Big hands, I know you're the one

My wife asked me to dominate her tonight, to tie her up and fuck her in the ass. Yes, she was prompted, but she did ask - and I gave it to her oh so well.

I had her put on a sexy outfit, a wetlook piece with an open-cup bra and an open crotch. She looked AMAZING in it. I soon took it off of her and tied her up, naked, using leather wrist and ankle cuffs. I put a bondage belt on her waist and locked her wrist cuffs to that. I clipped her ankles together with a caribiner and tied a strap around her knees, making her highly immobile. I put a blindfold on her. I bent her over the bed with her ass sticking out. I spanked her a little. I got some lube. I lubed her ass and put my index finger in. She's getting more relaxed, so it was pretty easy. Then I put a smallish glass butt plug in, which took some patience (and multiple attempts). Once that felt good, I fucked her (in the pussy) with the plug up her ass. She didn't like that much! I asked her if she wanted me to keep fucking her "down there" or whether she wanted me to fuck her ass - she asked me to fuck her in the ass!

I started to put my cock up her ass, after making her beg me to do it. I had an unusually hard time getting my cock in her ass, probably because of the bondage. Finally, I had it all the way inside her. I asked her if she could feel it. Yes. What do you feel? Your cock... in my ass.

I was having a ridiculous amount of fun.

I couldn't help thinking back to hanging out with another couple, friends of ours, earlier today. We've known them for a long time, but today was the first time I noticed how BIG his hands are. We were drinking at a table made of planks and I was sitting beside him; I saw that if I rested the heel of my hand on the edge of the table, my longest finger extended to just short of where the first plank ended. I paid attention, and couldn't help noticing that when he put the heel of his hand on the edge of the table and extended his fingers, they reached MUCH farther than mine had done, almost an inch past where the first plank ended. I realized the span from the heel of his hand to the tip of his longest finger was as long as the distance from the tip of my thumb to the tip of my pinkie, if I spread my hand as wide as it will go. When I got home, I measured that: 8.25 inches. His fingers are also much thicker than mine.

His cock must be HUGE.

I'm figuring about 7.25 inches to about 7.75 inches - say 7.5 inches for fun. That's based on the length of my cock relative to the span of my hand from heel to longest finger tip. I'm not sure if that's universally true, but it's fun to think so. Similarly, my index, middle and ring fingers together are about as thick as my cock is. If that's true for him, his cock would be somewhere in the 1.75 - 2 inches thick range.

My best guess is that his cock is about the same size as Vixskin Johnny, MUCH bigger than mine.

I couldn't help looking at his hands, and I think he noticed. I felt funny, similar to how I felt before giving my first blowjob. I would LOVE to see his cock, and I think I'd find myself unable to resist giving it/him as much pleasure as he would allow me to give - and I'd hope he'd want A LOT.

So after that experience earlier today, I kept thinking about our friend's cock, and how nice he always is to my wife, and how he sent us a Christmas card, and how he went out of his way to show up at craft shows where my wife was selling things, and how he's bought some of her stuff, especially since he frequently mentions how tight money is for him. It drives me crazy to imagine them together! The worst part is how horny I get thinking about it!!

I kept thinking about these things after we went home. I was still thinking about it when my wife offered herself to me, and after I put my cock in her ass. I fucked her well, long and hard, enjoying her ass, especially when she squeezed her ass together, squeezing my dick in a most delightful way.

I told her I wished my cock was bigger. She grunted something that sounded like the way she says yes. i asked her if she wished my cock was bigger. She said yes! I asked her to say it; she said "I wish your cock was big!" She quickly corrected herself: "I mean I wish it was biggER!" She's always talked a good game about my having a big cock, but my 6.5" X 1.625" is just above average, at best. Lately, it has seemed downright small to me. And with my cock in her ass, I felt a flush of embarrassment and humiliation wash over me as I realized she does NOT think I have a big cock and she wishes I did! My cock suddenly felt very SMALL in her ass!

I immediately remembered back to a recent play session, when we were playing with Vixskin Johnny. I said I wished my cock was as big as Johnny. She said something reassuring. I started to say that if I met a guy with a dick that big, I'd be very turned on by his big cock, but it came out funny, something to the effect of "if any guy ever had a dick that big"... to which she gave a funny look and said what do you mean IF! Leading me to believe she's experienced a cock that big before. And now, with my cock in her ass, I started imagining her with our friend. And his 8" long, thick dick.

I imagined that we were all having sex together. I thought it was only right for the guy with the bigger dick to be in charge, and for the guy with the small dick to submit to and serve him. I imagined sucking his dick, and I imagined getting fucked by his dick. i remembered a couple of times earlier this year when I imagined (?) that I could smell/taste cum in my wife's pussy. Now, I imagined it was his cum, and that he was fucking my wife right in front of me. In my imagination, he was fucking her better than I ever could.

This all sounds so familiar... because it's similar to things I've been telling my sissy bitch slut. I feel like I'm digressing a lot in this post, but to digress once more, I've been dominating a guy online. I met him on a popular bdsm social site. I've been feeling more dominant lately, and feeling more satisfied about dominating my wife than I feel after she dominates me (although I do still enjoy both). After realizing this, I changed my profile on that site. I had listed myself as a switch previously, but now I'm listed as a dominant. After I made the change, I got lots of contacts. The slut's was the best one. he's a bit bratty, but he does get into my fantasies. He says he wants to suck my cock, he wants me to spank him, tie him up, torture his balls, keep him in chastity - and he wants me to seduce his wife and reduce him to our submissive cuckold slave.

The most that's going to happen in real life would be for me to beat the crap out of him, and for him to give me head to completion, and swallow, of course. But I don't want anything to happen that would make me feel like I was cheating on my wife. So I've been dominating him online. I tell him things to do and say (he always has to pee sitting down, among other things), and he is supposed to check in each day and tell me about his humiliating and submissive thoughts. I have asked him to imagine me fucking his wife better than he does.

And now, as I fucked my wife in the ass, already close to a submissively-focused orgasm from her telling me she wishes my dick was big, I got even hornier imagining myself submitting/being dominated by our friend and his big dick. I imagined he was fucking my ass in front of my wife and she was cheering him on, sharing jokes and high-fives with him as he pounded me. I felt a funny feeling in my ass, in my cock (which now seemed to be reacting like a clit!) and in my nipples (my tits?!), as I imagined our friend squeezing them from behind as he fucked me with his long, thick hard cock. I opened my mouth into a big O and hoped the blindfold I'd put on my wife kept her from seeing it!

At least I was fucking her well! I asked her if she liked the way I was fucking her, and she said yes, seeming genuine. I asked her who fucked better, her or me - and she immediately said I did! Again, she sounded 100% real. Yea! A littler earlier, I'd told her to ask me to cum in her ass. Now she said it without being prompted. So I made her tell me to take as long as liked, that her ass was mine. I had her squeeze my cock with her ass. I got close, now feeling dominant, and slowed down my pace as I danced on the edge of orgasm. Finally, with my cock balls-deep in her ass, and with her squeezing my cock with her ass, I came. It was a powerful orgasm and seemed pretty large, especially considering I also came this morning around 8, which was about 12 hours before this. She said she could feel me cumming in her ass, which made me feel great. I was pleased that all I was thinking about at the moment I came was my dominant cock (which felt plenty big) and her submissive ass.

She said she enjoyed the session and I'd finally reached the point of all pleasure and no pain with fucking her ass. Cool. The small glass plug worked really well. I'm looking forward to dominating her again, and, to a lesser extent, to being dominated by her. That's what's coming next, unless we do some game. That's how she likes for us to decide who dominates whom. She also likes it when I just give myself to her to dominate.

I think I prefer just offering myself to her, and her offering herself to me. I need to be careful with these fantasies! We've made it clear we don't want other people involved. I just hope she hasn't cheated on me. She's really good at hiding things, and I certainly feel it's not out of the question. What I really hate about it is how much the fantasy turns me on! Especially the idea of being dominated by a big-dicked, confident, dominant guy who's fucking my wife. I don't even like to type the words I just typed, but doing so made me very horny. Part of me wants to blurt out questions like "Would you like to be with a guy with a big cock?" and to show her what a big cock would feel like by using a larger dildo like Johnny on her. But I think that's just asking for trouble.

I'm VERY glad that she likes giving me blowjobs, likes making me cum in her mouth, likes for me to fuck her, vaginally and sometimes anally, and that she likes both being dominated by me as well as dominating me. I've had almost all of the best orgasms of my life with her and I hope that's true for her with me, too.

We've been having so much good sex lately, it's hard to even remember exactly what we've been doing. This morning, she tied my balls tightly with an elastic hair tie, sat on my face, rubbing her clit on my tongue with my nose up her ass, and stroked my cock inside my Slipinside masturbation sleeve. She talked some smack to me, saying that I'm her bitch no matter what else I say, and said she was going to wear boots and kick me. She offered to fuck me in our (then) upcoming play session! I told her I was looking forward to fucking her instead! I came staring at her ass and thinking about fucking it.

The night before, I'd licked her to several orgasms after giving her one orgasm with a vibrator on her g-spot (or at least in the vicinity). She didn't cum very hard when I used my hands and mouth, no pulsing or spasms in her vagina. Does she fake orgasms? It's hard to tell and pretty much pointless. She says she's sexually satisfied and I believe her. She says my cock is the biggest she's seen and the biggest she's been fucked with. And I want to believe her!

Day before yesterday morning, she gave me a blowjob while I fucked her ass with my index finger. She wanted to sit on my face, but I stopped her and just let her keep sucking with a finger in her ass until I had a huge orgasm in her mouth. She ran off to the bathroom and spat. Oh well. We talked about the joy of swallowing again tonight and she says she's going to do it. Life is good!

If I remember correctly, I kissed her ass and fucked her feet to orgasm the night before that. I think I masturbated before that. It all gets pretty fuzzy before that, which is part of why I'm writing it all down. I'm looking forward to what comes next - and I just hope I can keep myself from convincing my wife that what she needs is a bigger cock!

Because what we need is each other, just the way we are. Sweet, isn't it? Which is not to say I wouldn't like to see our friend's COCK. Because I would.

I got fucked!

Last night at 9 PM, my Wife beat me up a little and then fucked me in the ass until I came. It might have taken 15 minutes at the most, once She had Her Cock in me. It was an earth-shattering orgasm. She wore Vixskin Johnny in the SpareParts Joque harness. i fucked a well-lubricated "bitch tube". i pushed back against Her and She fucked me pretty well. She had a hard time getting Her Cock all the way in me because her tummy was a bit bloated! She farted A LOT and has been farting all day today! She's been eating bread, which always makes Her gassy.

Yesterday started with hopes that I'd end up dominating her tonight (which was tomorrow night then, just so you're sure to be confused). I told her I had a proposition for her: she could dominate me in the evening, but only if she took the initiative. I wasn't going to remind her. If she didn't dominate me in the evening, I could dominate her the next night. Then I kissed her ass with my balls tied and my dick between her feet. It took me about 10 minutes. She extended her leg for me to remove the cum I deposited on her ankle (a LOT!). I started to lick it off, but grabbed a tissue instead.

The day went on and neither of us mentioned anything about sex. By 8 PM, she was tired and I expected she was going to forget about dominating me. I suggested we watch something on Netflix... and she said she'd prefer to beat me up! She told me to go upstairs, put on my chastity device, cuff myself to the bed and wait for Her. She said She'd probably be awhile.

Excited, as well as a little humiliated and scared, I went upstairs, got naked, got out the necessary toys, gave myself a quick but thorough anal douche, lubed myself up, got my CB6000, lubed it, slipped it on my half-erect cock (cold water does wonders), locked the padlock on my chastity device (gulp), put the key on the bedside table, along with a handcuff key, and climbed on my back in the center of the bed. Using the restraints I've attached at the corners of the bed, I secured and locked my right ankle, then my left ankle, then my right wrist, and finally my left wrist. The left wrist was tricky; it's not easy to get it to click locked, but finally I got it to click the right number of times (5). I snuggled under the covers I'd placed on top of me and waited. It had taken me about 20 minutes to get into this position.

About 30 minutes later, She came in the room and turned on the light. She laughed at my chastity device. I think She was disappointed that it doesn't actually HURT. But She had fun with it. (I wonder if She'll suggest it again?)

She put on the cupless wetloock bra and wetlook skirt she wore the last time I dominated her. It look really Hot on Her now.

Immediately, She noticed the whip, crop and slapper I had placed on Her side of the bed. She also realized right away the vulnerability of my balls and began slapping them with the (wide-tipped) crop. It hurt just right!

She pinched my nipples a little and then took her time undoing my cuffs. She put a Tit in my mouth and let me suck on It for a minute or so, then let me suck the other One. I made sure to get my nose as far into Her Armpits. She farted loudly with Her Ass right next to my head. I couldn't feel it or smell it, but I enjoyed Her laughter! I gave Her a brief oil massage, massaging Her Back, then kissing and massaging Her Feet, then kissing, licking, and massaging Her Ass. She made me stop licking Her Ass because I was neglecting the massage!

She let me take the chastity device off! I thanked her profusely! 

Then She had me put Johnny in the Joque and put it on her. She stood up and stroked Her Cock, then shook It around a little, enjoying the power of it. First She tried to fuck me with it with me on my back, but She found it a very uncomfortable position - like a sumo wrestler, She said. She suggested putting another mattress on top, a brilliant solution!

So instead of Her jerking me off while She fucked me in missionary, She had me fuck the bitch tube while She fucked me in doggy. It was a little awkward and it took Her a long time to get Her Cock all the way in my ass. Finally She did, and then we found a rhythm, and it didn't take too long for me to cum after that. She stayed in my for awhile, then pulled out. I took the Joque off of her and took that, the bitch tube and the CB6000 to the bathroom to wash.

I washed them and put them away in a couple of minutes, then we said sweet things and kissed each other good night. I turned off the light and went downstairs for a couple of hours (too wired to sleep!) before going back to join her in slumber.

She farted right after I got into bed with her! It stank! I stuck my head under the cover and "filtered" it for several minutes, until I couldn't smell it anymore! I hoped she was going to fart again, so I kept my head down there, but she didn't fart again, and when she woke, she walked right out of the bedroom and didn't come back. I waited, then fell back to sleep.

Later in the day, around noon, we went back upstairs and she gave me a "sore balls" blowjob! She tied my balls tightly with an elastic hair tie (which I handed her as she started to suck me), then, after briefly sucking my cock in a nice way, she sat back, putting her asshole in front of my nose and my tongue on her clit. Sitting up and bouncing down, she rocked back and forth, while jerking my cock around roughly! That bounced my balls off my thighs. They're sore now! She leaned forward to suck again, then sat back to ride my face and rough up my cock again. I thought about the Barefoot Princess video, "you kiss My Ass; I fuck yours!" and enjoyed the smell of her ass. I imagined eating some other guy's cum out of her in this position. I remembered fucking her in the ass, and her fucking me in the ass... I put my own hand on my cock and pretty soon, I came in her mouth. It was a great orgasm. She squeezed my balls, and squeezed the head of my cock with her mouth. I squeezed my shaft. I came and came and came. She seemed to hesitate (was she going to swallow, finally?!), but after 30 seconds or so, she went to the bathroom, spat out my sperm and then brushed her teeth. At least she wasn't noisy about it this time.

Not sure what's next. I'll give her a bath tonight, as I agreed to do yesterday, right before she fucked me. I asked her when I would dominate her next, but she didn't answer.

Probably we'll end up playing poker, then either of us could end up fucked.

Either way, life is good!

Why I'm Thankful - A week of Bliss

In the language of my porn collection, this morning's sex included [Cocksucking, Facesitting, Forced Licking, Smothering, CBT, Face Fart, Laughing Humiliation, Immediate Big Mouth Facial, Spit].

It would be SO much better to replace Spit with Swallow, but she doesn't want to swallow my cum.

Swallowing cum increases the odds that the woman who swallows will get  pregnant with that guy. And that IS kind of how I think of it when I watch porn: that the woman swallowing REALLY wants that man's DNA, wants to make offspring with it.

When I see a woman spit in porn, I enjoy the cruel scorn of it. He doesn't exceed expectations quite enough. (Phhhh... I spit you out of My mouth). Sometimes I enjoy the cruel scorn feeling of it in my life with my wife. It feels like she's rejecting me that way, especially when she spits loudly, which is pretty much always.

Fortunately, there isn't too much scorn in our life, outside of her spitting instead of swallowing, which is sort of trivial. But when I've been Swallowed before, it hasn't felt trivial, it's felt profound.

Anyway, I should focus instead on the Facesitting, Forced Licking, Smothering, CBT, Face Fart (which was HUGE), Immediate Big Mouth Facial (right into the front of her mouth, which should have been a copious and thick mouthful, it having been 23 hours since my last orgasm), and Laughing Humiliation elements.

She farted right into my face and nose for 3-6 seconds. I could feel about half of it on my face. Less than a second after She finished farting, I started cumming. And immediately She started laughing! She kept nurturing my cock until I (mostly) finished cumming, allowing me to keep licking her for a few more seconds before running off to noisily spit, and then brush her teeth, and then dress and leave for work. Well, I guess she wouldn't want to kiss me after that, would she? Hehe.

We woke up late. She was at risk of being late for work. She didn't want me to make her cum. She wasn't eager to make me cum, either. But I knew it wouldn't take long for me, and I persisted. I kept my voice low and rumbly, and I kept saying profound things like "C'monnnn" as I gently nudged her head in the direction of my cock until she submitted.

She massaged my dick and then moved down to start sucking it, with her head facing my feet and her ass just to the left of my chest, within easy reach. But before I could start massaging her ass and trying to put my finger(s) up her ass, she scooched over and swung her right leg over my body so she was straddling me. After a little sucking, she sat back on my face, stroking my cock with her hands as she ran her hard clit over my tongue. She started sucking again, and playing with my balls. She gathered them up firmly in her left hand. I reached over to the bedside table for her elastic hair tie. She tied my balls extra tight!

She sat back on my face again, rougher this time, rubbing that now bigger, harder clit on my tongue, putting more of her weight down on me. She jerked my cock around a little roughly, which caused my bound balls to bang again my tense thighs (my balls are still a little sore!). She noticed my positive "hurts so good" reaction to what she was doing to my balls, and asked if I liked that. I "admitted" that I did.

Then came the unannounced and unexpected FART! I was already just about to cum and that sent me right over. My body still feels good from the echoes/memory of that orgasm. She kept holding my cock as I've taught her, until long after I stopped squirting and pulsing.

What a great way to start the day! Tonight, I hope to make her cum. I think that depends on my getting the housework done. Sweeping, mopping, vacuuming. I guess I'd better get to that, shouldn't I?

Yesterday morning's sex was kind of awesome, too, although kind of awful at the same time. I kissed her ass (she'd sucked me off the day before, after I'd made her cum), and after covering both of her cheeks with puckered lip kisses, then giving some french kisses to her inner cheeks, and then thoroughly "cleaning" everywhere in her crack, I started tongue-fucking her asshole. She started fucking back, her ass onto my tongue, my tongue forced in deeper. She held my cock and balls firmly between her feet, letting me fuck her feet as she assfucked my face. My hands were on her ass, but just caressing and squeezing, not doing anything to try to control the rhythm of the anilingus. Sensing this was going to take a long time (again, she and I both had to get to work), I reached down to grab my cock. As she often does when I do that, she rolled over on top of me and started pounding my face into the mattress with her ass! I actually thought she might damage my eyes, or break my nose! I turned my head to the side and she slammed her ass down on my head in a sex motion. Psychologically, I was enjoying the extremeness of it, but physically, I was NOT enjoying it! For (I think) the first time ever - with any partner - I faked an orgasm. I'm not proud of that, but we both had to get to work and I didn't want to get hurt! I said, "Oh... oh God!" and reached out for her left leg. She put her feet on my balls. I convulsed my hips a few times, waited a few seconds, and then grabbed a tissue from the bedside, wiping it on my chest and stomach. We cuddled a couple of minutes. She got dressed and left. I was working from home, so I went downstairs, drank a hot cup and started making calls. I was still horny and my hands, arms (and I presume my face) still smelled of Her Ass. After about an hour, I watched some porn and came. I produced a pretty good-sized load, especially considering I'd cum about 12 hours before. [Ass Licking, Foot Fucking, Face Bouncing]

Four nights ago, (i.e, the night before she gave me the facial ass-pounding), I fucked her in the ass. With my big, hard cock, in case there was any doubt! We played poker, and I won. Earlier in the day, I'd told her I'd beat her at poker and then make her beg me to fuck her in the ass. I actually started by asking her to let me fuck her in the ass, but she insisted on poker. The poker could have gone either way. If she'd won, I'd have given her a massage, then she'd have beaten me a little and then I'd have made her cum. And then MAYBE she'd have fucked me with a strapon, but probably she would have just made me make myself cum. But I won, so I had her put on some slutty clothes and then I had her get down on her knees and suck my dick for a fairly long time. I slapped her ass a few times with a riding crop.I had her bend over the edge of the bed. I lubed up her ass, and probed it with one, then two, fingers, then I scissored my fingers in her ass and then I slowly put my cock in her ass. There were a couple of false starts, but she took it well in the end (no pun intended!). I assfucked her a long time, in multiple positions, mainly missionary anal and doggy anal. I made her fuck back against my cock in standing anal doggy. I reached around and rubbed her clit some, but that wasn't something I could do and also end up cumming myself. Sadly, it's an awkward reach, but I'm working on it. I came in anal doggy, with her squeezing my dick with her pelvic floor muscles. It was an outstanding orgasm. She said she could feel me cumming, which was awesome. I offered to make her cum, but she said she wanted to sleep. So we slept. [Deepthroat, Anal, Anal Creampie]

It's been a ridiculously good week, sexually. I keep touching myself. I've looked at some porn today. I want to cum, but I'm saving it. I'm looking forward to tonight. It's hard to imagine anything better than what's already happened, but it's also hard to imagine anything happening that won't be great.

Chanel Preston, and other delights

We'll, I'm back to considering giving blowjobs to some lucky guy(s). Sex with my wife is good, but she hasn't wanted to fuck me or make me suck it lately. I dunno, I probably won't actually go for it.

On the one hand, I know the idea of my being sexually submissive to another guy turns my wife on, but on the other hand, she draws a hard line at being with anyone but me - which I'm all in favor of! It's a fun fantasy to imagine her making me suck a guy's dick, or to bend over for a guy, and even more fun to imagine the guy I'm sucking and/or being fucked by is her boyfriend, also a submissive guy - but not quite as submissive as me. He's taller, more muscular - and of course, has a bigger dick than me. He dominates me. She dominates both of us. When he wants sex and my wife isn't available, he gets whatever he wants, whenever he wants, from me. That is a hot FANTASY. I'm pretty sure it wouldn't work in real life!

I was feeling ridiculously submissive when we were traveling recently, and I told her I had bought a chastity device. She says she wants to see it on me, and that scares me! And excites me, too, of course. I like the idea of it being on me from the beginning of a session until...I don't know, maybe until I make her cum and she's good and ready to make me cum in a humiliating way. But she hasn't brought it up again and neither have I. She does have me tie my balls and that's awesome.

While we were traveling, she make me suck the Vixskin Bandit (I asked her to make me suck it and she gleefully obliged). A couple of nights later, I was dominating her and I made her suck it while I was fucking her in the ass. She enjoyed those parts of the session. She did NOT enjoy having a large bullet in her pussy. In fact, she hated it.

She hated having a bullet in her pussy so much that she bit into Bandit! And damaged it pretty badly. I didn't throw it away, but I did get another one! The teeth marks just KILL it for me for oral. It's still OK for anal. I went to a hardware store and got an expanding bolt, like you'd use in a hollow wall, and I rigged it up so I can mount it on a dresser I have (I remove one drawer knob and mount it there). It's pretty awesome that way! I only wish I had a better way to have it mounted, so I could also fuck the bitch tube while I fuck Bandit. And while I'm wishing, I'd like to have another cock mounted in front to suck on while I slide back and forth on Bandit and in my bitch tube!

She also took a bite out of Johnny, but it's not nearly as bad. His bite marks faded. I actually did get another Johnny, too, though, and I sort of feel like I wasted the money.  Well, today's Johnny is more skin-like than the one from 2011 (or was that 2010??). I'm not sure if they're making them more skin-like, or whether Vixskin gets less skin-like over time. But anyway, it's pretty good now, especially Bandit.

Been watching a lot of porn lately. My newest interest is Chanel Preston. She's a great newish porn star. Deepthroats. LOVES anal. Swallows fairly often. Puts a lot into every scene. She's very attractive. IAFD says she has a 28 inch waist and 30 inch hips. Not possible. I would say closer to 38 or 39 inch hips. Fake tits, but not horrible. A very hot woman and a great porn star. How did I miss her for so long?

 I've finally decided what I want if I do end up hooking up with another guy. I want to get, and possibly give a blowjob. I'd like to dominate a guy. Or a number of guys. Tie them up. Beat them. Whips, canes, crops, paddles. Beat their balls. Put them in chastity. Make them fuck themselves with dildos. Make them suck me off. Encourage them to give me tribute!

Anyway. I'm all over the place. But things are awesome.

New Toys and Joys

Mostly out of boredom, I've bought some new toys. Actually the most fun I've had lately (toy-wise) has come from a freebie (with purchase), a stretchy cock ring, which I use to instantly "tie my balls". This is one of my wife's (aka my goddess's) favorite ways to dominate me. For the past couple of years, she always tells me to tie my balls. She seems to enjoy tying them herself, now that I've discovered faster methods.

In the beginning was parachute cord, a 12" length of it with a stainless steel ring attached to the middle of with a butterfly knot. I can wrap it tightly around my balls twice and then secure it with a square knot. Takes me about 10-15 seconds. Sometimes it comes untied, but that hasn't been a problem.

Then I tried longer lengths of para cord, up to about a meter now. More wraps. No ring. Takes longer. Looks cooler. Can't recall if we used that during play. I have practiced with it a bunch.

Then I discovered elastic straps. I have one that came with some golf gear, two actually. About an inch wide, about 8 inches around. Pretty thin and very stretchy. Doesn't look very neat, but three wraps and my balls are tied fairly tightly. A fourth wrap and it's insanely tight. It's quick and either one of us can do it.

Then I tried one of my wife's elastic Scunci hair ties. It's about 10 inches around, about 3/8 inch wide and thicker than the golf thing. It's just as easy and quick to tie (takes about 30 seconds). Same thing with tightness - two wraps is reasonably tight, another wrap and it's painful (but kinda awesome because of that). This is what we've done the last couple of times. My wife has tied them and it's been fun!

But I think I've found something better. I got a stretchy blue cock ring as a "gift with purchase" with my most recent order from SheVibe. They've become my go-to sex toy store, along with Amazon and eBay. They're very fast and dependable. AND their prices are good.

I bought the PleasureWorks Maven dildo in caramel. I had already bought it in chocolate. Then I bought the Admiral in caramel. Then I really wanted the Maven in caramel...

How this came to be... My wife was jerking me off a few weeks back and I asked her to tell me what to think about when I came. She told me to think about her ass, kissing it and having her bounce on my face. Ridiculously, this didn't make me cum right away. Then she told me to think about her fucking me. I asked if she'd like to see me get fucked by a guy. She thought about it and said yes. I asked her to tell me about the guy who would fuck me. To my great surprise, she said a black guy, a big, strong black guy with a huge cock. Thinking about that made me cum in a hurry.

Later, we were in the other bed (the bed in the master bedroom is bad for my wife's back; the bed in the guest room is bad for mine - we switch beds every few days) and again she's masturbating me and I ask her about the fantasy of me getting fucked by a black man. Why a black man, I asked? Because they're strong and have big cocks, she said. Would she do anything with him? She would beat him and me, she said, and then she'd have him leave. I was relieved and disappointed at the same time!

Somewhere in there, I was searching on the internet for the newest dildos (every few weeks, I check to see what's new), and I found some new (to me anyway) dildos from Pleasureworks, including the Maven (silicone, 7 3/4 inches insertable, 1 5/8 inches thick), the Admiral (7 1/2 X 1 /12 inches, also silicone) and a couple of others. I decided to try the Maven, and since I was thinking about big black guys, I got it in chocolate.

Since shipping is free over $75 from SheVibe, and since the Maven was about $60, I looked for a long time and decided to get a really sleazy maid outfit with open cup bra and a tiny mini-dress (and, I think, a thong, which I'd just as soon omit).

So a couple of days later I got it in the mail. I found the Maven is pretty awesome. It's MUCH more flexible than the Captain, another PleasureWorks dildo I got a couple of years back, which I've never used much because it's so hard and inflexible that it's painful. The Captain is 1.9" in diameter, but feels a lot bigger than that because of the hardness. It's really cool looking and I'm pretty sure my wife would want to fuck me with Captain if I ever am brave/masochistic enough to ask her. I don't enjoy it nearly as much as Vixskin Johnny solo. No anal orgasms. It is a submissive turn-on to be abused by such a big, mean cock (even if I'm doing the abusing to myself). It takes a lot of warm-up to be ready for Captain, too, making it impractical on top of it's painfulness.

But Maven is a lot less firm than the Captain, and that makes it much more enjoyable. I don't think I like it better than Vixskin Johnny, but it's a nice change. Maven doesn't have as much realism in the shaft. The head is really good, though, with a softish texture and a very realistic look. I actually like to suck on Maven, though it's a challenge to take it all the way. It doesn't take any more warm-up than Johnny does: just two well-lubricated fingers. One finger, two fingers, scissor and then my ass is ready for you. If you're wearing Johnny or Maven.

I thought my wife might want to fuck me with a black cock when I ordered Maven, but now I don't think so. Maybe she'll want to see me suck it. Or maybe she will want to fuck me with it. Who knows.

I decided to get the Admiral next, because I thought the size might be easier to deepthroat. Only trouble is, I found, Admiral is really firm, almost as stiff and painful as Captain. The big bulbous head feels pretty good in my ass, but it just Hurts in my throat. I got it in caramel. I kept it in my wife's Joque harness for a couple of weeks, but the stars haven't lined up for us to play. Hopefully soon.

Along with the Admiral, I got some Sliquid Organics gel and some bath "tea". And there were some freebies in with it, which annoyed me. Mostly lubricants with a bunch of chemicals. I pitched pretty much everything in the freebie bag.

About a week later, I decided to get the Maven in caramel. I searched for an upgraded remote controlled toy and settled on the BSwish BNaughty Classic Unleashed bullet vibe. The Maven was just as awesome in caramel, and pretty much identical in every other way to the chocolate one. The BNaughty is pretty awesome, too. I like that it uses easy to find aaa batteries. It's powerful, and the remote works at a pretty good distance. The only thing I don't like about it is that the remote lights up, which will waste battery life. Also, when I pulled the batteries out of the remote, the bullet stopped, which makes me think the bullet relies on a constant signal from the remote. Seems like this will use a lot of batteries, but we'll see.

The last time my wife and I played poker, she won. I hated it because I'd had a big lead and then I bet recklessly, and she got improbably good cards, and I lost. She didn't have a lot of energy, so she just had me give her a massage, then she had me tie my balls and she beat me before letting me cum. I don't even remember if I "sucked her dick" or kissed her ass. I do remember that I fucked my "bitch tube" (which is currently a semi-realistic pink translucent TPR sleeve I got as a freebie with an eBay order). Somewhere in there, she had me get the remote bullet and shove it up my ass. She laughed her ass off! I think it was the expression on my face, and being about to control what happened to my ass with the push of a button. But the unit we had was pretty cheap and flimsy and the remote only works when it's practically touching the bullet. And it takes some really unusual batteries which are expensive and aren't easy to find. Still it was fun!

I figure an upgrade will be even better. Along with that order, I got some more freebies. This annoyed me and I was about to pitch the lot, but I looked through them more carefully and decided to hang onto the condom, the "toy cover" (seems to be another condom), some drops that are supposed to make a pussy tingle - and a 3/4 inch (inner) diameter stretchy cock ring. Instant balls tied. Takes maybe 5 seconds, and is fairly tight, about the same as the elastic straps. Obviously looks neater. I like it so much I decided to get a couple more. I'd like it a little tighter, so I got a small and medium (I think the one I have is a large). They're supposed to come in the mail tomorrow (I just ordered them today!).

I also ordered the Vixskin Bandit, which is the only Vixskin dildo I'm really curious about (well, there IS Raquel). It's supposed to come day after tomorrow. Yay.

As you may be able to tell, I'm a wee bit jaded lately. I think part of it is I've been getting into better shape lately. That's meant a higher sex drive. For me. Not for my wife, although she has been a good sport. But her lack of enthusiasm has left me less enthusiastic (if just as orgasmic).

I've bought other outfits for her, in addition to the maid costume. I got a dominatrix one-piece, cupless and crotchless in a wet-look fake leather fabric. It's pretty hot! Even hotter, I got her a wetlook skirt and a cupless studded wetlook bra (actually part of a different set with matching studded wetlook crotchless bottoms, but I think it's MUCH sexier with the skirt).

And I got her a pair of patent leather 5" chunky knee-high boots. And I got her some leopard print tights. I bought FOUR different ones and returned the first three. They were man-made materials and stank to high heaven of chemicals. The fourth one is cotton (and a little spandex) and just smells like cotton.

She hasn't tried on ANY of this stuff. She has no energy for kinky sex games. I hope this is because of her work, which has been pretty awful lately, and not because of me. Because I've been pretty awesome lately! Anyway, I guess we'll see. I really need to stop with the toy buying. Still, i can't wait to see her in those clothes. And to try out the only other toy I've gotten, a wide-tip crop...

:-)

What we've been doing is still pretty great. I've been getting a blowjob from her every few days (couple times a week), and another couple of times I cum kissing her ass with my dick between her feet. And usually with my balls tied! Yesterday (Sunday), I made her cum with my tongue and hands. She was distracted and I was less enthusiastic than usual, so it took longer than usual (and it usually takes a while anyway). I wanted to fuck her ass, but I settled for finger-fucking it while she sucked me off. I came in her mouth. She ran off and spat it out. Oh well....

Back to the Garden?

At this point, getting back to the Garden seems unlikely. This will be my one and only post about EdenFantasys, which went from being one of my online sex toy shops, to being my ONE online sex toy shop, to being... I don't know exactly what Eden is to me now. Maybe an old friend who took the wrong track? When I'm there in the forums, I feel paranoid and uneasy.

If I ask them to, they'll look over my points history and if I haven't done anything wrong, they'll let me keep my points. All of them. If I don't do this, I THINK I lose them (but I'm really not clear on this). But if I ask them to look over my points and they decide I did something wrong, I lose all of my points. If I complain about that, they release personal information about me. Yeepers.

I really couldn't care less about the points. We have every sex toy we want, and then some. I should really sell some stuff. I have a lot of stuff to sell. Sterilizable stuff. High dollar, much of it. And more money would be good right now. So I really don't care that I "lost" 66 bucks (or whatever). Because they gave it to me, and tens of thousands of points (hundreds of dollars) before that, which I spent.

I've had fun there, I've learned there. Not just about sex toys and sex, but also about writing, about editing, about schmoozing my way up a hierarchy... I've gotten a good deal. if I don't get another penny / point from them, I'll feel like I got a good deal. I hope they feel the same. I tried to give them a good effort. I did do some things "assembly line" fashion, which to them apparently looks like point farming. It wasn't my intention simply to get points, but to do what Eden wanted me to do to get the points.

I assumed from the beginning that the points program was well thought-out, that the values and limits for points had been carefully crafted, that they wanted me to do X number of this action, and Y number of that action, so that the site would continually improve, and the company's bottom line would get better and better. Looks like that assumption was wrong. I don't think they really knew what effects their incentives were having, and it seems like they didn't track it very well.

The reason I say this is that the program stayed the same for a long time, and then changed — suddenly, without warning, drastically — and then changed twice more, once becoming surprisingly generous and then becoming relatively miserly. Ideally, if you have to make changes, you want to make them in small steps, as openly as possible. That maintains and builds loyalty, and makes the contributors feel like partners. I felt that way about Eden for a few months. But when you make sudden, unexpected, drastic changes, you create fear in your contributors. People go to great lengths to avoid fear, because of fear's unpleasantness. Fear damages health. If an environment makes me fearful, I'm going to avoid it.

I don't want to risk my personal information. The threat creates the fear. And I go away. I may come back. I'm waiting to see what happens tomorrow. If they take away my points and my "gift card", I'll be OK with that. If they leave them and they're still worth 15% an order, I'll be OK with that. If they delete my account, it's their loss. I'll be a little sad, but I'll be OK with that, too. IF they don't delete my account, AND IF they create and maintain an environment that's enjoyable to be in, THEN I'll be an active member again.

I like being a contributor. I liked reading and commenting in the forum, I liked shopping, I liked writing reviews — and I LOVED being an editor. I would like to do those things again.

I think the smartest thing to do would be to outsource everything to the contributors. Well, almost everything. Someone has to have ultimate authority. That someone should be an employee or owner. But almost every function that was being done by an employee could be done by a volunteer. Crowd sourcing. But there's an old saying about getting monkeys if you're offering peanuts: in other words, you get what you pay for.

Like I say, I feel the company has been generous with me. I hope they feel I have been generous with them. If not, so be it. If so, I look forward to contributing in future, to commenting, to shopping, to writing and to editing. Perhaps even to mentoring. Only time will tell...

Change of heart, heart(-on) of steel

Well... I've decided I don't want anyone but my goddess. I did put out some feelers on a couple of websites... even got as far as arranging a meeting with a young guy who was eager for me to suck his dick... but I just couldn't do it. It just seemed too much like cheating.

I told my goddess and she seemed relieved. She pegged me that night and has pegged me about once a week since then. She's become a bit more assertive and dominant, forcing my head down on her strap-on "cock" (usually Vixskin Johnny) until I gag, rudely shoving me down on the bed before roughly penetrating my ass, calling me "bitch" a lot--in other words, all the things I love! :-)

And we've been hooking up at least one other time a week, usually on a weekend morning when we've got all the time in the world. I give her head until she's cum as much as she wants, then we have PIV sex in a few different positions, and then she finishes me off with her ass in my face and my cock in her mouth. That's how we started our Sunday! Needless to say, it was a pretty good day.

I've also been more regular in my workout habits, which has resulted in my being horny all the fucking time. And she's been right there with me at the gym, so she's been hornier, too. We haven't had such good sex since before we were married.

In short, life is good! I hope to start updating this blog more frequently. I've been posting reviews at Eden Fantasys, which has sharpened my writing skills a bit, and I find myself with more and more ideas as I spend more time with the Eden Community.

And with my the center of my life, my goddess. My one, my only, my everything.