The joys of my (fictional) "shortcummings"

Once upon a time, I believed I had a big dick.

I used to look at my naked body in the mirror and get so horny I just had to jack off. Now, I don't look if I can help it.

My penis is still 6.5" honest inches long (not to be confused with "internet inches"), and 5" around. It's nicely on the above average side of average and I've never had any complaints. Certainly it's brought me a LOT of pleasure over the years. My girlfriends always seemed to like it, too, although I'm not sure I've ever fucked a woman to orgasm. Fortunately for them (and now my wife), I love to lick and lick and lick. And use my fingers, etc.

Lately, though, I've been feeling kind of... small. I'm carrying some extra weight, much of it acquired recently (I've been too fucking busy - and not enough vice-versa!). Being bigger all over makes my cock look smaller. Also, maybe I've watched too much porn. Certainly the guys in mainstream porn have unusually huge cocks. Lately I've been watching more amateur porn. At first, I couldn't understand why even the guys in the amateur clips I'm watching have dicks bigger than mine! But then I realized I've only been watching the clips where the preview thumbnail shows the guy has a big dick. I went back yesterday and watching a dozen or so randomly selected clips, and I was relieved to find that 2/3 of the guys in those clips had dicks smaller than mine. But in the porn I've saved on the computer, and especially the clips I watch repeatedly, I'd guess 90% of the guys have bigger dicks than mine.

The cool thing, surprisingly, is that I'm getting off in a big way (no pun intended!) on believing I'm a "smalldick", and on being dominated, both by my wife (and her bigger-than-me strap-ons) and also in fantasy by guys with bigger dicks. Believing I have a small dick makes me feel more submissive, and less like a MAN, in the dominant, confident, Alpha Male sense of the word.

I've been fantasizing more and more about such a man: he's taller than me, with more muscles and less fat, with a very confident and dominant attitude - and of course a BIG DICK! I don't care at all about race; He could be white, black, hispanic, asian, mixed race - whatever. I like the idea of a younger guy, but someone a little older than me who's in such good shape that he looks/acts younger than me would be just as good.

He would be sadistic, immediately recognizing me for the submissive bitch I am. He'd make fun of me, putting me in my place pretty much constantly, calling me "boy" or "bitch", demanding (and getting) worshipful sexual service, whatever he demands, whenever he demands it. He'd make me call him Master.

Of course, he would cuckold me! He and my wife would dominate me together. She'd watch me suck Master's cock and eat load after load of his cum. She would "make me" bend over for him to split me wide open. She'd kick me in the balls, and make me kiss her ass (etc) in front of him. They'd laugh at me, including my little dick, a LOT. I'd have to give both of them foot massages... and so on.

I've started to put an ad on CL a few times, explicitly seeking a big-dicked Alpha to dominate me, but so far, I've always stopped myself. Usually, I read today's "casual encounters" section, look at some porn with big-dicked men, and then go upstairs and jerk off. After that, of course I have no more interest in posting an ad.

My wife gets turned off if I dwell on small penis humiliation (sph) too much, but she will go along sometimes and really get into it. She loves comparing her strap-on (usually Vixskin Johnny) to my "little average dick" and then making me suck her bigger cock before fucking me until I cum. Usually I suck on the Dream Dick while she's fucking me. Sometimes she taunts me, saying she has a lover and his cock is twice the size of mine. She says she wants to see me deepthroat his "gorgeous cock" and swallow his cum.

Lately, even when my wife and I are having vanilla sex, I have submissive small-dick-cuckold fantasies. I usually keep these to myself. This morning, we didn't have much time. I had to choose between kissing her ass, or fucking her from behind in spoon position. I chose the spoon option. She's put on a little extra weight lately, too, so her ass is nice and round. Between that and my extra weight, my cock penetrates only a couple of inches into her in this position. She didn't give any indication that she felt anything as I thrusted. My thrusts were short. I kept thinking about how small my dick is, how small it must feel to her, and how much differently she'd react to an Alpha with a big dick fucking her. The thought really got me off quickly, maybe too quickly. I held back a little, but I couldn't help thinking: "cum quick, little dick" (something I had my wife say to me once a few months ago). I don't think I lasted 5 minutes! She hadn't seemed into the sex, but when I came, she was disappointed, and said she'd been enjoying it and wished it had lasted longer. Oh, well.

I do last longer when I'm "in charge". I'm overdue for dominating her. It's been over 2 months. I'm looking forward to fucking her ass again. I hope I never become so submissive that it's always her dick in my ass! It's an awesome thought in fantasy. But I prefer the current reality.

Now I'm inspired to hit the gym. Losing weight will make my dick bigger! . And, I could meet my "Master" there! Haha.