lovesmallpenis.wordpress.com is no longer available.
The authors have deleted this site.
That's what I found recently when I tried to view Steve and Hottie's excellent blog, Love Small Penis (LSP). Why?
No idea.
I sent Steve an email, but he didn't reply. I may email Hottie, but I haven't yet. The last I heard from them, back around mid-January (also the time of my last entry on here), Hottie had warmed up to the idea of actually hooking up with a well-hung Bull. Steve was, as always, more than supportive. I was signed up to receive an automatic email whenever they updated. I waited. And waited. And then... nothing.
The only clue I have comes from Rougedmount, a blogger I know mainly from her insightful comments on the LSP blog. She posted on February 17:
With permission from Steve and Hottie, I am passing along the information that they have decided to shut down the blog and walk away from the community after considering all of the options available to them.
Apparently, managing such a popular, interactive blog was just too much for them to keep up with and keep living normal(ish) lives. Maybe I'm lucky that so few read my blog! Of course, we can't be sure that the "official" reason Rougedmont reported is the actual reason Steve and Hottie deleted their blog. But whatever, they are missed and I wish them well. They helped me understand my sexuality, and my true nature as a dominant masculine man, much better.
But - as it keeps turning out with me, it's not quite that simple.
I still get turned on, not only by the idea of dominating, but also by the idea of being dominated. And - not only am I turned on by women, but also (admittedly, much less often) by men. What I find particularly interesting, confusing - and frustrating - is that my fantasies involving women are both dominant and submissive, but my fantasies involving men are almost entirely submissive, at least the ones that turn me on the most.
Yeah, I'm mainly talking about being turned on by the thought of sucking big dick(s)!
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| I admit it! Usually, I want to be him. But sometimes, I do want to be her. WHY?! |
Looking at CL, it's easy to see I'm not alone. There are a few guys looking for head, and LOTS of guys looking for dick to suck. I keep looking, almost every day. I haven't actually taken any action, but I've been tempted to reply to a couple of ads.
But WHY?? Why do I want to suck big dick(s)? And why do so many men want to do that?
From my own experience, I know I'm happier when I get off in a masculine, dominant way, that is to say, happier after. Before, and during, I'm turned on about equally at the thought of sucking a big dick, or having my dick sucked. But afterwards, I feel MUCH better if I was fantasizing about having mine sucked. I always feel weird if I was thinking about sucking a cock.
Also, why do I get turned on thinking about hot women sucking my cock, but not by a man doing it? I guess a mouth really isn't just a mouth, after all. I digress.
Last week, I got really turned on, browsed CL, almost replied to a post by a well-hung guy who lives close to here and was looking for someone like me to suck him and swallow. Instead of contacting him, which I was sure I would have regretted, I went upstairs and sucked on a big realistic dildo while I fucked my Fleshlight. As I got close to cumming, my thoughts wandered to my wife, and I imagined her cuckolding me with this "guy" whose dick I was sucking. I imagined she was there, "forcing" me to suck his "superior" cock, and taunting me, calling me a bitch and a cocksucker, kissing him, and letting him fondle her gorgeous tits and ass while I submissively deepthroated his huge manhood and prepared to swallow his huge, salty load.
As I felt myself starting to cum, I tried to change the script, to think instead about getting a blowjob from my wife (she had just sucked my cock that very morning!), and I was somewhat successful. But I still had the submissive thoughts, enhanced by the lingering taste of the dildo, and as I'd expected, I felt weird and not that great afterwards. Oh, well.
Since my last blog entry in January, my sexual fantasies and reality have been almost entirely dominant and masculine. My wife and I have had lots of sex, as usual, and it's been almost entirely instigated by me, and exactly what I want to happen. I've dominated her, tied her up, fucked her ass and spanked her, cum inside her pussy in lots of different positions, and gotten lots and lots of blowjobs, many of which finished with her swallowing. Once or twice a week, I give her as many orgasms as she wants with my mouth and fingers.
The only even vaguely submissive things have been that sometimes, my fantasies stray to thoughts of her with a better-endowed man, or of her dominating me - and sometimes I kiss her ass! Yesterday, she was giving me a blowjob. After a few minutes, she turned around and got on top of me in a 69. I liked! I had just licked her to about 8 orgasms, 3 of which had her writhing in massive internal spasms of G-spot induced ecstasy. So I was a little surprised she wanted more. But I love to lick her, and to stare at her perfect ass. So, as she's sucking my cock and fondling my balls in a most delightful way, I start licking and staring - and almost immediately she releases a HUGE FART! Unfortunately, it went right over me and I could just barely smell it, but it turned me on in a big way! She farted again, and then again - and then I came in her mouth. I don't know if she swallowed this time, but it felt REALLY good.
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| Oh, baby - that's what I like! |
Lately, I haven't been looking at much porn video, not even amateur or kinky porn. Instead, I've been looking at pics, mostly of naked brunette women with brown eyes, nice bodies, and natural body hair. Hey, I like what I like! Also, I've been way into POV blowjob pics, where the photographer is looking down at a hot women with his dick in her mouth. Again, it's brown-eyed brunettes that turn me on the most, especially Cathy Heaven!
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| Quite possibly, this is the hottest image to me in the entire universe right now. |
For a while, I wasn't masturbating at all, in the hope that it would bring me closer to my wife, but all that really happened was that I didn't cum as often as I'd like. A man should cum 20+ times a month for sexual health, and my wife just doesn't want that much sex. She does want it enough to keep me happy, as long as I supplement with some self-abuse. I make sure to cum at least two out of every three days. What I've done for the past few weeks has been to masturbate the next day after we have sex, then take the next day off, then have sex with her again on the day after that. I don't like sex to be formulaic, but this frequency and pattern is a formula that's working VERY well for both of us.
I haven't been blogging because I've been either busy, or blissed-out, or both. Life is great, but the greatness is the same greatness I've blogged about many times before. I would say that I'll try to post more often, but I know from experience that that's an empty promise.
I will say this - I'm not going to do like Steve and Hottie. I won't delete this blog without warning or explanation. So keep checking back if you like what you see.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to spend some quality time with a Fleshlight. Later!
