Buck, and other things

So Buck came in the mail today! He was beautiful right out of the box. Maybe my favorite part of my first impression was that he looks a lot like my own cock. He doesn't even look bigger at first glance. But I realized quickly that he was very thick at the base - 6.375! - and overall I measured an average girth of 5.813 and a delicious head of 5.75", bigger than Johnny or the Dream Dick. 6.5 inches long, as advertised.

I put my mouth on it about 30 seconds after opening the package! It's the most lifelike Vixskin I've seen yet. Darker skin tone than the Caramel Johnny. Great veins, a shape that it seems like MUST have been from a man's real cock. I had to open wide to get the head in, but going down the shaft, it didn't seem that big (although I could feel the head the whole time - what a great blowjob I could give this guy!!). And then I got close to the bottom, and that big head went into my throat and I started to gag and had to pull up! But I was able to throat fuck myself with it pretty successfully after that. I want to get pegged with him!

I sucked Johnny and the Dream Dick in turn after "satisfying" Buck. Johnny seemed unrealistic and smaller (but still good), the Dream Dick seemed bigger and a little more challenging (but I felt the head less). And then back to Buck, because if I'd just sucked him off, I now wanted to gently suck out every last drop!

My stats at Cock Size Contest (CSC) are now 19 wins, 36 losses and 2 ties. One of the guys I tied with calls himself dinky (bulgeless). Dude, wtf! You may think of yourself as dinky and bulgeless, but my dick is plenty big, thank you very much.

I'm making too many comments and being too much of a submissive bitch there, I think. I think I'll just respond and not make too many comments the next couple of days and see what happens.

I realized today that not only do some guys overstate their size, but some guys seem to deliberately understate their size, I guess so they'll lose more. But almost all the guys with dicks smaller than mine are complete bitches, more submissive even than me. I find them a turn off. I hope I'm not so much of a turn off, but I'm afraid I may be. Like I say, I'm going to STFU for a couple days and see what happens.

I noticed I was less aroused today at CSC. Just to make sure my equipment was still working right, I watched some straight porn (Aletta Angel giving good head to two guys with nice dicks (one I'd guess about 6 inches long by 5 inches around and nicely curved upwards, the other guy's dick was straight and maybe 6.75 inches by 5.75 or so). She could deepthroat the smaller guy and actually seemed to like sucking his dick more than the bigger guy. And the smaller guy got to fuck her gorgeous ass and finally come up inside there. The big guy came in her mouth and she drooled it back out. She kept sucking them both. She didn't seem to want it to end. My dick was hard as a rocket.

So I guess I'm not that gay, or maybe I just didn't get bitched around enough today. I'm a 2 (mainly into girls, but more than incidentally into guys) on the Kinsey Scale and when I'm horny enough for cock, I'm a 3 (bisexual). I'm sure if I really were surrounded by gay or bi guys with big dicks, I'd fall on my knees in half a second and try to suck all of them off, deepthroating, face-fucking, even some ass-licking for truly hot guys. I'd want to swallow all the cum. I would hope to be facefucked, dickslapped, bossed around, taunted - all of the above and whatever else the dominant big dick guys want.

The horniest thing that happened today was making a "bet" with a guy who I knew I'd lose to, that the loser had to give the winner a blowjob (imaginary of course) in front of a well-hung (allegedly) dude who liked the idea. I started to go on cam chat but chickened out. I think I need some kind of mask and then I'll do it. One thing for sure: I'm going to the gym faithfully from now on!

My appetite has decreased and I have a "funny feeling" in my stomach. It's kind of like being in love - but I know it's actually LUST!

I remember feeling this way when I first sucked a dick to completion at age 16. (I'll have to write a full entry about my gay experiences). But the only guy I ever made cum was a good friend of mine, maybe my best friend. He was spending the night at my house, had helped me with my paper route (85 mile rural night car route), and after we got home in the predawn, I got him horny by showing him Playboy's Girls of Summer. He took off his undies under the covers. "For luck", he joked, putting his undies under his pillow. A few minutes after the lights went out, I peeked over the edge of the bed and saw his naked ass (he was only 15 and his ass was hairless and irresistibly shapely. I kissed his rounded and muscular ass cheeks, smelled his crack (smelled like clean sweat), kissed his crack - and then he rolled over towards me and I retreated. I waited, then peeked again. This time, I saw his dick. Surprisingly maybe, I hadn't expected that. I had just wanted to kiss his ass, but there was his dick and I got that funny feeling in my stomach even more than I'd had it already. His cock was similar in overall size to mine, probably about the same length, a little thinner and definitely smaller at the head. Nicely curved! It was pulsing and dripping with precum. After kissing it, licking it, tasting the precum, taking hie shaft in my hand, then sucking the first couple of inches a little, he rolled away and I figured he didn't want me to make him cum (which by now I'd decided I REALLY wanted to do). In a whisper (my parents were three rooms away), I literally begged him to let me suck his dick. I asked 3 times - "roll over and I'll suck it" - "roll over and I'll suck your dick" - "PLEASE let me suck your goddamm big dick!" He finally rolled over and looked at me and said "Whaaaat?" with a very amused look on his face. I again chickened out, whispered something like never mind and slid back into my sleeping bag on the floor, naked and with the hardest hard-on I've ever had (before or since).

I was just about to start jacking off when I realized he was standing over me, naked. He said "I'll suck yours if you'll suck mine". I paused, immediately decided and said "OK". Maybe what I did next was a blunder. I said "who goes first?" If I had it to do over, I would say "YOU go first", sit down on the edge of the bed and present my dick to be sucked. But instead I asked him to decide and he gave me that amused look again, said "you go first", sat down on the bed and then laid back. So, as if watching someone else do it (I couldn't quite believe it, it was just too good to be true), I lifted his gorgeous dick to my lips and soon was deepthroating for the first time. I did everything. Fondled his balls, fingered his ass, licked his ass, sucked his balls, sucked his dick with great passion and rhythm while stroking/fondling/fingering him...he said, "Oh, god" - and then spewed a HUGE load of warm, salty sperm into my mouth! Which again, somehow, I hadn't been expecting. I found the trash and spit most of the load into the cup he'd been using for spitting his tobacco juice into (yep, he's a redneck). He said "what do I do with the rest of it?" I found it hard to believe there could be more cum. I told him to wipe it on the sheet. The taste of his cum stayed in my mouth all day. And it made me horny, all day.

Well, he wouldn't suck my dick and in fact never sucked me off in all the years we hooked up. I think if I'd made him go first, he'd have enjoyed it and maybe we'd have traded bjs instead of just me sucking him off. But maybe it would have been such a huge turnoff for him he'd never have hooked up with me again. Anyway, I came three times in the next 30 minutes or so by my own hand. I had that funny feeling in my stomach for several days. And I ate less. The same thing happened when he stayed over later that fall. Seduction. Suckoff (this time, and every time after, I swallowed). The funny feeling. The reduced appetite.

Over the years I sucked him off about 100 times and he fucked my ass about half a dozen times. Years later he said "you definitely get the best blowjob award." I'm still proud of that!

I'd like to see how I do with one or more really well-hung guys. I wonder if I could deepthroat them as well as I do Buck, Johnny and the Dream Dick. You know what's weird: it actually makes my nipples hard to think about it!