So I've continued my porn exploration, even though the free "pornucopia" is over for now. Apparently, I've reviewed my full quota of films for this year, but it was fun while it lasted and it won't be long before another year starts!
My wife and I are having good sex regularly again, mostly of the vanilla variety, but with a little kink here and there. And I'm still masturbating (of course!). I try to cum at least once, usually twice a day. The last week or so, it's been more like 3-4 times a day. I will explain before the end of this post.
I'm still looking at too much porn (my collection is embarrassingly large and constantly growing) and discovering unknown stars, etc.
My new obsession started last week when I decided to take a measuring tape and measure all my dildos. I'm still not 100% sure why I decided to do this. I guess I still haven't found the perfect size dildo in silicone. The Dream Dick, which I now know to be 6 7/8 inches long by 1 7/8 inches wide (5.8 inches in girth), is the perfect dick for me to suck. It's not overwhelming, but deepthroating it repeatedly turns me into a watery-eyed drool monster. And I feel like I'm being dominated by a guy with a really big dick! That usually makes me cum right away. My favorite masturbation lately is to suck on the dream dick while fucking my ass with either Vixskin Johnny or the Cobalt butt plug. Usually with my balls tied and my dick in the "slave tube". Doesn't take me long to cum that way!
But - the Dream Dick is Cyberskin and Cyberskin is not forever. It's about 2 years old now and probably won't last another 2 years. Which is a shame. If I don't find a replacement, I'll probably just buy another one when the time comes. But I'd rather find a replacement in Vixskin or some other lifelike silicone. Anyway, so I did the measurements, which took me a couple of days (I do have to work, y'know) and in the end I made a spreadsheet with all the dildos I own and all the ones on my wishlist. One thing I learned in my measuring, is that almost all of them are a different size than what was advertised. The general trend is that they are a little longer and a little less girthy than advertised.
Anyway, through this process, I realized the Vixskin Buck is my next logical purchase. It's a little shorter (1/4 inch) but also a little girthier (1/8 inch) than the Dream Dick. And it's in the mail and should get here tomorrow! When I bought the Vixskin Maverick, I spent some time trying to decide between it and Buck and chose Maverick because he's longer. But he's not that realistic. Nice big head, but a smooth, veinless shaft and a strange bump just below the head which I guess is supposed to be like a folded foreskin but is just hard and kinda weird instead. And I got it in Vanilla, which is way lighter than my wife's gorgeous olive skin, so she doesn't like it, which means that even if it was otherwise perfect, I still wouldn't get pegged by it. So I got Buck in Caramel. I'll post a review once I've test driven it (or maybe that should be 'after I've been test driven by Buck'!).
Now I'm about to get to the good part. :)
So in the middle of all this measuring, I decided to measure my own equipment. And I used the same careful, scientific, accurate method: I measured the length as the shortest distance from the root to the tip (which is on top) without pushing in my skin at all; then I measured the girth by measuring carefully at four points (base, mid, top, head) and averaging them together. Then I measured again to make sure, and entered my data into the spreadsheet. I discovered I was a little bigger than the Vamp Softskin Elvis, but way smaller than the Vixskin Johnny (which my wife had told me earlier this year before ramming it down my throat and up my ass for the first time!).
So...I started to wonder how I compared with other guys. Based on the best sources I could find online, I figured I was average, or a little above average. And then I think I was actually searching for fiction about a cock size contest, idly thinking about writing some myself if I didn't find any, when I stumbled into cocksizecontest.com. And that has made for a VERY interesting week!
After inputting my carefully-measured figures as instructed, and uploading a photo of the head of my semi-hard dick, I soon received a "challenge" from one of the site's members - and I LOST, big time! And I got challenged again. And lost again! Ouch! After a few more of these, most of which I lost just as badly, I began to believe I had a little dick and that most of the members of the site were much better hung than me. Many of them had pictures uploaded to verify the size they claimed. At first, I just kind of got red in the face with embarrassment, but then one of the guys that beat me taunted me, telling me to suck hie superior cock, and I got VERY, VERY, horny.
I've been taunted like that several more times and I even updated my profile to encourage it. I told one guy I'd do whatever he asked me to do and he had me email a pic of his huge hard cock to one of my ex-girlfriends (the kinkiest, sluttiest one naturally). As "ordered" by my big-dicked "master", I gave her his email address and asked her to tell him what she thought of it. She cc'd me and said that his dick was much bigger than mine, "obviously"! Haven't heard much from either of them since then! For all I know, they might be hooking up. I came about 5 times in a row from that.
Mostly guys just want me to publicly post that they are more of a man than me, and to make worshipful comments on the pics of their huge cocks. Which is A LOT of fun for them and me!
I've come to realize that hardly anyone was honest about their dick size and that even the verification pics can be faked. Easily. I probably am at least average or above. But I'm happy to be the "little dick" in a sea of Huge Manhood. I love being bossed around, dominated, humiliated by these guys! I've only been dominated by one guy before and his dick was a little smaller than mine. Even though this is essentially fantasy, in a way it's better than the real thing was. These are real guys, it's easy to believe their cocks are huge and I don't know what they are going to do to me. Which is a HUGE turn-on.
I've gotten so hard thinking about it that I'm going back there now. More later!
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I feel like the fantasy of my having a small dick was a sexual wrong turn. I found myself not as aroused. That was true for my wife, too. Many times, after I came fantasizing some scenario that had me submitting sexually to a guy with a bigger dick, I felt lousy afterwards.
ReplyDeleteI realize now that almost everyone on that site was blatantly exaggerating their size. I don't even care that some guys have bigger dicks than mine. Many more guys have dicks smaller than mine than have bigger ones. Instead of feeling envious towards guys with bigger dicks, I feel like a guy with a billion dollars probably feels about guys with 2 (or 10) billion dollars. It's AWESOME to have what I have, and more wouldn't necessarily be better for my wife or me. Although it is sometimes still fun to think about.
When I cum thinking about being dominant and having a big dick, I feel GREAT after cumming. I feel best after thinking about cumming inside my wife, or inside a cuckold man's wife. Actually best of all is to actually cum inside my wife. After that, I feel great for days.