I haven't been intimate with another man in over 10 years, but I remember the primal, raw power of an orgasming cock held firmly inside my mouth, my tongue registering even the subtler pulses, each sensation transferring viscerally to my own penis and touching something deeper in my being. This feeling of knowing pretty precisely how much pleasure I've given (a lot!) on a physical level and feeling it on an emotional and spiritual level...
Part of it was what it said to me about myself. I just pleasured another man to completion with my hands and mouth. Which makes me gay, a cocksucker. Submissive to the other guy, inferior. And yet so turned on and satisfied by that. So...comfortable with being the beta serving the Alpha. Successfully pleasing the Alpha.
The first time I sucked my friend off (I was 16, he was 15), I was surprised - shocked - when his dick suddenly throbbed so hard and I found my mouth instantly FILLED with HIS cum. I guess I'd expected him to warn me. Because he didn't, I instantly knew that to him I was nothing more than the sucking mouth on the end of his orgasming dick. I knew how he would feel, how good it would have felt to stay in. After all, I had already sucked and stroked his dick, fondled his ass and balls, and nearly deep-throated him. From his side, why SHOULDN'T he cum in that bitch's mouth?
I was so shocked I spat it out into the first thing I could find, which was a "Big Gulp" cup from 7-11 that my friend (a country boy) had been spitting his Skoal into all evening. Looking down at the huge white blob in the dark brown tobacco juice, I immediately wondered what it would have been like to swallow it. But at the time I doubted I could have swallowed all of that.
But the next time, a couple of months later, I proved myself wrong on that. He came just as much the second time and I had no trouble swallowing it all. I found myself wishing I hadn't swallowed so quickly. I loved the way it tasted and the way it lingered, a reminder of my submission and pleasure-giving. A memorial to how much I pleased him. I swallowed all but two of the 100 or so times I sucked him off after that, once when he pulled away before he came and once just to see how it would feel/look for him to cum all over my face. Several times I held it in my mouth and walked over to a mirror to see myself with a mouthful of HIS cum. And to watch myself swallow it right before I came.
I love to swallow my own cum, although it's less fun because well, it's always right after I cum! And it doesn't keep (I tried)! I often masturbate while sucking on a realistic dildo. When I do, I always imagine "him" cumming in my mouth right before I cum. I often think about my friend cumming in my mouth and my swallowing.
There's something deep about swallowing a man's sperm. As if you're symbolically (almost sacramentally) accepting that person's very essence into the deepest part of you, and giving absolutely as much pleasure as the act of pleasuring allows.
And having had my cum swallowed a few times, I can say it feels the same from the other end - complete acceptance and desire to please. From either end, to me it's one of the most satisfying of all the sexual experiences.
That's why I'm always surprised when someone who's tried swallowing doesn't like it.
Unfortunately, most women don't like to swallow. I thought maybe I just had bad-tasting cum (although I LOVE the taste of my cum). I'm relieved to find it's true for most women for anyone's cum. Relieved but not pleased. A little discouraged, maybe...especially since my wife is one of the non-swallowers!
But if I want to SEE swallowing, it's super easy. Swallowing has become more common in porn to the point where it's unusual to find a porn star who NEVER swallows. Most experienced porn stars swallow in at least a few scenes.
But which porn stars swallow most?
IAFD is another reason for me to love teh intarwebs. Look up a porn star on IAFD, and it lists all her titles (excluding web-only). You can filter the results by various criteria, including which titles which include her swallowing.
That makes it possible to compute a star's IAFD Swallow Percentage (ISP?). I've done this with many of my favorite stars. Here are a few examples:
- Sandra Romain - according to IAFD, the Romanian beauty with the fabulous booty appears in 544 titles; she swallows in 62 of them, giving her an ISP of 11.3.
- Taylor St. Claire swallows in just one of her 414 titles. Her ISP is a pathetic 0.2 (about the only thing pathetic about this amazing woman. Of course I just bought that one title!)
- Annette Schwarz. Is she the perfect porn star? She's damned good. Swallows an amazing 64 times out of 237 titles for an ISP of 27.0, the highest I've seen so far.
- Katja Kassin. Another fine German export. Although her ISP is only 14.9, IAFD says she appears in 543 titles and swallows in 81 of them! That's the highest number of swallows I've seen so far and I felt Katja deserved an honorable mention for that!
Having looked at ISPs for a couple of days now, I believe that the more a porn star swallows, the more sexually passionate she is. In other words, ISP correlates highly with sexual passion. Or put even more simply, chicks who swallow are the BEST!
Because swallowing is the best.
