Reflections on Pr0n

Well... it's nearly 1 am (my bedtime) and I've been surfing the internet in search of porn for the past several hours. Finding a LOT to my liking, too. It never ceases to amaze me how much is available FOR FREE.

I've got an external hard drive full of free internet porn. If I never download another byte, I've got enough potential orgasms in there to last me 69 lifetimes. Too bad you can't take it with you, huh?

What irks me is that if I'd stopped my surfing three hours ago when my beautiful wife went to bed, I might have had real life kinky sex tonight. Not for certain, but certainly possible. Why didn't I at least try? What's so great about great free porn?

Maybe the worst part is that what I really like about porn is... penises. That's right: I'm mainly in it for the COCK. So many great cocks on the internet. All longer and thicker than the only one I ever actually hooked up with. All so delicious and dominant looking. So many fantasies.

Being happily married to a seriously kinky woman, I have no interest in actually turning any of those fantasies into reality. If I want to suck dick, or get fucked, I simply mention it to her, she straps on a big fucking cock and I get my little bitch on. One of many reasons why I am the luckiest guy on earth.

But cyberskin isn't human skin and it can't cum in your mouth or up your ass. Which is why the fantasies are still compelling and all the strapon sex in the world isn't quite satisfying. That's why when I'm deep throating her strapon, I'm fantasizing about some pic I saw on the internet of some tall, buff, insanely hung guy I will never meet and wouldn't stand a chance with if I did.

Anyway, you might think I'd like gay porn, but aside from the occasional gay gang bang (little submissive guy gets nailed by half a dozen big dominant guys), I just like straight porn. I once read that straight guys often don't like hardcore porn because it's a turn-off for them to see another guy getting it on with "their" girl. That's how I feel about gay porn. Looking at the submissive guy (the one sucking or getting fucked) makes me resent him for being where I should be. And he's not a turn on to look at; the dominant guy is.

But watching a beautiful girl sucking or getting fucked is awesome. I love looking at sexy women, and I love watching dominant men getting head and fucking. Put the two together and it's perfect.

I know I'm weird. But I'll bet there are a lot of guys like me out there. And I'm glad they don't turn me on.

OK, to bed. Maybe I can hook up with my amazing and sexy wife in the morning...