboy Magazine, September 1975
Maybe I've watched too much porn lately, but I've really gotten kind of sick of it.
Don't get me wrong - I'm a HUGE fan of porn - but lately I've finally seen the truth of some arguments against it.
First, it separates sex from love. Not always, but mostly. I'm thinking mainly of stuff like double anal, gangbang - sex as spectacle, sex as sport. Again, don't get me wrong - I enjoy watching extremely attractive and sexually skilled performers have sex with each other. But after awhile, with most porn stars, you realize they're doing it for the money and they don't really enjoy it or feel any connection to the people they're doing it with. And that realization just makes me sad. Some porn stars do manage to make (almost) every scene passionate and memorable - Annette Schwarz, Rebeca Linares, Monica Mattos, Sandra Romain to name a few - but they manage to be sexy despite mainstream porn's efforts to reduce sex to a formula: attractive persons a + b (and maybe + c, d, e, etc) performing x+y+z (etc) sex acts = profit.
Second, it contributes to "Sex Attention Deficit Disorder" (SADD). This is when someone who is used to masturbating while watching porn finds it difficult to stay adequately focused when having sex with a real person. Either they cum too quick, or they can't stay hard, or maybe they just aren't "there". I haven't been too affected, but I have found that my mind wanders sometimes. Sometimes I think about stuff I've seen in porn while having sex with my wife. But I've heard this is a big problem for a lot of people today.
Third, it creates unrealistic expectations. Again, this is not a big deal for us. My wife and I are both pretty hot, if I may say so. We get off on looking at ourselves in the mirror when we fuck. She gives me deep throat head on a regular basis, she loves when I cum in her mouth and lets me fuck her ass almost as much as I want. I give her head for 45 minutes or more whenever I get the chance and I fuck her silly when she wants it. But if I was turned on by shaved pubes, bleach blonde hair or big fake boobs, she would not pass the test. I think a lot of guys today who've learned about sex and women mainly from porn, expect all women to be shaved, stacked and up for anything. And that creates a lot of disappointment. On the other hand, I've also read that women today are giving in to those expectations, that more women do anal, deep throat and swallow then ever before. So maybe it's not all bad!
Anyway - all of the above are NOT really arguments against porn. Instead, they suggest ways for porn to improve.
A handful of my specific wishes for porn:
- Women - lighten up on the potty mouth! I know it's borderline ridiculous to complain about language in porn films, but hearing someone go on and on in the foulest possible language - "oh yeah, that's it, fuck my tight little asshole...fuck yeah...fuck me...fuck me like the whore I am!" - especially when they obviously feel next to nothing - it's just a huge turn off.
- Guys - just STFU! Why do some male porn directors or actors feel the need to run their mouths during porn scenes? Usually they're saying creepy things, again without the slightest hint of affection or passion. Does ANYONE like this?
- Everyone - can you at least pretend that you feel some connection to the person you're sharing these intimate acts with? Maybe that would be easier without trying to make the Guinness book of sex records or whatever. If real sex is too boring for you, that's because YOU are boring, not because regular sex is boring. Done right, regular sex is probably the hottest thing in life.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Being well is the best thing ever
We've been sick for almost a month. Bronchitis. Pretty sure we picked it up at a New Year's party. We went to three; each party had at least a couple of sick people. Who kept wanting to talk to us. What sucks is that none of the parties was all that much fun. I would rather have been home having sex with my wife. And then I was sick for over two weeks. About when I got better, my wife got sick. Fortunately she's starting to feel better. But - almost no sex for about a month.
Naturally I've been whacking off like a bandit. For about two weeks. Two, three times a day. Early morning before work. Evening after work before she gets home (or before she stops working if she's working from home). Late night right before bed (for instance, right after this).
Today I went upstairs about 5, stripped, tied my balls with parachute cord and sucked some serious silicone DICK. Vixskin Johnny, which I can easily deep throat repeatedly and then Vixskin Outlaw, which I can throat all but about the last inch of.
Turns out I can take Johnny up my ass without any other warmup now. I used to have to start with something smaller, but today with plenty of lube I managed to get it in with minimal pain. Actually, it hurt (about 2.5 on a scale of 1 to 10) for a couple of seconds but it was fine after I pulled out and then it went in without pain 15 or so seconds later.
I realized today that the drawer of my dresser is just the right height. If I (gently) wedge Johnny's balls in the drawer, it's easy to fuck myself standing up. So I slid it in easily the second try and fucked myself silly for a few minutes. On the front end, I sucked on the Outlaw.
And then I switched. After a few minutes of Johnny, the Outlaw went in right away. Felt HUGE, though and I was grateful that the door kept the last 1.5 inches or so from going in. Still, even with "only" about 7.5 inches of 2 inch thick dick, I felt thoroughly manhandled!
After that, I moved to the bed and sucked both Johnny and the Outlaw while I fucked my "slave tube" (Slipinside #1). I put a medium sized vibrating bullet in my butt. It ended all too soon! I stopped sucking for a moment and just LOOKED at the two big dicks with my saliva all over them, the wet mark going all the way down to the balls (well, almost to the balls in the case of the Outlaw). I imagined I'd just made both of them cum (one in my ass and one in my mouth, with the cum swallowed of course).
My orgasm was huge, especially considering it was the second of the day. Anal orgasm, too. Powerful! I have a perverse urge to film it next time, me sucking on a big dick while impaling myself on another.
I can't wait to have sex with my wife again! She's said several times she feels the same.
Oh, well, I'm going to go see what my THIRD orgasm of the day is like!
Naturally I've been whacking off like a bandit. For about two weeks. Two, three times a day. Early morning before work. Evening after work before she gets home (or before she stops working if she's working from home). Late night right before bed (for instance, right after this).
Today I went upstairs about 5, stripped, tied my balls with parachute cord and sucked some serious silicone DICK. Vixskin Johnny, which I can easily deep throat repeatedly and then Vixskin Outlaw, which I can throat all but about the last inch of.
Turns out I can take Johnny up my ass without any other warmup now. I used to have to start with something smaller, but today with plenty of lube I managed to get it in with minimal pain. Actually, it hurt (about 2.5 on a scale of 1 to 10) for a couple of seconds but it was fine after I pulled out and then it went in without pain 15 or so seconds later.
I realized today that the drawer of my dresser is just the right height. If I (gently) wedge Johnny's balls in the drawer, it's easy to fuck myself standing up. So I slid it in easily the second try and fucked myself silly for a few minutes. On the front end, I sucked on the Outlaw.
And then I switched. After a few minutes of Johnny, the Outlaw went in right away. Felt HUGE, though and I was grateful that the door kept the last 1.5 inches or so from going in. Still, even with "only" about 7.5 inches of 2 inch thick dick, I felt thoroughly manhandled!
After that, I moved to the bed and sucked both Johnny and the Outlaw while I fucked my "slave tube" (Slipinside #1). I put a medium sized vibrating bullet in my butt. It ended all too soon! I stopped sucking for a moment and just LOOKED at the two big dicks with my saliva all over them, the wet mark going all the way down to the balls (well, almost to the balls in the case of the Outlaw). I imagined I'd just made both of them cum (one in my ass and one in my mouth, with the cum swallowed of course).
My orgasm was huge, especially considering it was the second of the day. Anal orgasm, too. Powerful! I have a perverse urge to film it next time, me sucking on a big dick while impaling myself on another.
I can't wait to have sex with my wife again! She's said several times she feels the same.
Oh, well, I'm going to go see what my THIRD orgasm of the day is like!
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