What I did with my dick

Not me.

I didn't fuck my wife and I didn't get a blowjob from a guy. I didn't even try. I just jerked off thinking about kissing female ass, fucking female ass, being farted on by a hot female ass, being cuckolded, being the bull fucking another guy's wife's ass, getting head from a hot female, and finally again, fucking a hot female ass..

This was the image I was looking at when I came:

I came into my hand and ate it. It tasted good. I hadn't cum in 2 days so I came a lot. I felt pretty good afterwards, I was relieved that I didn't get a blowjob from a guy. I was a little sad thinking about how much more awesome it would have been to cum inside my wife.

Maybe tomorrow I'll wake up in time to fuck my wife!

What to do with my dick?

Haha. I need to decide whether to fuck my wife in the morning, or try to get a blowjob from a guy.

The answer is obvious, isn't it? I should fuck my wife!

The only problem is that I may not wake up before she gets up. Once she has breakfast and coffee, it's all over. She will never come back to bed after that. She actually did, a couple of times, but it wasn't any good.

Actually that's not true - once, she had breakfast and coffee, and then she sat on my face/head for about 45 minutes while she talked on the phone with her friend. She was naked, and my head was under the covers. She farted a couple of times, and I wasn't allowed to cum until she got off the phone. That was awesome. 

Of course, it was my idea. One thing I've learned about my wife is that if I don't suggest it, it's not going to happen. That even goes for me giving her head. Once I start to do it, she really likes it, but I don't think she's ever initiated even that. 

The one time I can remember her initiating sex was when I asked her, at bedtime, to wake me up in the morning with a blowjob. She did, and it was awesome. (In the interests of fairness, reciprocity and all that jazz, I woke her with oral a couple of days later. She did NOT like it at all). 

But she almost never refuses me, either. If I start kissing her in the morning, and I want to fuck her, I will fuck her. If I want a blowjob, she'll give me a blowjob. If I want to fuck her in the ass - she'll say no! But I'll get in there on a weekend night very soon. If I ask for a blowjob more than one day in a row, she might give in, but she won't be happy about it. Ditto if I want to fuck her two days in a row. 

If I want sex 4 days in a row (which is about the most I hope for these days), it will have to start with kinky sex, ideally anal. The next morning, I can lick her to several orgasms and then receive a blowjob. The morning after that, I can cum between her feet with my face up her ass. The morning after that, I can fuck her (vaginally). Then, there has to be at least one day off, more likely two. The order of sex acts can vary, but the basic pattern stays the same: a different kind of sex, or no sex, each day, never the same thing more than once in a row.

It was different when we were dating. Then I could fuck her several times over the course of one day and/or night. And then I could fuck her again the next day. 

I like it a lot better now, because I have more sex, and to me that beats the higher intensity of the dating sex. It definitely makes us closer, and I guess it's more endorphins gushing through our bloodstreams. 

Yesterday morning, I made her cum with my mouth and hands, and then she sat on my face and gave me a pretty good blowjob. She played with my balls a lot, and rubbed her pussy in my face while she sucked me. Her ass in my face is amazing. She sucked me deeper than halfway a couple of times. She let me cum in her mouth. She was discreet about spitting it out. Two days before that, I kissed/licked/sucked her ass and came on her feet. Two days before that, I came inside her while fucking her in doggy (with a little choking and hair-pulling)..

Lately I've been wondering what it would be like to get a blowjob from a guy. I want to be sucked with enthusiasm, I want to be deepthroated, and I want my cum to be swallowed! Basically, I want to experience better head, maybe better than I ever got before. How will I feel, after? 

I think I'm going to try to wake up in time to fuck my wife. Yep.

Actions speak louder than words, I guess

Yesterday morning, I fucked my wife's face, and she fondled my balls, until I came in her mouth. I didn't imagine any fantasies, I just enjoyed what was happening, and thought about that. I came a lot. It felt amazing from start to finish, and just as good afterwards. All day it felt good.

This morning, I fucked my wife from behind and came inside her pussy. I only lasted a few minutes. She wasn't getting off on it much, and I fantasized about watching a guy with a big dick fuck her, with her getting off on it in a HUGE way. I looked at her back and the back of her neck and head, and imagined that she was thinking about getting fucked by that guy, and I came in just a few seconds. I came pretty hard. The orgasm lasted about 45 seconds. I have felt GREAT all day.

I still looked at CL yesterday and today. Just now, I replied to a guy in his 20s looking to receive head, and maybe to give it, too. I don't expect a response. That's what usually happens. The old L.A. "no".

Not sure why I keep looking. Maybe it's just a desire to do something dangerous. Or maybe I just want cock, in addition to amazing female ass, tits, mouth...and everything. I love to fantasize I'm doing it because my wife told me to do it. 

Anyway, it's been a fun weekend. I hope the week ahead is good, too.

Could it be...Satan?!

Sometimes I wonder WHY I get turned on by submissive fantasies and actions.

Lately, I've been fantasizing about sucking cock, and indulging the fantasy by searching for pics of "superior" cocks online, and sometimes I actually suck a realistic dildo while I masturbate, usually the "Perfect Pecker" (aka thick BBC).

As if that wasn't submissive enough, I also have recurring fantasies about my wife cuckolding me with a "superior" man with a "superior cock. In one of my favorite fantasies lately, She makes me kiss and lick Her Ass in from of Him, and of course, She farts in my nose/mouth and they Both think it's hilarious.

Because his cock is so big, my wife can only handle him a couple of times a week. Being a VERY manly man, He needs/demands to cum at least once a day, and a guy like that doesn't jerk off. So I have to service him, of course, giving him expert, worshipful blowjobs whenever he tells me to (sometimes multiple times a day), and bending over at his command.

He has no respect for me at all.

He likes to slap me in the face with his big cock, and to rub it, and his big hairy balls, all over my face. He washes up carefully before he has sex with my wife, but when I'm going to service him, he doesn't bother washing up at all. He likes to compare His Cock with my little "dicklet" (my wife called it that, and he thought it was hilarious and copied her) and laugh, especially when my wife is there to laugh with him. His Cock is about twice as big as my dicklet, significantly longer, and MUCH thicker. I can just barely deepthroat it, and sucking it for more than a couple of minutes makes my jaw ache for hours.

Sometimes he makes me wear a chastity device, other times he makes me jerk off into my hand and eat it BEFORE I serve his pleasure. He cums in my mouth (and throat, and ass) without warning, and he expects my ass to be ready for him at all times. When he fucks me, he just tells me to stick my ass up, and as soon as I do, he rams his big cock in all the way with no mercy. He fucks my throat the same way. After seeing my wife fart in my face, he also makes me lick his ass, and he is highly amused to fart loudly in my nose/mouth with no warning. He also finds it amusing to hit and kick me in the balls, and to squeeze my balls too hard while he's fucking me.

Of course he likes to have my wife suck his dick in front of me, and to fuck her while I watch. Of course, she gets off MUCH more with him and his big cock than she ever did with me and my little dicklet. She says it, both when she and I are alone, and when the three of us are together.

Why would I have a fantasy like that?!

I can't help but think this is what a religious person would call the work of the devil! Other bedevilments include wanting to browse the m4m section of CL, and even occasionally to reply to a post. Only if the poster is well-endowed, looking for a blowjob, close by, and hosting. But CL being what it is, I have yet to make a connection. There's a black guy in his mid 20's who's been looking for someone like me, an older white guy with no gag reflex. He wants to cum at least twice. He has a Big Dick. I replied. He was interested. And then he was gone. He contacted me later when it was impossible for me to get away, but I have gotten seriously aroused thinking about sucking his Cock and getting my face fucked until I'm digesting at least two loads of his sperm. Just now I looked. There's a guy not far from here, "tall with a big dick" looking to get his dick sucked tomorrow. I replied. Let's see what happens. I probably won't (can't) actually do it, and that's almost certainly for the best. The fantasy is so powerful, though, that I can't help putting my fingers near the fire. My wife has been sick for a couple of weeks, so I've been unusually horny. I've even been checking out some of the posts by guys wanting to suck dick. I replied to a couple of those. Those guys are quick to respond, and eager to please! Again, nothing has come of it, and probably, nothing will. Years ago, I got a pretty good blowjob from a drag queen, but I've never had a BJ to completion from a masculine guy. When I'm as horny as I am now, I think I would like it. It would have to feel as good as my hand does, right?

But then I think, "What about AFTER?" That's always the important part. I don't think I'd feel very good after sucking another guy's dick, or after getting my dick sucked by a guy.

Still, it feels good to fantasize about it, and I haven't felt bad after cumming while fantasizing about either of those things. That's not all I fantasize about lately, but it's been the dominant theme for the last month or so. I've also cum thinking about getting my dick sucked by a woman, sometimes my wife, sometimes another guy's wife. Sometimes I fantasize about cumming inside another woman's pussy, or ass. A lot of times when I'm close to cumming from thinking about something submissive, I "flip the script" and think about something dominant while I cum. Probably my favorite current fantasy is to cum inside another man's wife and get her pregnant! In the fantasy, I'm out of town, anonymous, and untraceable. Usually the husband has to either suck my cock then guide me into his wife's pussy, and/or he licks/sucks my balls and or ass while I fuck her with no protection.

And sometimes I just look at pictures of sexy naked women and cum thinking about them.

Before my wife got sick, the sex was pretty good. I had a minor injury a couple of months ago, and there was only about a 10 day window between recovering from that and my wife's getting sick. In that time, I made her cum with oral on 3 different days, fucked her a couple of times, got two blowjobs, and kissed her ass while fucking her feet once.

I can't wait until she's well again. Maybe this weekend...