A Cuckold's Chance in Hell (a POV femdom humiliation joi clip idea)

[This is an idea I just had for a JOI/CEI clip with a cuckold theme; it's free to anyone who will make the clip. If you make a clip based on the idea, please leave a comment with a link, and I will buy it!]

A beautiful woman smirks into the camera. She's wearing a skimpy outfit which shows off her curves. I picture a lacy bra and a miniskirt. The camera moves smoothly around from her face to her breast, ass, legs, feet (etc), and then back to her face...

"Hello, my cuckold bitch 'husband'. Would you like to get out of chastity for a few minutes? What's that? Yes I KNOW you're a couple of weeks overdue for your monthly humiliating orgasm. You know I've been busy, what with my new boyfriend and all.

"Anyway...he's coming over in about an hour. If it's like last time, as you know, he'll just carry me off to the bedroom, where we'll fuck for hours.

"Aw... are you CRYING? What a little bitch! You're such a pathetic, small-dicked loser! Maybe this will cheer you up: I'm gonna give you a chance to win me back. That's right: if you can pass this simple test, I'll call my boyfriend and tell him not to come over, and you and I can go to the bedroom instead. In all honesty, I wouldn't enjoy your ugly little dick nearly as much as I enjoy my boyfriend's big, beautiful COCK - but you ARE my husband, after all. [Giggles]

"All you have to do is, stare at my body and jerk your little dick for 5 minutes - without cumming. I will shake my tits and ass in your face, and you will have to keep stroking your little penis. If you can make it 5 full minutes without spilling your filth, I'll call my boyfriend and tell him that it's over and YOU are my man now.

"What's the catch? Well, if you fail, OF COURSE my boyfriend will keep coming over ever day and fucking my brains out, AND you won't get out of chastity for AT LEAST THREE MONTHS this time... AND one more thing... as you know, my boyfriend is a MAJOR stud. He needs to cum AT LEAST once a day, usually two or three times. The only trouble is, his cock is so big that I just can't take it every day. I mean, my pussy gets sore, my ass gets sore - even my mouth is sore. So...if you lose, you will have to help us out.

"I mean, when he wants sex but I'm too sore, YOU will have to take care of him, and his beautiful cock. I already asked him about it, and he likes the idea, especially after I told him how well you suck my strapon, and how much you like getting pegged! And I know YOU like the idea, don't try to deny it. We both know you want to be a cuckold cocksucker!

"I'm going to remove your chastity device now... [shows a key, reaches under the frame and pretends to unlock and remove a chastity device; should take 10 seconds or so]

"Ah, doesn't that feel good? What a relief, right! Wow, your little dick is SO hard..." [Giggles]

Sexy music plays. She starts dancing. The camera is at the level of her crotch/ass. The camera moves around smoothly between her ass, legs, feet, breasts and face, with an occasional quick cut to a timer or clock counting down from 5 minutes.

"Jerk your little dick for my perfect body, you pathetic cuckold bitch!"

She turns around and lifts her skirt to reveal she's wearing either no panties, or something extremely skimpy and sexy.. She sensually sways her ass a few feet from the camera, then turns around to show off her breasts and to talk right into the camera.

"That's right, keep jerking that hard little prick - just use your thumb and forefinger, bitch! My boyfriend's dick takes two hands - your little dicklet only needs two fingers!"

If she's into farting, and she has to fart, she should turn around, lift her skirt, command the viewer to "put your nose right right up my BUTT [or ASS]" - and rip a fart, loudly and proudly, right into the camera! If that happens, "That's right, THAT'S what I think of you! Smell it - breathe that FART, you little bitch! Take it all in! Does it smell good? Of course it does! [points at the camera and laughs] Oh look, you came all over yourself when I FARTED in your face! You're so pathetic. Eat your cum, right now! Eat it!!" [laughs loudly]

 If she doesn't need to fart during the video, she can still 'talk shit' about it. She should put her ass right in the camera and say, "Sniff it - smell my ASSHOLE, you little bitch. Take a DEEP whiff! Does that smell good? Of course it does! I bet you're hoping I FART right now, right in your pathetic cuckold face! Believe me, if I need to fart, I will! Whenever my ass is this close to your face, I wanna fart! THAT'S what I think of you! Oh, look, you came all over yourself just thinking about me FARTING in your face! Is anything more pathetic than that?! Eat your cum, right now bitch! Eat it!!!"

If she's not into farting, she can keep shaking her ass and breasts in the camera while she says humiliating things, like how her boyfriend doesn't just have a bigger dick - although it is MUCH bigger and more beautiful - but how he's also taller, more muscular, better looking, a better dresser, a better dancer, MUCH better at fucking, how much he cums, and how powerfully (etc)... She can talk about how much her boyfriend enjoys her perfect body, how he loves to squeeze her ass cheeks and fondle her breasts, how the viewer is going to have to learn to be a sissy slut if he loses! How her boyfriend will insists that he (the viewer, of course) put on a wig and some sexy lingerie - at the very least.- if he's going to service him.

There are nearly endless variations possible for this. One I especially like would involve a minute or two of body shaking and humiliating talk - and then a surprise strapon reveal! She'll turn around, and lift her skirt to reveal a large (but not ridiculous) realistic strapon. She can 'jack off' for a bit, then command the viewer to "Suck it - SUCK my DICK, you little bitch!"

However she does it, OF COURSE the poor viewer will not last the full five minutes. After mocking him, and commanding him to eat his own cum, she will pretend to put him back in chastity (a click would help) and remind him that he's not going to get out of chastity again for at least three months! ("Aw, don't cry, bitch!"). Finish by telling the viewer there's a wig and some slutty lingerie for him in the bedroom. He has just enough time to get ready for her boyfriend. Yes, that's right: she KNEW he was going to lose. After all - that's what a LOSER does best, right!?

"Now KISS my ASS and go get ready!"

The End

Runtime should be about 5 minutes. I'll post more of these ideas as they occur to me!

What I did with my dick

Not me.

I didn't fuck my wife and I didn't get a blowjob from a guy. I didn't even try. I just jerked off thinking about kissing female ass, fucking female ass, being farted on by a hot female ass, being cuckolded, being the bull fucking another guy's wife's ass, getting head from a hot female, and finally again, fucking a hot female ass..

This was the image I was looking at when I came:

I came into my hand and ate it. It tasted good. I hadn't cum in 2 days so I came a lot. I felt pretty good afterwards, I was relieved that I didn't get a blowjob from a guy. I was a little sad thinking about how much more awesome it would have been to cum inside my wife.

Maybe tomorrow I'll wake up in time to fuck my wife!

What to do with my dick?

Haha. I need to decide whether to fuck my wife in the morning, or try to get a blowjob from a guy.

The answer is obvious, isn't it? I should fuck my wife!

The only problem is that I may not wake up before she gets up. Once she has breakfast and coffee, it's all over. She will never come back to bed after that. She actually did, a couple of times, but it wasn't any good.

Actually that's not true - once, she had breakfast and coffee, and then she sat on my face/head for about 45 minutes while she talked on the phone with her friend. She was naked, and my head was under the covers. She farted a couple of times, and I wasn't allowed to cum until she got off the phone. That was awesome. 

Of course, it was my idea. One thing I've learned about my wife is that if I don't suggest it, it's not going to happen. That even goes for me giving her head. Once I start to do it, she really likes it, but I don't think she's ever initiated even that. 

The one time I can remember her initiating sex was when I asked her, at bedtime, to wake me up in the morning with a blowjob. She did, and it was awesome. (In the interests of fairness, reciprocity and all that jazz, I woke her with oral a couple of days later. She did NOT like it at all). 

But she almost never refuses me, either. If I start kissing her in the morning, and I want to fuck her, I will fuck her. If I want a blowjob, she'll give me a blowjob. If I want to fuck her in the ass - she'll say no! But I'll get in there on a weekend night very soon. If I ask for a blowjob more than one day in a row, she might give in, but she won't be happy about it. Ditto if I want to fuck her two days in a row. 

If I want sex 4 days in a row (which is about the most I hope for these days), it will have to start with kinky sex, ideally anal. The next morning, I can lick her to several orgasms and then receive a blowjob. The morning after that, I can cum between her feet with my face up her ass. The morning after that, I can fuck her (vaginally). Then, there has to be at least one day off, more likely two. The order of sex acts can vary, but the basic pattern stays the same: a different kind of sex, or no sex, each day, never the same thing more than once in a row.

It was different when we were dating. Then I could fuck her several times over the course of one day and/or night. And then I could fuck her again the next day. 

I like it a lot better now, because I have more sex, and to me that beats the higher intensity of the dating sex. It definitely makes us closer, and I guess it's more endorphins gushing through our bloodstreams. 

Yesterday morning, I made her cum with my mouth and hands, and then she sat on my face and gave me a pretty good blowjob. She played with my balls a lot, and rubbed her pussy in my face while she sucked me. Her ass in my face is amazing. She sucked me deeper than halfway a couple of times. She let me cum in her mouth. She was discreet about spitting it out. Two days before that, I kissed/licked/sucked her ass and came on her feet. Two days before that, I came inside her while fucking her in doggy (with a little choking and hair-pulling)..

Lately I've been wondering what it would be like to get a blowjob from a guy. I want to be sucked with enthusiasm, I want to be deepthroated, and I want my cum to be swallowed! Basically, I want to experience better head, maybe better than I ever got before. How will I feel, after? 

I think I'm going to try to wake up in time to fuck my wife. Yep.

Actions speak louder than words, I guess

Yesterday morning, I fucked my wife's face, and she fondled my balls, until I came in her mouth. I didn't imagine any fantasies, I just enjoyed what was happening, and thought about that. I came a lot. It felt amazing from start to finish, and just as good afterwards. All day it felt good.

This morning, I fucked my wife from behind and came inside her pussy. I only lasted a few minutes. She wasn't getting off on it much, and I fantasized about watching a guy with a big dick fuck her, with her getting off on it in a HUGE way. I looked at her back and the back of her neck and head, and imagined that she was thinking about getting fucked by that guy, and I came in just a few seconds. I came pretty hard. The orgasm lasted about 45 seconds. I have felt GREAT all day.

I still looked at CL yesterday and today. Just now, I replied to a guy in his 20s looking to receive head, and maybe to give it, too. I don't expect a response. That's what usually happens. The old L.A. "no".

Not sure why I keep looking. Maybe it's just a desire to do something dangerous. Or maybe I just want cock, in addition to amazing female ass, tits, mouth...and everything. I love to fantasize I'm doing it because my wife told me to do it. 

Anyway, it's been a fun weekend. I hope the week ahead is good, too.

Could it be...Satan?!

Sometimes I wonder WHY I get turned on by submissive fantasies and actions.

Lately, I've been fantasizing about sucking cock, and indulging the fantasy by searching for pics of "superior" cocks online, and sometimes I actually suck a realistic dildo while I masturbate, usually the "Perfect Pecker" (aka thick BBC).

As if that wasn't submissive enough, I also have recurring fantasies about my wife cuckolding me with a "superior" man with a "superior cock. In one of my favorite fantasies lately, She makes me kiss and lick Her Ass in from of Him, and of course, She farts in my nose/mouth and they Both think it's hilarious.

Because his cock is so big, my wife can only handle him a couple of times a week. Being a VERY manly man, He needs/demands to cum at least once a day, and a guy like that doesn't jerk off. So I have to service him, of course, giving him expert, worshipful blowjobs whenever he tells me to (sometimes multiple times a day), and bending over at his command.

He has no respect for me at all.

He likes to slap me in the face with his big cock, and to rub it, and his big hairy balls, all over my face. He washes up carefully before he has sex with my wife, but when I'm going to service him, he doesn't bother washing up at all. He likes to compare His Cock with my little "dicklet" (my wife called it that, and he thought it was hilarious and copied her) and laugh, especially when my wife is there to laugh with him. His Cock is about twice as big as my dicklet, significantly longer, and MUCH thicker. I can just barely deepthroat it, and sucking it for more than a couple of minutes makes my jaw ache for hours.

Sometimes he makes me wear a chastity device, other times he makes me jerk off into my hand and eat it BEFORE I serve his pleasure. He cums in my mouth (and throat, and ass) without warning, and he expects my ass to be ready for him at all times. When he fucks me, he just tells me to stick my ass up, and as soon as I do, he rams his big cock in all the way with no mercy. He fucks my throat the same way. After seeing my wife fart in my face, he also makes me lick his ass, and he is highly amused to fart loudly in my nose/mouth with no warning. He also finds it amusing to hit and kick me in the balls, and to squeeze my balls too hard while he's fucking me.

Of course he likes to have my wife suck his dick in front of me, and to fuck her while I watch. Of course, she gets off MUCH more with him and his big cock than she ever did with me and my little dicklet. She says it, both when she and I are alone, and when the three of us are together.

Why would I have a fantasy like that?!

I can't help but think this is what a religious person would call the work of the devil! Other bedevilments include wanting to browse the m4m section of CL, and even occasionally to reply to a post. Only if the poster is well-endowed, looking for a blowjob, close by, and hosting. But CL being what it is, I have yet to make a connection. There's a black guy in his mid 20's who's been looking for someone like me, an older white guy with no gag reflex. He wants to cum at least twice. He has a Big Dick. I replied. He was interested. And then he was gone. He contacted me later when it was impossible for me to get away, but I have gotten seriously aroused thinking about sucking his Cock and getting my face fucked until I'm digesting at least two loads of his sperm. Just now I looked. There's a guy not far from here, "tall with a big dick" looking to get his dick sucked tomorrow. I replied. Let's see what happens. I probably won't (can't) actually do it, and that's almost certainly for the best. The fantasy is so powerful, though, that I can't help putting my fingers near the fire. My wife has been sick for a couple of weeks, so I've been unusually horny. I've even been checking out some of the posts by guys wanting to suck dick. I replied to a couple of those. Those guys are quick to respond, and eager to please! Again, nothing has come of it, and probably, nothing will. Years ago, I got a pretty good blowjob from a drag queen, but I've never had a BJ to completion from a masculine guy. When I'm as horny as I am now, I think I would like it. It would have to feel as good as my hand does, right?

But then I think, "What about AFTER?" That's always the important part. I don't think I'd feel very good after sucking another guy's dick, or after getting my dick sucked by a guy.

Still, it feels good to fantasize about it, and I haven't felt bad after cumming while fantasizing about either of those things. That's not all I fantasize about lately, but it's been the dominant theme for the last month or so. I've also cum thinking about getting my dick sucked by a woman, sometimes my wife, sometimes another guy's wife. Sometimes I fantasize about cumming inside another woman's pussy, or ass. A lot of times when I'm close to cumming from thinking about something submissive, I "flip the script" and think about something dominant while I cum. Probably my favorite current fantasy is to cum inside another man's wife and get her pregnant! In the fantasy, I'm out of town, anonymous, and untraceable. Usually the husband has to either suck my cock then guide me into his wife's pussy, and/or he licks/sucks my balls and or ass while I fuck her with no protection.

And sometimes I just look at pictures of sexy naked women and cum thinking about them.

Before my wife got sick, the sex was pretty good. I had a minor injury a couple of months ago, and there was only about a 10 day window between recovering from that and my wife's getting sick. In that time, I made her cum with oral on 3 different days, fucked her a couple of times, got two blowjobs, and kissed her ass while fucking her feet once.

I can't wait until she's well again. Maybe this weekend...

Everything Changes, Nothing Much Changes

lovesmallpenis.wordpress.com is no longer available.

The authors have deleted this site.

That's what I found recently when I tried to view Steve and Hottie's excellent blog, Love Small Penis (LSP). Why?

No idea.

I sent Steve an email, but he didn't reply. I may email Hottie, but I haven't yet. The last I heard from them, back around mid-January (also the time of my last entry on here), Hottie had warmed up to the idea of actually hooking up with a well-hung Bull. Steve was, as always, more than supportive. I was signed up to receive an automatic email whenever they updated. I waited. And waited. And then... nothing.

The only clue I have comes from Rougedmount, a blogger I know mainly from her insightful comments on the LSP blog. She posted on February 17:

With permission from Steve and Hottie, I am passing along the information that they have decided to shut down the blog and walk away from the community after considering all of the options available to them.

Apparently, managing such a popular, interactive blog was just too much for them to keep up with and keep living normal(ish) lives. Maybe I'm lucky that so few read my blog! Of course, we can't be sure that the "official" reason Rougedmont reported is the actual reason Steve and Hottie deleted their blog. But whatever, they are missed and I wish them well. They helped me understand my sexuality, and my true nature as a dominant masculine man, much better.

But - as it keeps turning out with me, it's not quite that simple.

I still get turned on, not only by the idea of dominating, but also by the idea of being dominated. And - not only am I turned on by women, but also (admittedly, much less often) by men. What I find particularly interesting, confusing - and frustrating - is that my fantasies involving women are both dominant and submissive, but my fantasies involving men are almost entirely submissive, at least the ones that turn me on the most.

Yeah, I'm mainly talking about being turned on by the thought of sucking big dick(s)!

I admit it! Usually, I want to be him. But sometimes, I do want to be her. WHY?!

Looking at CL, it's easy to see I'm not alone. There are a few guys looking for head, and LOTS of guys looking for dick to suck. I keep looking, almost every day. I haven't actually taken any action, but I've been tempted to reply to a couple of ads.

But WHY?? Why do I want to suck big dick(s)? And why do so many men want to do that?

From my own experience, I know I'm happier when I get off in a masculine, dominant way, that is to say, happier after. Before, and during, I'm turned on about equally at the thought of sucking a big dick, or having my dick sucked. But afterwards, I feel MUCH better if I was fantasizing about having mine sucked. I always feel weird if I was thinking about sucking a cock.

Also, why do I get turned on thinking about hot women sucking my cock, but not by a man doing it? I guess a mouth really isn't just a mouth, after all. I digress.

Last week, I got really turned on, browsed CL, almost replied to a post by a well-hung guy who lives close to here and was looking for someone like me to suck him and swallow. Instead of contacting him, which I was sure I would have regretted, I went upstairs and sucked on a big realistic dildo while I fucked my Fleshlight. As I got close to cumming, my thoughts wandered to my wife, and I imagined her cuckolding me with this "guy" whose dick I was sucking. I imagined she was there, "forcing" me to suck his "superior" cock, and taunting me, calling me a bitch and a cocksucker, kissing him, and letting him fondle her gorgeous tits and ass while I submissively deepthroated his huge manhood and prepared to swallow his huge, salty load.

As I felt myself starting to cum, I tried to change the script, to think instead about getting a blowjob from my wife (she had just sucked my cock that very morning!), and I was somewhat successful. But I still had the submissive thoughts, enhanced by the lingering taste of the dildo, and as I'd expected, I felt weird and not that great afterwards. Oh, well.

Since my last blog entry in January, my sexual fantasies and reality have been almost entirely dominant and masculine. My wife and I have had lots of sex, as usual, and it's been almost entirely instigated by me, and exactly what I want to happen. I've dominated her, tied her up, fucked her ass and spanked her, cum inside her pussy in lots of different positions, and gotten lots and lots of blowjobs, many of which finished with her swallowing. Once or twice a week, I give her as many orgasms as she wants with my mouth and fingers.

The only even vaguely submissive things have been that sometimes, my fantasies stray to thoughts of her with a better-endowed man, or of her dominating me - and sometimes I kiss her ass! Yesterday, she was giving me a blowjob. After a few minutes, she turned around and got on top of me in a 69. I liked! I had just licked her to about 8 orgasms, 3 of which had her writhing in massive internal spasms of G-spot induced ecstasy. So I was a little surprised she wanted more. But I love to lick her, and to stare at her perfect ass. So, as she's sucking my cock and fondling my balls in a most delightful way, I start licking and staring - and almost immediately she releases a HUGE FART! Unfortunately, it went right over me and I could just barely smell it, but it turned me on in a big way! She farted again, and then again - and then I came in her mouth. I don't know if she swallowed this time, but it felt REALLY good.

Oh, baby - that's what I like!

Lately, I haven't been looking at much porn video, not even amateur or kinky porn. Instead, I've been looking at pics, mostly of naked brunette women with brown eyes, nice bodies, and natural body hair. Hey, I like what I like! Also, I've been way into POV blowjob pics, where the photographer is looking down at a hot women with his dick in her mouth. Again, it's brown-eyed brunettes that turn me on the most, especially Cathy Heaven!

Quite possibly, this is the hottest image to me in the entire universe right now.

For a while, I wasn't masturbating at all, in the hope that it would bring me closer to my wife, but all that really happened was that I didn't cum as often as I'd like. A man should cum 20+ times a month for sexual health, and my wife just doesn't want that much sex. She does want it enough to keep me happy, as long as I supplement with some self-abuse. I make sure to cum at least two out of every three days. What I've done for the past few weeks has been to masturbate the next day after we have sex, then take the next day off, then have sex with her again on the day after that. I don't like sex to be formulaic, but this frequency and pattern is a formula that's working VERY well for both of us.

I haven't been blogging because I've been either busy, or blissed-out, or both. Life is great, but the greatness is the same greatness I've blogged about many times before. I would say that I'll try to post more often, but I know from experience that that's an empty promise.

I will say this - I'm not going to do like Steve and Hottie. I won't delete this blog without warning or explanation. So keep checking back if you like what you see.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to spend some quality time with a Fleshlight. Later!

Seeking a submissive couple!

If you're part of a submissive couple, and this is your idea of fun, contact me!

Lately, my wife and I have been fantasizing about dominating another couple.

My wife only thinks about it for a few minutes in the bedroom when I bring it up during sex. Since I'm basically the personification of arrested development, I think about it a lot more often. Every day for the past couple of weeks, I've wasted hours of perfectly useful work time thinking about what I want to happen if/when my wife and I dominate a submissive couple.

They'd be attractive, cool, and ideally both very submissive. Maybe one of them would be dominant to the other - but they'd both be submissive to us.

We'd meet somewhere public first, maybe on a hike, or for drinks. We'd have them do things for us, like getting stuff we want out of our packs if it's a hike, or getting us drinks if we're at a bar. If we all like each other, then it's off to our hotel room, or theirs, or maybe their house if the couple is down for that.

We'd spend some more time getting to know each other, and then we'd start telling them what to do. To take off their clothes. To take off our clothes for us. To kiss, caress and massage us.

I would absolutely want to fuck the woman, and to humiliate the man. I might let him kiss my wife's feet and possibly kiss her ass, but that would be it. He could kiss my ass and suck my cock, probably just to prove the point. The woman could lick/suck my wife everywhere my wife wants her to lick and/or suck. We could spank either of them, or both. It would be really cool if they're into whips and canes. I'd love to mark a bitch up! Marking up two bitches - even better!

The most fun well might be to have the woman make her man cum submissively at this point. That would be amusing for all of us - well, maybe less so for him!

I'd fuck the woman for a long time. Maybe I'd have her suck me off and swallow my cum first! Then I'd either have her pleasure my wife, or I'd have the man pleasure his woman. Then, in a few minutes when I'm "recharged", I'd put my cock inside the woman. It would be fun to have the man ask for this. I could be into him "fluffing" me a little first, and maybe even guiding my cock into his wife. He can only stay if he can be silently obedient. Maybe his woman can lick my wife while I'm fucking her.

I think we'd all enjoy this!

Ideally, I'd fuck his wife better, deeper, and for a longer time than he does. It would be amazing if she came with my cock in her! I don't care what happens after I cum, as long as I get to stay in her for a minute or so after I cum. Then, I don't care if she has him lick it out, or tries to maximize her chances of getting pregnant (Maude Lewbowski style!). Yes, I'd fucking love to impregnate another man's wife!

That's the beauty of pure fantasy. You don't have to wear condoms, or pay child support! Nobody's too jealous afterwards. Et Cetera.

Another fantasy, which I haven't shared with my wife, if the "Switch Couple Competition" fantasy. More arrested development. We meet a switch couple and play some game. Could be bridge, or poker, or golf - or whatever. The winning couple dominates the losing couple. An interesting variation: the guys compare cocks, and the couple with the bigger-dicked guy dominates. Another interesting variation: we play a game, but it's a four person game, with the winner dominating the other three, or something along those lines. After the game, the possibilities are endless.

My wife and I have played games to decide who's going to dominate, many times. I've won more often than she has! There's something about poker which makes it especially good for kinky sex games. That's probably our all-time favorite.

She's supposed to dominate me between now and the end of the week. I'm going to try to flip the script, or to have her agree to play a game to decide. But I think I'll be a (mostly) good sub. We already agreed she's going to wear a dildo smaller than my cock - specifically the Vixskin GoodFella - if she fucks me. She wants me to start the session in chastity, but I'm going to pretend I forgot all about that. She'll have to bring it up. Ditto for sucking on a dildo.

I've also decided not to push her any more towards trying sex with a big dildo. If she brings it up, and is eager to try it, I'll go along, but I'm not going to push it any more. The one thing I miss from not submitting to her lately is my face getting up close and personal with her ass! I do enjoy the other, dominant things I've doing with her ass lately - spanking, fucking - but I do love kissing her ass, and unlike other, more recently-acquired submissive fantasy turn-ons (sph, cuckolding, etc), kissing a gorgeous ass has never made me feel anything but wonderful.

Yesterday morning, I fucked her passionately, cumming inside her in flat doggie after fucking her a long time in missionary. It was awesome!

Yesterday evening, I made her cum with my mouth and fingers. It took her a long time to cum, which was fine (and typical), but she kept her legs together the whole time, and I got pretty tired. She doesn't like me to put any weight on her legs, which makes it really challenging to get her off. But I always do eventually make her cum, and this time, her first orgasm was especially strong. I always love to feel her contracting on my fingers!

She only wanted a couple more orgasms. After that, we were both pretty tired. I didn't tell her, but my neck was aching. I'd had a hard strength workout earlier. I'd pushed it pretty hard and everything was starting to feel sore. For once, I didn't want to cum, and she was fine with that. She said she'd wake me up with her mouth!

I was actually awake when she started, but it was still great! She didn't have much time, and she didn't even take off her pajamas. She sucked me from the side. I pulled her ass closer and pulled down her pajama bottoms and panties, I'd just started fingering her ass and pussy (different fingers, of course!), when I came in her mouth. I'd hoped she'd swallow, now that she'd actually enjoyed doing it - but damn it, she ran off to the bathroom. Ugh. Well, I shouldn't say "ugh"! It was a good blowjob, and she did let me stay in her mouth a long time after I came.

Maybe I'll kiss her ass in the morning, or maybe I'll fuck her again. Decisions, decisions! Another "dominant strategy" I can pursue to avoid being dominated is to have so much sex with her between now and the end of the week that she won't want to do anything kinky and then it'll be my turn to dominate her again! But like I said, I think I want to let her dominate me. For one thing, it's fun. For another, I know she likes to dominate. And submissive couples are hard to find!

Best. Orgasm. Ever.

My wife is sleeping - and also digesting my sperm, which she enthusiastically swallowed five hours ago.

I feel better than I've ever felt in my entire life. I don't think I'm kidding. I can't recall ever feeling better than I feel right now. Maybe I've felt as good a few times. After kissing a girl / woman for the first time, for example.

She's swallowed before, but this evening she...liked it, for the first time ever.

It was supposed to be her turn to dominate me. She hadn't brought it up at any time this past week, but when I said it was time for me to dominate her, and asked if she was ready, she reminded me it was supposed to be her turn. But I could tell by her tone, and the look in her eyes, that she liked the idea of me dominating her instead. I offered to decide by playing a game with her - but I told her if she insisted on playing the game, and I won, I'd have to give her a spanking for resisting before I dominated her. Not wanting to get spanked, she "surrendered" instead!

I had already laid out a slutty bra and panties for her, as well as her butt plugs and the lube. She went to the bedroom, and came back 15 minutes later, wearing the bra and panties, and with the Tantus Ryder butt plug in place. I had her kneel, and then led her back to the bedroom on her knees. I sat on the bed with her at my feet. I played some music on my phone and had her dance for me. She's a great dancer. Very sexy movements. I enjoyed it a lot!

Then I had her strip, and remove the butt plug. I extended my right foot and she started rubbing and kissing it. After a few minutes, I extended the other foot. Then I had her kiss and massage her way up my legs. I had her rub my balls through my shorts with her left hand. I had her start touching herself with her right hand. I took off my sexy undies.

I had her suck my balls, first one, then the other. She tried to do both at the same time, but she couldn't get them both in her mouth. She kept touching herself while she sucked my balls. I told her to cum for me like that. In a few more minutes, she came with one of my balls in her mouth. It seemed to be a strong orgasm!

After she cooled down, I let her start kissing and licking my cock. I told her to keep touching herself, I wanted her to cum with my cock in her mouth. She kept rubbing her clit with her right hand. She took my balls in her left hand and sucked me about halfway down my shaft. She gagged at that point, which was actually a little annoying!

I told her not to gag and to use her left hand to keep from going too deep. I fucked her face, and said, "Cum for me, bitch!" I could tell she was close. I asked her what she was going to do with it when I came in her mouth. She said she was going to swallow. "Good girl", I said.

She came first, but I was only about a minute behind her. My orgasm was, at the very least, one of the most pleasurable I've ever had. Maybe the best. 10/10! I came a lot. About the time I finished spurting, I felt her swallow! She still had a couple of inches of my cock in her mouth, and it felt unbelievably great. I felt her swallow a couple of times more, and the sensation on my cock was almost too much to take.

I pulled out of her mouth, and looked at her face. She looked radiantly happy! There was a little cum on her face, and some more running down her torso from between her tits. It was just ridiculously sexy! She told me, "I swallowed!" I told her I knew, that I'd felt her swallowing and it felt amazing.

She pointed out that she'd missed some of it, and I just smiled and laughed. I got down on the floor with her and gave her a hug, then a kiss. I asked if she'd liked it and she said she loved it. Wow!

This is the first time I can remember dominating her when she's been 100% obedient. Everything I told her to do, she did without hesitation, and with enthusiasm. I didn't use any bondage, or any punishment. I had laid out several pain tools and a full bondage setup, with collar, leather cuffs, bondage belt, and locks (I was going to lock her cuffed hands to the belt and then fuck her face and/or ass until I came). I also had set out a blindfold and a gag. Didn't use any of it!

I'm planning to give her the chance to dominate me this week, but she'll have to initiate it. If she doesn't dominate me by the end of the week, we agreed it'll be my turn to dominate her again.

Right now, I'm going to bed, so I can get up and fuck her in the morning! This is what the expression "Cloud Nine" must refer to. This is Pure Bliss.

Getting To Know Me

Lately, my natural dominance has awakened, and I want to dominate everybody! Everybody who wants to submit to me, anyway - and about 90% of the people I interact with lately want me to dominate them.

It's almost always that way in my life outside the bedroom, and almost always has been. I usually know what I need to do in order for me to get what I want, and I almost always do what needs to be done, and so I almost always get pretty much everything I want. I make sure people understand what I want from them, and, often after a little negotiation, they usually do what I need them to do. Sometimes it feels as if their primary purpose in life is to make sure I get what I want. Outside the bedroom, I've almost never been able to be any other way but dominant.

Sexually, things have been different.

My first sexual encounters (age 6-9) were with a boy two years older than me. He mostly wanted me to submit to him, and he was bigger and stronger and smarter than me, and I wanted to hang with him enough that I didn't mind being submissive with him, especially since anything he wanted me to do to him, he'd do to me first. Like sucking my dick, which felt really good. I liked it better when he sucked mine, but I didn't mind sucking his. I still remember the way it tasted, and what it was like to gag when he pulled my head too far down on him. With him I always tried to be more dominant, but he never let me.

Once, he and four friends of his, all of whom had air rifles, "captured" me and six other unarmed neighborhood boys and made us dig clay out of the bank of our local creek. They kept us there for a couple of hours. One "slave"tried to leave, but one of the "masters" shot him with the air rifle, which made the boy cry and go back to work. I wanted to leave, but I didn't want to get shot, so I stayed and kept working. I HATED that experience. I cried about it sometimes, but after puberty, I often thought of it when I masturbated. It turned me on to remember being a slave - and it also turned me on to imagine being a master.

We stopped playing around when I was 9 and he had reached puberty and was starting to play with girls.

The next couple of years were all about slowly realizing I was much more attracted to girls than boys. There were almost no girls in my neighborhood growing up, and I never had any chance to play the kind of games with girls that I'd played with my older friend. Girls in school were mostly annoying, or boring, but that changed as I got closer to puberty.

I realized being close to some girls faces made me feel good - and it was even more true about some girls' butts! There were several girls in school who it seemed went out of their way to put their butts right in my face. Or more likely it was the fact that I always chose a seat always right next to the pencil sharpener, or at the back of the class behind an attractive girl. At lunch, I sat right next to the water fountain outside the girls' restroom. On the bus I took an aisle seat close to the front.

I got a funny feeling when an attractive girl's butt was in my face, especially when it was close enough to feel the heat of her body through her clothes. I liked the feeling! Some of the girls in my school liked to say"kiss my butt". These were my favorite girls! I didn't know about submission then, but I get the same feeling now when I submit to my wife as I got then when a girl told me to kiss her butt, or when I carefully dropped my pencil so my face would have to almost touch the ass of the girl in front of me to pick it up.

I almost always felt submissive with girls, There were submissive girls who liked me, but I never liked them. I only liked the sassy, bossy, "kiss my butt" girls! Usually older girls. In retrospect, it's obvious these girls wanted confident, dominant guys, but at the time I had no clue. I only knew that when I tried to fool around with them, they brushed me off.

I kept trying. I knew some girls liked me and I believed I'd succeed with a girl I liked if I kept at it. I was right!

I was also attracted to a boy in my class, and I kept inviting him to sleep over. I wanted to seduce him, but I was afraid he'd reject me (and/or tell the whole school about it), and also I had no clue how to seduce him. He was also sassy and liked to dominate other boys. I was bigger, smarter and stronger than he was, but I let him win whenever we were playing a game or wrestling or whatever. I kept trying with him, too.

By the time I was 15, I'd kissed a few girls. Before I was 16, I french-kissed a girl. Before I turned 17, I gave my friend a blowjob to completion (I initiated it). Before I turned 18, I had a serious girlfriend, and we'd done everything - blowjobs, cunnilingus, anilingus - we even tried anal, even if we didn't get it right - then finally we had sex, and had sex again many, many, many times over the next two years.

She was bossy, definitely fond of saying "kiss my butt" and I liked it. I did kiss her ass pretty often. It amused the hell out of her when I jacked off and came with my face up her ass! I cheated on her, she cheated on me. I gave six more blowjobs to the same guy, and came close to having sex with another girl. I got as far as kissing with three other girls. That was before I went to college.

I must have kissed a dozen girls my first year at college, and had sex with several of them. My girlfriend and I stayed together through my first semester, but by the spring, she was getting pretty attached to the guy she'd cheated on me with. She was tired of my lack of effort in the relationship. And I really didn't give a fuck. She was hot, but I was surrounded by hot, and she was annoying.

I'd have majored in this if I could have.

I didn't realize it at the time, but part of it was that I had no interest in being submissive when so many girls wanted me to dominate them. In retrospect, I realize several boys also sent submissive signals, but I either didn't care because I didn't like them, or I didn't realize at the time they were trying to let me know they wanted to submit to me, or they wanted me to dominate them. All I wanted was to put my cock into as many hot girls as possible. Most of the girls I went for said yes, and it was all about me having my way with them. I always made them cum first with my hands and mouth if they'd let me, and then I fucked them silly.

My high school girlfriend, on the other hand, liked being sassy and dominant, which just didn't ring true anymore, in a world where I was fucking hot girls dominantly all the time. When I hooked up with my girlfriend after I went off to college, I was always dominant, telling her what I wanted, and getting it. She even learned to swallow! I always licked and fingered her until she came, and then got a blowjob, and/or fucked her. Usually both, first a blowjob, and then sex. But she was a two hour drive away, and I didn't even have a car.

On any given weekend, I had the choice between staying in town or going home to see my girlfriend. Going home meant getting a ride, which always took hours of phone calls, and wasn't always possible. Once home, I'd have to endure my parents, and would have to borrow my dad's car... It was a lot of work, although I could be sure of having sex with my girlfriend. If I stayed in town, I had almost as good a chance of hooking up with someone new, and it was as easy as walking or riding the bus to town. It was a no-brainer. 

To me, it was all about the sex. Sex was always pleasurable, and I always got the impression that the women I hooked up with enjoyed it, too. Several women told me that sex with me was better than whatever they'd had before. It made me feel powerful, competently masculine, and dominant. The feeling was intoxicating!

And then I got attached to a woman who ended up cheating on me, and the feeling just evaporated. The bottom dropped out of my confidence, and I drifted for a few years, which is a long time to drift in your 20s. I kissed a few girls, and had sex with a "kissin' cousin" (distant), but didn't fully get my masculine confidence back for almost 4 years.

I had a great relationship then with an older woman, and I was completely dominant in that relationship. She made sure I understood that was what she wanted, and then let me have my way with her. She taught me how to do anal sex correctly, and about the mature version of passion.

I was so in love with her that I dropped everything  - school, job, friends - and moved across the country to be with her. Unfortunately, she wanted to have kids, very soon, and I wasn't ready. I didn't have a proper career yet, and there were just too many adventures I wanted to have before settling down.

This was non-negotiable for both of us, so we split up, and I moved back across the country and for a short time, back to my parents house. I ran into my high school friend (with benefits) and this time, I didn't have to do more than drop a hint before he dropped his pants for a blowjob. He was now very dominant with me, and I really got into submitting to him.

I tried to hook up with several local girls, but the selection was terribly limited. For years, my only sex was giving blowjobs to my friend. We might go a couple of months without hooking up, and then hook up every night for a couple of weeks. I just jerked off afterwards, but I got powerfully horny and had an orgasm, so it was good enough, I figured. I didn't understand at the time why I had so little energy for anything but sex.

After a couple of years of this, he decided he wanted to fuck my ass. When he first suggested it, I was overwhelmed, but I quickly realized this might be my chance to "flip the script" with him, and be the dominant one. I had always fingered and tongued his ass, and I knew he enjoyed it. My last girlfriend had taught me all about anal. I tried to get my friend to let me fuck him instead! At first he considered it, then fought back. He stopped letting me finger his ass when I blew him! The thing was, I was so turned on by him that in the end, I let him win, just like back in school. I finally "surrendered" my ass to him and he fucked me good. After he fucked me, I felt different, like I'd crossed some frontier of submission, and could never be dominant again.

I was getting sex fairly often, so I didn't really care that I was always submissive, or that I wasn't getting with any women - or so I thought.

A couple of years later, I did finally get with a woman again. I realized how much more satisfied I was, not only being with a woman instead of with a guy, but also being dominant in the bedroom. Within a few months, I met the woman who is now my wife and started a long-distance relationship with her. When I started having sex with my wife, I discovered how great it felt to be in love - and also how great it felt to be dominant, and to have someone submit to me. I stopped hooking up with my friend. It felt good to be the one with control!

After we got married, I led her into dominating me, because I wanted to experience being dominated again. I also discovered that she likes to dominate, and that made me want it more. It occurs to me now that it was around the time of the financial crisis that I started buying dildos, and encouraging her to do things like slapping my face, and bossing me around, and farting in my face, and fucking me with strap-ons. Could this be because of how much I blamed myself for how badly my business suffered? I never thought much about it before, but I believe the hit I took during the Great Recession made me want to punish myself, which made me want to teach my wife to dominate me, and eventually even made me start fantasizing about her cuckolding me, and putting me in chastity.

It's probably no coincidence either that I started feeling more dominant at the same time my business finally rebounded to beyond what it was before the meltdown. But I've also realized I feel better after I cum when I'm being dominant, or thinking dominant thoughts. The more I realize how many submissives are out there, and all the different ways I can dominate, the better I feel.
 

In addition to dominating my wife, and our (now-shared) fantasy of dominating another couple, I know I can dominate guys online, and that cuckold couples want me, even as a novice Bull. It will be very interesting to see where my reawakened confidence and dominance lead me!

My dick, your wife - one of the many places this could lead.

It's good to be the King

My favorite thing in the world is dominating my wife.

My favorite thing used to be getting dominated by her, but in the last year or so, I've gotten off more from being in charge.

I totally owned her did a couple of nights ago.

I told her to get her ass ready to be fucked, and then to put on something skimpy and slutty. I watched some TV show about motorcycles, and sipped my pint of craft beer while I waited. About halfway through the show (and my beer), she came in wearing her sexy outfit with her butt plug in place. I had her kneel on the floor and massage my feet while I watched the rest of the show.

We went to the bedroom. I had her continue the massage, and then had her kiss my feet, and thank me for letting her kiss them. Then I had her massage my legs, and my back. Then I rolled over and had her suck my balls through my sexy undies. I let her do that for a long time. I had her take off her panties and start touching herself.

I had her keep touching herself after taking off my undies. I had her kiss my ass all over with her lips and tongue, then I had her suck my balls some more. She could only get one at a time in her mouth, though she did keep trying to get both. She jilled herself off to a pretty good orgasm with (one of) my balls in her mouth! Then I "let her" suck my dick, after I had her beg me to suck it. I didn't let her use her hands, and I kept moving my cock around (without using my hands), making her work to get it in her mouth.

She came again with my dick pulsing in her mouth. I let her keep sucking a little longer. She stopped and asked me if she could remove the butt plug. I smacked her left ass cheek for speaking without permission! I smacked her right ass cheek for stopping the blowjob without permission. I told her she had just earned a spanking. I had her kneel with her face down on the bed, looking away. I had several implements of pain handy. I swished each through the air, and asked if she wanted her spanking with that one. She said no to the thin-tipped riding crop, to both the rattan cane and the acrylic one, and also to both whips (3' and 5' single tails).

From Kim's KinKy Korner

That left only the leather slapper. I showed it to her, and had her kiss it. I had her thank me for spanking her, and asked if she understood why. She said it was because she had spoken without being spoken to first, and for stopping the blowjob. She agreed I deserved a blowjob without any interruptions, and that she knew I knew she had the butt plug in, and that I was in charge of her. She said she'd do better - and then again asked if she could take out the plug!


I said no, and spanked her a little harder than she likes, 5 times, making her count each one. Then I took out the butt plug! I sent her to the bathroom with it to put in the sink, and when she returned, I told her she needed to learn a lesson in obedience. I put a leather locking collar around her neck, leather cuffs on her wrists, and locked the cuffs to the collar with a short chain.

I asked her when a slave speaks. She said, "When spoken to, Master?" I told her that was correct. I asked her if she would speak without being told to speak again. She said she would not. I asked her who decides what happens when I'm dominating her. She said I did. Correct again! I told her I wanted to make sure she remembered the lesson. I paused, then said, "What do you say?"  She hesitated, then said, "No, master!" I grabbed the 3' whip and gave her a medium lash halfway up her back! She muffled a scream!

"Incorrect!", I said. When I teach you a lesson, and make sure you remember it, that's a gift from me to you. What do you say when someone gives you a gift?

"Thank you, Master!"

Correct. I had her lay facedown on the bed, across my knee, and I gave her ten more swats on the ass, about the same painful intensity as before, making her count and thank me for each one. She was on the verge of tears by the end!

After confirming she was having fun, I had her kiss my cock and balls all over and under, then had her stand with her face down on the bed, and with her ass sticking up at me. I asked her if she'd like to swallow my cum. She said yes! I said I was going to fuck her ass instead - how did she like that?

She liked it! I told her I was going to fuck her pussy first.

I put the tip of my cock against her, and had her push herself back onto me. It only took a few seconds until I was in her balls-deep. I grabbed her hips and started fucking her hard. I asked if she'd like me to cum like this. She said YES!

I told her I was going to cum in her ass instead. I pulled my cock out and put it against her ass. Again I had her back up onto it. It hurt her a little, so I put more lube on my cock, and on her ass, and waited 30 seconds before trying again. This time, it went in slowly and surely. As soon as I was in a couple of inches, I started fucking her, holding her hips and pulling her back onto me until I was all the way in. She was making some really cool "Oh!" noises. I fucked her hard and fast for a few seconds, then slow and sensuous for a few seconds. The rhythm was the same, relentless. I pulled out and told her to get up on the bed.

I asked if she wanted me to put my cock back in her ass. She said yes, please! I asked if she thought she deserved my cock, and she said she thought she did. I told her I didn't think so, and asked her to explain why I'd given her a spanking and put the restraints on her. She said it was because she was a bad slave. I gave her sore ass a light smack. I asked her if she was stupid. She said she was not! I asked if she remembered her lesson, and the exact reasons she had been spanked and restrained. She apologized for acting stupid, then correctly said the reason for her punishment was to teach her to speak only when spoken to, and to do exactly what I tell her to do, without questioning or hesitation, until I tell her to stop. She was looking me in the eye, without my telling her to. I slapped her face, first with my left hand, then harder with my right. She looked down. She apologized again.

I had her roll over onto her back and pull her legs back to her shoulders. I put my cock against her ass and pushed it into her. She bit her lip. I told her to look at me. She looked at me, her face full of joy and admiration. I put the head of my cock into her ass, then another inch, then another...finally I was all the way in. My face was right above hers. I licked her left cheek. I kissed her lips, then bit her upper lip lightly. I increased my steady fucking rhythm. I knew I was just about to cum. I asked if she wanted me to cum in her ass and she said "YES, MASTER!"

Then I asked, "What if I want you to swallow?" She said she'd swallow! I asked her, "What if I want to fuck another woman, another man's wife?" I could tell she didn't like the idea AT ALL, but she said yes - I deserved any woman I wanted!

I said "Good Girl". I was suddenly right on the edge of cumming and I didn't feel like holding back. It had been about 48 hours since I'd last cum, and I spurted and spurted and spurted. It felt amazing! On a pleasure scale of 1-10, this was at least an 8. I asked her if she could feel it, and she said she could. I told her to touch herself and she did. I stayed in her a long time, more than a minute, then I rolled onto my back and put my face right next to hers.

She was smiling. Me, too!

Size matters - I wish I didn't mind

Yes - it's yet another post on penis size!

After years of obsessing over the size of my cock, and feeling it was too small to really excite and please my wife, I thought I'd finally gotten over it, and accepted that my cock is a good size, and that it does please her a lot. And why shouldn't I accept that? My wife has always said positive things about my cock, and so have all the women I was with before her. By even the most conservative measurement, it's above every "average" size I've seen.

But...

My wife barely reacts anymore when I put my cock in her. She barely responds when I'm fucking her, except when I pound her as hard as I possibly can. She's never had a strong orgasm with my cock inside her. I slip out of her in some positions. When I showed her larger dildos, she reacted with obvious excitement and arousal to some of them, specifically, the Cyberskin Dream Dick, the Vixskin Johnny, and most recently the Noches Latinas 8" Realistic Cock.

Noches Latinas 6" (top) and 8" Realistic Cocks

The picture above shows the difference between a cock my size and the size that turns my wife on. She's not excited at all by the Noches Latinas 6", which is almost exactly the same "insertable length" and thickness as my cock - but just holding the Noches Latinas 8" (1.25 inches longer, and almost 1 inch farther around) in her hand puts a silly grin on her face and makes her pussy "salivate". Vixskin Johnny and the Dream Dick have a similar effect on her.

But so what, right? She likes having sex with me, and wants to have sex only with me, she lets me do whatever I want, and I make her cum hard with my fingers and tongue on a regular basis. She says I'm the only person who's ever made her cum - besides herself, of course - and she even says I make her cum much harder than she's ever made herself cum. Writing this, I again at least want to believe that I've got it made, that I'm giving her all the pleasure she deserves, or at least as much as is humanly possible. What else could I possibly want?

Well, I'd like to make her cum hard with my cock inside her! That would make me feel like a real stud bull, which is how I'd like to see myself.

I had started feeling like a major stud bull a few weeks back, after starting a very exciting email conversation with a cuckold couple. Both the small-dicked "cuck" husband and the very attractive Hot Wife seemed impressed by me, and were as excited as I was about me fucking her with my big cock until I came deep inside. Although I doubted we'd ever actually get together, it was a fun fantasy to imagine fucking her with his blessing, giving her amazing pleasure with my big cock, and enjoying tremendous pleasure myself, both physical pleasure and also the dominant thrill of being recognized as sexually superior.

I traded emails with both of them, and the conversation with the Hot Wife got more and more steamy!

I had many, many satisfying orgasms thinking about this!

And then, a couple of weeks ago, I sent her a couple of pictures of myself, one of my body in casual clothes, and another of my erect cock. And then - the conversation basically died. I kept writing for a while, until it became clear from her short replies, and then her total lack of reply, that she just wasn't into me anymore. Sadness. I'm still not sure whether she was turned off by my body, or my cock, or both - or whether she simply met another prospective bull she liked better. Or something else.

Whatever, I channeled my frustration into greater sexual intensity with my wife. I suddenly wanted her more, maybe because she was again the only one in the picture. The sex was better than ever, and I felt pretty good about myself (and my cock) again.

And then I saw this: What is the ideal Penis Size for Women? It's a 5 minute podcast from the excellent sex bloggers Carlin Ross and Betty Dodson, and in it they discuss how penis size relates to female orgasm. I've watched it three times so far. The first time through, the message I got out of it is that female orgasm requires clitoral stimulation, and can be made more intense by vaginal penetration, whether that's with a penis, a dildo, or even just a finger. When it comes to enhancing a clitoral orgasm with vaginal penetration, they both agree that size doesn't matter.

But the second time, I paid more attention to what they said about vaginal orgasm, which is when a woman cums only from being fucked, without having her clit stimulated. They both said that vaginal orgasms aren't any better than clitoral ones, and that if they had to choose, they'd both choose clitoral orgasms - but they also seemed pretty excited discussing vaginal orgasms!

The thing is, they agreed that for a woman to have a purely vaginal orgasm requires 20-30 minutes of "nice, slow, sensuous fucking" - with a thick 8 inch penis! They both said that while such cocks are rare, they've both experienced sex with a guy that big. When I watched the video for the third time, I noticed more how wistful they seemed remembering that experience. Their body language largely (no pun intended) contradicted what they said about it.

In the real world, at least according to the statistics I've seen, 8" cocks are extremely rare. Something like 1 in a thousand guys actually has a dick that big. Even adjusting for the fact that guys almost always exaggerate their size, and assuming that 8" really means 7", that's still somewhere between one guy in 20 and one guy in a hundred. And yet - anyone who watches porn knows that there are many guys that big out there. And that's what women (at least my wife) seem to really want, what seems to make them melt, makes them react the way average size guys like myself can only wish women reacted to our cocks.

Yes, I realize, as Betty Dodson and Carlin Ross explain in the video, that there's a lot more than penis size involved in pleasing a woman, and that it's pretty low on the list of what women look for in a man. I also realize that having a cock that big would be rather limiting, because a woman would be sore for days after being fucked by such a monster cock. I've got to imagine anal sex would be rare, if not out of the question. I'm sure most the penis would go unstimulated during oral - forget about being deepthroated!

But still, I do wish my cock made my wife swoon the way a truly big cock does. Hell, it makes me swoon a little when I see a cock that big in pics or videos, or when I imagine seeing one in the flesh. I think if I were with a guy whose cock was that big, I'd do whatever he said! Most of all, I wish I could make my wife cum just by fucking her for 20-30 minutes the way a truly well-hung man could do it. When I imagine being together with such a man and my wife, I think I'd want him to fuck her. Just the idea of him makes me feel so submissive, I think I'd encourage such a man to fuck her, and that I'd encourage her to let him fuck her (more likely, I think she'd feel drawn to him). It just seems right, like she would deserve the pleasure of being fucked by him, and that a MAN like that would deserve to have any woman he wanted, my wife included.

Anything, you want, Sir - anything!

I wish I could be such a man. Maybe I'm totally wrong, maybe I could be such a man. Maybe I am. I enjoy seeing myself as a Bull, and I feel GREAT after I cum fantasizing about being the bigger-dicked Bull for a great cuckold couple. But if it really does take a 7-8" cock to give a woman that experience, I'm never going to be a true Bull. Which would suck, because I don't feel nearly as good - about sex, about myself, about life in general - when I don't believe I can be the strong dominant, well-hung man I want to be. I'm still not sure it really takes a cock bigger than mine to be that guy, but I'm open to the possibility that it could be true. Right now, unfortunately, it feels true.

Well, anyway, I have to work with what I've got - which includes a nice above-average cock, talented fingers and tongue, a great imagination, an adventurous wife - and a cabinet full of toys. I'm going to keep encouraging her to try the Noches Latinas 8" cock until she tries it, and I hope after she tries it, she'll let me use it on her. I could even see myself getting this harness or something like it, so that I could fuck her with it.

What worries me about this is that she'll like it too much, that she'll decide to take me up on my standing offer of letting her try (gulp) the real thing. If she decides she wants it, I'll find her a guy with a truly big cock. I know the thought excites her. I worry that she won't be able to feel my average cock anymore after trying a big one. But I'm too curious to see how she'll react to a really big cock not to follow through, if it turns out that's where she wants to go.

What I want to give her...

I really want to please her completely, and I'll do whatever it takes, even if it leaves me out in the cold. (Sigh).